Page 26 of Here With Me

“Good for them. I hear it’s beautiful this time of year.”

“Yeah,” he replies.

Sipping my drink, I wait for him to make conversation or bring up something we can both engage in. It’s on the tip of my tongue to ask questions about the Sugarland Creek ranch, but I know I’ll just get more one-word responses. When they opened the equine retreat twenty years ago, I was in the prime of my bull-riding career and didn’t bother meeting them even after I retired and became a farrier.

There’s nothing I can do that’ll fix the damage I caused my son by leaving him, but I can try like hell to be the father I should’ve been. Even if he won’t make it easy.

By the time I was out of recovery, my marriage was over, and Jase hardly recognized the man I’d turned into. I wanted to be the parent he deserved, but he resented me—for his sister’s death and for not being strong enough to stay.

No matter how hard I tried, he refused to see me. It didn’t help that by the time I was ready to go back to work, all my clients moved on, and the only way to find work was outside of Sugarland Creek.

I traveled across Tennessee, Georgia, and Alabama but never stayed anywhere long enough to lay roots. Taking over for Mr. Ryan was my ticket to moving home, and damn, it feels good being back.

Since Jase is a licensed real estate agent and I was looking to buy a new house, I was able to use that as a wedge and find something to connect over, but how much he lets me in is up to him.

“You missed a good rodeo last week.” As soon as I say the words, my heart gallops at the reminder of Noah and finding my camper empty the morning after we shared the greatest night of my life. Since my texts went unanswered and my calls were sent to voicemail, I got the hint.

He curls his lip, finally looking at me. His deadpan expression makes me bark out a laugh.

“That’s more up your alley, ain’t it?”

Even before our family broke apart and I was traveling for bull-riding competitions, Jase was never interested. I brought him to practices and competitions, tried to get him involved, but he hated every minute of it. When I retired and got certified to be a farrier, he still had no interest in being around horses or ranches. Lyla loved tagging along and talking to the horses when I worked on them. Spending time together is what made us grow so close and why her death hit me as hard as it did.

“You might like it if you actually came and saw for yourself,” I say harsher than I meant to.

“A bunch of grown men actin’ like idiots on dangerous animals sounds foolish and lame to me.”

“They had Wisconsin cheese curds, your favorites,” I taunt as a way to lighten the mood, but he ignores me. Guess that won’t be our bonding subject. He used to beg for greasy food when we’d go to the state fair. That and the go-cart rides are the only reasons he’d want to go. He’d ride with his mom, and then Lyla and I would team up and race against them for hours.

“Sorry to keep y’all waitin’. Bobby Ray lost your ticket, and I made him put a rush on it. Damn kid.” She sets down our plates, then steps away to grab the pot of coffee.

“Thanks, Vicky,” I say once she’s warmed up our mugs.

“Anythin’ else I can getcha?”

Shaking my head, I grab a piece of crispy bacon and take a bite. Jase cuts into his sausage before slathering it in gravy.

“You wanna come over tonight after work? We can drink a few beers while you help me unpack,” I offer with amusement. My house came with five acres of land, just enough to have a large shed for all my work supplies and no nosy neighbors.

“I’ll be workin’ late. Meetin’ a client for dinner and then doin’ some paperwork. Maybe in a few days.”

I nod, focusing on my plate. “Sure, sounds good.”

The rest of our meal goes much the same. I bring up topics to talk about, and he gives me short responses. But I won’t push him. No matter what, I’m here for the long haul.

The anticipation of running into Noah has me driving extra slow down the ranch’s entrance so I can look out my window at the people wandering around.

I park near the barn where Garrett told me to meet him and hop out of my truck. As I approach the door, a man stops and asks if I’m lost.

“I’m lookin’ for Mr. Hollis. I have a meetin’ with him at ten.”

“And you are?”

I cross my arms and exhale. “Fisher Underwood. The new farrier.”

He looks me up and down and then nods. “I’m Ayden Carson. The boardin’ operations manager.”

“Nice to meet ya.”