Page 16 of Lane (East Dremest Mafia #5)

RAIDEN

I was having the best dream. My dick was buried in Lane’s ass and Alton was fucking me from behind. We were nothing but panted breaths and sweat-slicked skin, chasing our climaxes.

“So good, so fucking good,” I moaned, but it sounded weird to my ears. Like I wasn’t hearing myself how I normally did.

A hand reached for me, but it came from the wrong way. Lane was facing me. He didn’t have his back to me. Something wasn’t right. I couldn’t figure out what.

“Ray,” he murmured, only his lips didn’t move. “Fuck, Ray. If you’re going to do it, at least grab the lube.”

I shook my head, my hips faltering. Everything slowed down as darkness crept in. When my eyes opened next, the room was bathed in night. I couldn’t make out a thing. What the hell was going on? A second ago, Lane was lit in the natural light from the windows.

Smooth skin rubbed against my dick. My hands were on his hips. I moved them upward until I reached a neck.

“God, find the lube already,” Lane said.

“Lane?”

He froze, then slowly turned, my hand coasting over his facial hair. “You were asleep again, weren’t you?’

“Oh my god.” I immediately released him and backed up. “I’m so sorry. I can’t believe I did that.” Before I fell off the bed, I climbed out of it and moved farther away. “Lane, I’m sorry.”

“Hey, stop.” He got out of bed, his leg buckling as he did so. “Shit,” he gasped in pain.

Rushing to him, I wrapped my arms around him to help him back to the bed.

“Fucking leg. Goddamn it hurts.”

“Everything wore off,” Alton said with a yawn. “Let me get you something.” He stood and left the room, flipping on the light. Luckily, it wasn’t bright enough to hurt my eyes.

I tried to move away, but Lane held firm to my hand.

“No, you don’t,” he said. “I’ve already told you not to apologize. One, you were asleep. Two, I fucking liked it. Lube up and slide in for all I care. I want you to fuck me, Raiden.”

“Not like that. I didn’t have your consent. I didn’t make sure you wanted it.”

“Well, here’s my consent. I want it. Wake me up by fucking me.

I. Don’t. Care. If for some reason I’m not in the mood, believe me when I tell you, you’ll know.

You might be bigger than me, but I know numerous ways to take you down.

This…” He motioned between us. “I want it. There’s no better way to wake up than someone making me feel good. ”

Jealousy licked through me. “Who else woke you that way?”

“No one, I’m projecting, thinking about when I do wake like that with you and Alton. Even as I did just now, it was almost perfect. We’ll just need to stash lube under the pillows.”

I scrubbed a hand over my face as yesterday returned in a rush. The meeting where Lane was shot. Driving here because it was closer. Alton stitching Lane’s leg. Me getting angry at Lane for trying to become Jordan’s second. Me apologizing for acting the way I did. Us crawling into bed and sleeping.

We woke hours later, ate takeout Alton had delivered, then got back into bed so we could be together while Lane rested his leg. We watched TV until we passed out once more. Now it was… I glanced at the clock… four in the morning.

What was it about Lane that I couldn’t contain myself?

It wasn’t like I’d had a relationship recently.

Pre-Jordan, I dated occasionally but nothing stuck.

Once I started working for him, my personal life took a back seat.

Alton further put a pause on anyone else.

The first time I saw him, I knew he was special.

To have him and Lane, damn, someone should pinch me.

Alton returned, rounding the bed to hand Lane a pill and a glass of water. “It’ll do the trick without making you too tired.”

“Thanks,” Lane said and swallowed it. He handed me the glass so I could put it on the nightstand. “Anywho, Al, how do you feel about being fucked while you’re asleep?”

Alton’s eyes went wide, making me feel even worse. “Is that what happened?”

“No,” Lane said, gripping my hand again so I wouldn’t leave.

“Ray was asleep and grinding against me. I told him next time lube up and slip in. I want it. I gave him my consent to do it whenever he wanted. So I’m asking if that’s something you want too.

If not, we’ll have to figure something out, like locking your ass up or whatever. ”

“Is that a thing?”

Lane shrugged.

“Jesus.” Alton’s gaze met mine. “You wouldn’t hurt me. I trust you. And if it means waking with you inside me or you riding me… I like the sound of that.”

“What is wrong with the two of you?” I groaned. “You shouldn’t want me to assault you while you’re asleep.”

“That’s not what this is,” Lane stated firmly. “Even if you’re awake and the urge strikes while I’m passed out, use me. I’d rather you fuck me or Al than go looking for someone else.”

My mouth dropped open. “Is that what you think? That if you don’t offer yourself up I’ll fuck other people? I don’t want anyone but you two.”

He shrugged again.

“You call me impossible to get to open up but what are you doing?”

“Look at my family life?” he yelled. “My male role model was an epic asshole, and my mother couldn’t stand him but stayed for her children.

Then she slept with another man, and here I am.

Who knows how many others she found along the way, not that I blame her.

She didn’t get affection from the fucker she married so she sought it elsewhere.

