Chapter Twelve
Maura
I am not a lightweight. But the way Jax surges off the chair with me in his arms makes me feel like a feather. He has us at the bed, quilt and bedding thrown back, me sitting on the edge, my shirt off before the fact he moved us fully registers.
“You are so fucking beautiful.”
He drops to his knees in front of me. In total contrast to the speed with which he got us to the bed, he slowly runs his eyes over my exposed breasts. Raising one hand he gently brushes his thumb over my lips before leaning forward to run his tongue over the same area. Gently he breaches the seam and engages with my tongue. It’s a dance of back and forth, testing, teasing, getting to know one another. Learning who bends and who dips. It’s earth shattering. It’s coming home.
“May I touch you? Are you ready?”
Lifting one of his broad palms, I place it over my breast. He’s warm and his slightly calloused and scared fingers, gently stroke my softer flesh. My whole body reacts. My skin tingles with anticipation, my clit throbs. “Yes, Jax. Oh yes. More.”
Keeping one hand on my hip he plumps and strokes my breast. Teasing the hardened nipple with a gentle pinch then a soothing, stroking back and forth with the ball of his thumb. When he lowers his head and suckles the nipple, I can’t hold back my cry of pleasure. “More, Jax. More. Harder.”
I want to take it all in. The feelings and sensations are more than I can comprehend. I don’t ever want to forget this moment.
“Just feel, babe. Just enjoy.”
I’m lying on the bed, my legs draped over the side of the mattress. Jax is suckling one breast and plumping the other, gently pinching my nipple. A need is growing in my womb. I want more. To feel him, all of him. Everywhere.
He’s kissing, licking a path over my belly toward my clit. His beard is soft against my flesh, it is its own aphrodisiac. “Oh Jax, it feels so good.”
“Humm, it’s about to get better.”
Sliding my legs over his shoulders, he lowers his head between my legs. I cry out with the first swipe of his tongue on my nubbin. “Jax!”
“Give it to me, babe. I want to feel you explode.”
I’m strung too tight to reply. He suckles and teases, building a volcano of need inside me. Carefully, he fills me with two long fingers, easing them slowly in and out.
One hand plumping my breast, he continues to stroke in and out of me, his lips on my clit. “You’re gonna come for me, babe. You’re gonna come, now.”
He laps his tongue over my clit and sucks hard. My body shatters into a million pieces. I’m floating.
Slowly my senses return and my eyes focus. He has one forearm over my waist, his eyes look up at me from where his head is still between my legs. A last lap of his tongue sends a shiver through me, and he sits back on his calves.
“You are the most beautiful, expressive woman I’ve ever met. I’m going to eat you every day for the rest of my life.”
I smile. “Come here big guy. I need to hold you.”
Shifting me so my head is on the pillow, he settles behind me on the bed, wraps an arm around me and covers us both. “Sleep.”
And I do.
When I wake, I’ve rolled onto my back. He’s propped up on his elbow lying next to me, watching me sleep.
His eyes look less shadowed and there’s a smile on his lips. I hope I’ve had something to do with the ease I sense in him. “Hey, handsome.”
“I’m not, you know. There are scars all over my body. Not to mention the ones on my soul.”
“Your heart is pure and clear. And I think your body is damn fine.” I give his shoulder a shove. “Lay back. My turn to double check.”
Even though he only gives me a smirk, I take that as a win. Someday I’ll get a real smile and a real laugh. I’m counting on a lifetime to work on it.
Rolling to his back he folds his hands under his head. I slide the covers down and see he’s still got sweatpants on. Shoving the blankets to the end of the bed, I straddle his legs to pull off the rest of his clothes.
Realizing I’m completely naked with every dip and hollow showing, my hand trembles.
“Maura.” He waits until I look up. “You are the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. Lush and ripe in all the right places. You are perfect.”
All my life, I’ve stood up for myself. But there was always a tinge of doubt. Just like that, it’s gone. The look he’s giving me. The lust in his gaze. His words give me the reassurance and confidence I’ve always wanted one other person to give me.
Removing the rest of his clothes I stare in wonder at what is before me. Just like his chest and arms, his massive thighs and calves are shredded with muscles. He has that perfect Adonis Belt. I swallow. I’m not sure what I expected his cock to look like, but I don’t think that as long and hard as a log was in my mind.
Hands locked behind his head, he’s studying me. “What did you expect, babe? One of those little Vienna sausages?”
I glance up. He’s grinning.
“Show off.”
“Babe, for the record. No one has ever made me as hard as you. We’ll go slow and easy. You’re in control, take as much or as little as you want. It will fit when you’re ready for it.”
Crawling up his torso, I let my breasts skim his chest as I make my way to his perfect lips. Sliding my fingers over his short cut hair, I kiss him, licking and teasing his lips before battling his tongue. He keeps his hands tucked away but I feel the muscles in his arms and chest flex. He’s holding back. Clamping down on his reactions.
“Jax? Is everything alright?”
“Babe, I want you so bad. I don’t want to lose control, scare you. I can be…intense. I want our first time to be all about you taking what you want and need.”
“Oh Jax, I want you. Need you. Trust you. You’ll never hurt me. You’ll keep me safe from everything. Even you.”