Page 13 of My best friends little sister

The weekend went by, I tried to avoid angelica as much as possible.

As much as it hurt to do, it had to be done, for the sake of my friendship because I know I cant control myself around her.

All I want to do is kiss her, hug her, buy her flowers, call her mine but I cant and it hurts so much.

She comes downstairs for breakfast and dinner and we exchange a hello but once thats over we go our separate ways doing our own thing, until tonight.

Its Sunday night and Mateo insisted on watching movies in the living room, I tried to protest telling him I had work to do but he wouldn't back down, now here I am sat beside angelica with her legs draped over my lap.

2 movies watched and Mateo still wasn't done, the pizza just arrived and it was just getting started.

''So angel looking forward to going back to school tomorrow?

'' Mateo says taking a huge bite of his pizza.

I look over at angel who's looking down at her hands playing with her fingers ''um yea I guess'' I frown, she still wont touch her pizza, just like last time

Another movie finishes and angelica still hasn't touched her pizza or any of the snacks, not a single bite of anything.

Mateo puts on a new movie but this time its a horror movie, I notice angel tense as he puts it on but doesnt object.

A few minutes into the movie and I can tell shes getting scared, we've already seen 2 murders so far and they were pretty gruesome, I dont know why Mateo thought putting this on was a good idea, especially after the incident the other night.

Another gruesome kill and I notice angel jump, I put my arm out towards her signalling for her to come closer to me and she does.

She leans against my chest with a blanket to her face and I wrap my arm around her stroking her hair, she doesnt look away from the tv but I know shes scared, I can feel her trembling in my arms. ''Are you okay'' I whisper softly in her ear trying not to make Mateo notice our position.

She doesnt say anything, just looks at me with a small smile before turning back to the tv.

I take the opportunity to make a move and try and get her to eat something, I pick up a slice of pizza and bring it to my mouth taking a bite before moving it down to angel and offering her a bite.

She looks at it unsure and looks up at me with sad eyes, I try and ease her with a smile but she shakes her head.

She finishes the slice and I offer her another but she doesnt take it, I feel her body tense and she tries to stand ''I need the bathroom'' I grab her arm lightly as she stands from the couch, stopping her from leaving ''dont do it'' I know exactly what shes about to do, I'm not fucking stupid.

I pull her back down this time into my lap and she doesnt object, instead she lays her head against my chest and slowly drifts off.

The movie finishes and Mateo turns to us instantly giving me a glare at our position, I roll my eyes at him before standing from the couch with angel still in my arms ''she was scared man, horror movie? Really?'' He doesnt respond just rolls his eyes and walks up to his room, fucking child.

I grab a bottle of water from the fridge and carry angelica up to her bedroom.

I gently set her down on the bed and place the bottle on her side table, I stand there looking at her wondering if i should leave her in her clothes or change her into something more comfy. Will she hate me if i change her?

I stroke her face lightly trying to see if shes even slightly awake and she stirs against me and opens her eyes, ''sorry sweetheart I didn't mean to wake you'' she smiles at me and closes her eyes again leaning into my and thats on her cheek ''come here bellissima, lets get you out of these clothes'' (beautiful) I walk to her closet and pull out a tank top and a pair of matching shorts, this should be fine I think.

I walk back over to the bed and pull her up gently ''ill close my eyes okay?

'' she gives me the slightest nod and I close my eyes and i remove her shirt, careful not to touch her too much.

I do the same for her pants and dress her in the tank top and shorts before lowering her back down onto the bed gently ''thank you'' her barely audible whisper brings a smile to my face, she was awake.

I kiss her forehead and leave her room, heading down the hall to mine.

I flop on the bed face first, I need to punch something, anything.

I sit up looking around for something to hit, I cant hit the wall I dont want to wake angelica, I give in and turn to my pillow and just start punching.

It doesnt help, at all, I need to go to the gym first thing tomorrow but right now this is all I have.

when I finish releasing my anger I lay back down on the bed just thinking, thinking about angel, thinking about the next work mission, thinking about betraying Mateo.

I cant break his trust like that but fuck I cant ignore angel anymore, its only been 3 days yet I'm going insane being away from her.

I dont think I can suppress my feelings anymore and honestly. ..

I dont think I want to