Page 29 of Highlander Redeemed (Guardians of the Targe #3)

S COTIA STOOD IN the darkest reaches of the main cave.

Her lungs strove to pull in air, but still she could not breathe.

She swallowed again and again, but her throat would not open.

Her hands fisted so hard her nails cut into her flesh.

She wanted to run, to leave, to put this betrayal behind her forever, to leave behind the disgrace that Duncan had served up to her.

If she never saw him again, that alone would make her happy.

She found herself at the mouth of the cave, not even aware of how she came to be there, so she turned and hurried back to the dank dark where no one could see her, where no one could deepen her humiliation.

She had trusted Duncan, she had begun to have soft feelings for the man, and she had fully expected him to keep his word to her, but when the time came for her to step up and join the warriors, he denied her.

He denied her even when he admitted she had skill, learned quickly, and had a gift that would help the MacAlpins fight the English. But he still denied that she was prepared to fight beside the clan’s warriors.

How. Dare. He.

Once more she found herself at the mouth of the cave and discovered that the sun had set behind the western bens.

Night would soon be upon her. Night, where she would be trapped here in this cave with women, weans, and bairns who fussed through the dark hours; where she would be surrounded by people who already shunned her, but who now would also think her so much less than she was.

Neither a warrior, nor a Guardian. Just a bothersome, stubborn, troublemaking lass.

’Twas beyond bearing, and ’twas all Duncan’s doing.

She was a warrior with a gift of knowing , and while it might not be a Guardian gift it was still of value in this fight, yet she was not allowed to go to battle.

She was not allowed . . .

Scotia was a MacAlpin, born of a long line of powerful, independent women with gifts beyond measure and understanding.

She was the one who owed vengeance to the English for the deaths of her mum and Myles.

Justice must be had, and ’twas clear now she would never receive Duncan’s help, nor Nicholas’s permission to join the battle.

She retreated to the back of the cave one more time, but this time she grabbed a plaid and arranged it under her blankets so it looked like she was sleeping, donned the trews and tunic she’d kept hidden for just this sort of need, then grabbed another plaid and wrapped it about her, pulling an edge of it over her head like a hood.

She returned to the mouth of the cave and peered out to see where everyone might be, especially Duncan.

She could not let him see her leave the cave site, though he would determine she had done that sooner or later and follow her.

Why had she let herself believe he had started to feel something for her besides his duty to keep her out of trouble?

She was a fool. Her humiliation doubled, writhing about her gut and strangling her heart. She pulled those feelings close and held on to them tightly. She would never fall for such a ruse again. She would never fall for Duncan.

She caught sight of him, a Duncan-shaped shadow in the gathering gloom.

He still sat on the log in the council circle though it would appear that everyone else had retired to the evening meal at the cook circle.

Good. He would not see her, and ’twas easy enough to fool the others.

She had always been able to slip past them .

She stepped out of the cave, keeping to the darker shadows, moving at a pace with everyone else so she would not look out of place.

With luck anyone who saw her bundled in her plaid would think her just one of the many women in this camp, and by the time her absence was discovered even Duncan would not be able to find her, no matter how good a tracker he was.

This time she would use her gift against him.

She would know where he was at all times.

And soon everyone would know exactly how good a warrior she was, how much of an asset she would be in their fight. Soon she would be vindicated. She would avenge the deaths of her mum, Myles, and now Brodie, all by herself if necessary.

Her decision made, she calmed her thoughts and the pounding of her heart, and waited for her opportunity, the perfect moment to melt into the wood and once more take her fate into her own hands, armed with knowledge and knowing .

D UNCAN HAD MOVED just inside the main cave sometime in the middle of the short summer night when rain had begun to fall.

He sat there still, waiting for the first hint of dawn, sleeping little.

He scrubbed his face with his hands, then drew his plaid about him more tightly, as if it could shield him from the coldness in his heart and his mind.

He had been right about Scotia, though he took no joy in that. Her reaction to the truth was not unexpected, but he had hoped she would choose to respond to it with more thought. If he had only had the opportunity to finish the lesson he was trying to teach her this morn.

But he had not, and her reaction only proved what he had suspected—that for all the lessons she had learned, she had failed to grasp the most important one: thinking before acting.

He had seen it in the way she did not understand his anger that she had not followed his instructions to stay hidden exactly as he had stated them.

He shook his head. He knew she was a self-centered lass, spoiled and used to the attentions of all around her.

She was used to being indulged, to getting what she wanted with a smile, or a fluttering of her inky eyelashes, or, when that failed, with temper and willfulness.

But she wanted to be a warrior, and he knew this was a lesson all warriors must learn, though most learned it easier than Scotia did. Too bad she was not as adept at this as she was with all her other lessons.

As the night sky began to give way to the first hints of dawn he rose, settled his sword at his hip, his dagger already in place.

He prepared himself for more anger from her, perhaps even tears if she thought manipulating his feelings for her ’twould help her cause.

’Twas an uncharitable thought, but a true one.

At least it had been true until the last few weeks.

He rubbed the heel of his hand against the center of his chest, trying to ease the ache that pulsed there.

He had surely killed whatever feelings had been growing between them, but he could not dwell on that.

No matter how much he rued the loss of her smiles and soft touches, no matter how much he yearned to take her into his arms and lose himself in her kisses or watch her lose herself to passion, no matter what she did or how she reacted, he owed it to her to complete her training.

Only then could he keep his promise to send her into battle.

Duncan waited no longer, making his way deeper into the cave to rouse Scotia.

It did not take him long to discover her ruse.

He berated himself silently, doing his best not to wake the bairns and weans sleeping with their mothers as he strode back to the cave mouth.

He should have known Scotia would not meekly take to her bed in her anger and disappointment.

He should have known she would see his denial of her readiness to go into battle as a betrayal of their agreement.

But her changed behavior this last fortnight had lulled him into thinking she really had transformed herself, that she would stay in the caves, honoring her promise not to leave them without him in spite of her ire.

He had let his hope that she really had learned to think like a warrior instead of a spoiled, hard-headed wean, his pride in her skills, and his growing attraction to the woman he thought she had become cloud his clear-eyed understanding of her.

He stopped for a moment, wishing he had Scotia’s gift of knowing so he could find her as easily as she found him, but he did not.

He had to depend upon his tracking skills and an understanding of his quarry.

There had been no moon last night, no light to travel by unless she’d taken a lantern with her.

Of course if she’d taken a lantern the light would have drawn someone’s attention, unless she waited until she was well away from the cave site and then lit it.

’Twas what he would have done, but when she was riled, she did not think clearly, as evidenced by her disappearance, and if she had not thought of taking light, she would not have gotten far in the night.

Light or none, the one thing he was certain of was that she would not have gone anywhere without her weapons.

A S SOON AS there was light enough to show the difference between the dark shadows of the trees and underbrush, and the clear spaces between them, Scotia crept out from the thick bushes she had sheltered under all night, brushing pine needles and bracken from her trews before settling her targe on her arm.

Quickly she resumed the task she had set herself the night before: getting out of the glen and joining the battle without Duncan stopping her.