This is my reference point, okay? I’m not proud of it. ”

Alton reached out to run his fingers through Lane’s hair, where it fell onto his forehead. “I’m not going anywhere. I want you both. We’re exclusive.”

I nodded. “We’ve been through this.”

“I know,” Lane whispered, the fight draining from him. “This is new. I don’t know what the hell I’m doing. Two men? I can’t even find one to keep me.”

“We will.”

He peered up at me. “Prove it. Fuck me.”

“We shouldn’t when you’re upset or injured.”

“When then? I want to feel, Raiden. I want you inside me. I want Al to jerk off and come all over me while he gets me off too. I need you both.”

“Whatever you want,” Alton said. “We just have to be careful of your leg.”

“You’re both trying to kill me,” I muttered. “Saying I can fuck you while you’re asleep and now this.” I was normally a pretty happy guy. I liked to joke and have fun. But these two brought out a lot in me, way too many emotions to process, as well as my body having a mind of its own while I slept.

“I’ll make you feel good,” Lane said, releasing my hand and skating his palm under my shirt, burning a path to my chest.

I couldn’t resist him, either of them. Not with the way they looked at me or how their bodies angled toward mine, like I was the only one who could give them what they desired.

I swallowed thickly. Other people depended on me daily.

My brother and I had each other’s backs, no matter what.

I watched Jordan’s so he was always safe.

This was a different kind of feeling with Lane and Alton.

It was desire mixed with raw need, emotions, and so much damn stuff my chest ached with it.

My body was strung tight. My dick hardened.

I wanted them badly, but for some reason I didn’t picture it like this.

That was my first mistake, trying to figure out how it would happen.

“Where’s your lube?” I asked Alton.

He walked around to the other side of the bed and grabbed it from the nightstand drawer, as well as a couple condoms.

“No,” Lane said when he saw them. “I don’t want to use them.”

“There are risks if we don’t,” Alton told him. “It’s safer this way.”

“That’s the doctor in you talking. Ray, when was the last time you were with someone?”

I had to think about it. “Maybe six months ago. It didn’t mean anything, and we used a condom.”

“Good. For me, well, you know. I’ve been tested since then and was good, plus, a condom was used. If I fuck around, I like to do it safely. What about you, Al?”

“I…” He held the foil packet between his fingers, twirling it in a circle. “Over a year ago and I’ve tested negative recently.”

“If it makes you comfortable, use it. The last thing I want is for either of you to have regrets, but just so you know, I don’t need you to put on a condom with me.”

“I don’t want to,” I said, running off my gut instinct. The thought of being bare in either of them had my dick twitching. All that heat, the idea of my cum flooding inside them. Sign me up for that.

Alton blew out a breath. “I’ve never gone bare with anyone.”

Turning on the bed, Lane crawled across it, careful to lift his leg gently as he did so. He kneeled on one leg, bringing his face closer to Alton’s. “Hey, look at me.”

I didn’t think I’d ever seen Alton so afraid. Maybe when I was shot and running a fever. Not since. Tears welled in his eyes.

Lane placed his hand on Alton’s chest. “I can feel your heart racing. Do you think we’re going to hurt you?”

He shook his head.

“Then what?”

“What if we do this and I’m not good enough, or you decide you want to be alone with Raiden? I’m nothing like him, or either of you, for that matter. You both live for danger, thrive in it. I like my life at my practice and the quiet of my home. You’re going to get bored with me.”

I couldn’t resist walking around the other side of the bed and coming up behind him to wrap my arms around Alton’s waist and rest my head on his. Alton took a shuddering breath, his body trembling beneath my touch.

How long had it been since I’d hoped I could touch him like this? Where I wondered if we’d ever have a relationship? If he’d see me as someone he wanted to spend time with outside of my appointments with him?

He fit perfectly against me, just like Lane did. I’d be damned if I let either of them go without a fight.

Lane spoke again, “Did you ever think we need you just as you are? We don’t have office jobs or ones where our hours are normal.

Maybe we need your calm. You can be our grounding point.

The person we go to when we feel like the world is too damn much.

We’ve seen and experienced a lot of shit, but we come through it stronger each time.

That doesn’t mean we don’t feel it later on.

The death, trauma, nightmares, whatever is happening.

If you knew half of the shit I’d told Arden in my therapy sessions, you’d wonder what the fuck you’re doing with me. But I’m working through it.”

“I’m exactly where I want to be,” Alton said. “With you. With Raiden. For however long you’ll let me.”

“I’m not going to say eternity just yet. That’s too big too soon, but I can tell you, I only have eyes for you both. Now, I seem to remember something about fucking and multiple orgasms.” He grinned. “That last part might be wishful thinking.”

“You always surprise me.”

“Gotta keep you on your toes. Hand me the lube? At some point, this pill is going to kick in, and I have no idea what it will do, so let’s take advantage of me before I’m loopy.”

“We have to watch your leg.”

“Sure, Doc. Just don’t come on it, or else you’ll get the honor of changing the bandage.”

“Jesus,” Alton muttered, causing Lane to laugh. It was a beautiful sound.