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I drink half my beer in one gulp to ease the uncomfortable sting in my throat.

Suede0989

That I have been talking to a woman online, and I’m developing feelings. That we’re taking it slow.

DaddysGirl

How do you feel about taking it slow?

Suede0989

I think it’s smart

Another selfish part of me hates it

DaddysGirl

Why?

She knows why. The same reason why I hate it has to be the same reason why she hates it, too, right?

Suede0989

Does any part of you hate taking it slow?

DaddysGirl

You can’t answer a question with a question

Suede0989

Come on. Tell me I’m not alone in feeling anxious to speed things up with us. Even though we keep talking about taking it slow.

I reread my sentence, almost wishing it had disappeared before I had the chance to send it, because it makes me sound so crass, so horny that I can’t hardly get to know a woman first because I need to fuck so badly.

Well, virtual fuck.

I must come off as pathetic and needy. The worst part of all of that? It’s true. Iamthat guy. Normally I can be the guy that can go slow for months, but withDaddysGirlI’m just… not. I’m trying, and I will try my hardest with her. Something about her makes me want to try harder, all around. And the pathetic, horny and needy part? I am those things, too—but I’m notprimarilythose things.

I’m more, and so is she, and I’m trying my goddamn hardest to remember that. It’s just so exciting to finally feel like I have someone, in some form.

DaddysGirl

You’re not alone

I wish we were at the finish line together, right now

But I still think it’s smart to go slow

Suede0989

I think you’re probably right about that.

DaddysGirl

We stick to our plan

The fact that we have a plan. We have something.Together.It gives me a thrill.