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KENLEY

Yeah, she got naughty thoughts …

I left the room and practically ran to the bathroom, locking myself in a stall. I had so many emotions running through me, I didn’t know how to process them. I had loved the play. Shelby definitely knew how to Domme. One minute I’d been coming down from the best climax I’d had since Noah had left and the next, I felt the rug being pulled out from under me. Why hadn’t she told me she wanted both of us?!

C’mon, Kenley. You fucking knew she did.

I couldn’t bring myself to be mad at her. After all, I wasn’t blind and at no point did she ever say she only wanted to play with me. The news that she was a switch was somehow surprising to me. After all, she Dommed perfectly. I really couldn’t imagine her as a sub but I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to see it. I just wasn’t sure I could share. More than that, I wasn’t sure I could share with another sub. Could I share that attention or would jealousy rear its ugly head?

Shaking my head, I decided I was done for the evening and made my way through my club. I was nearly to the front doors when Thomas moved in front of me with a smile on his face.

“Where are you going so fast, Kenley? I still owe you a dance.”

I glanced from him to the front doors and back again.

“I was just on my way out,” I said, moving to go around him.

He sidestepped in front of me, still smiling.

“Just one dance before you go. Please.”

I sighed and nodded, turning to scan the club for Shelby. I caught sight of her sitting at the bar and knew if I waded far enough into the crowd with Thomas, she wouldn’t be able to see me. He took me by the hand and led me through the dancers until we were pressed up against each other. His arm wrapped around me and he pulled me impossibly closer.

“You look beautiful tonight,” he yelled in my ear. “I’m glad I caught you.”

“Thank you,” I said, leaning my head against his chiseled chest.

One dance turned into two and before I knew it, all I could think about was our bodies grinding against each other. I froze at his next words, confusion lacing through me.

“I would love to play with you, Kenley. Would you consider that?”

“I—I—I have to go,” I answered, rushing out of the crowd.

A glance over my shoulder saw Thomas standing still in the middle of the dance floor, his jaw dropped. I hopped into a cab and gave the driver my address, my mind going a mile a minute.

What the fuck is even happening right now?

When I got home, I ran a bath, stripped out of my clothes, and groaned as I lowered myself into the water. I had a lot to think about. Did I want to play with Thomas? Did I want to play with Shelby again? Could I bring myself to play with both or would Thomas even be interested in that? Questions ran round and round in my head but no answers came. I stayed in the bath thinking until I realized the water had gone cold. I climbed out, wrapped a towel around myself, and flopped on my bed. I had come to only one conclusion before sleep took me.

I have to talk to Raven.

I was grateful that Raven was free to come for coffee this morning. I’d had a restless sleep at best, I was dying to get her opinion on my predicament. I jumped to answer the door when the bell rang and nearly pulled her off her feet getting her into the house.

“Good lord, Kenley,” she laughed. “Give a girl a chance to take a step.”

“Sorry,” I muttered, blushing. “I made coffee. Lots and lots of coffee.”

“I have to say, you look like shit this morning. Did you sleep at all? Is everything okay?”

“Gee, thanks. And yes, I slept. A little. On and off.”

“What’s going on?” she asked as I poured her a coffee and topped up my own mug.

“I’m so confused,” I moaned. “I don’t know what to do!”

“Does this have anything to do with playing with Shelby last night? She was in a damn foul mood when she came to the bar after. Do you want to talk about it?”

“It has everything to do with it… and nothing to do with it.”

“Well, that’s clear as mud,” she laughed. “Why don’t you start at the beginning?”

“You know that I’ve been spending a lot of time with Shelby and Thomas, right?”

“Umm, yeah. You all have hardly been subtle. I’m surprised the three of you aren’t fucking in the middle of the dance floor.”

She grinned, letting me know she was joking around but I didn’t think she knew how on the money she was. I took a deep breath and started at the beginning. Sort of. I didn’t see the point in detailing how much time I had spent with them since she seemed to already know.

“I played with Shelby last night and it was amazing.”

“Okay. I’m confused. If it was so amazing, what had you calling me at midnight begging me to come for coffee?”

“Well, I was kind of surprised that she asked me because I thought she was into Thomas. Didn’t make a whole lot of sense to me since neither of them is a sub.”

“Shelby is a s?—”

“A switch. Yes, I know that now,” I said miserably.

“Ohhh,” Raven said in understanding. “You didn’t know. You thought she was just a Domme. That explains your confusion. So what’s the problem? They both seem interested in you.”

“I don’t know if I can do it, Raven.”

“Do what exactly?”

“I don’t know if I can be with two people! I mean, how did you decide?”

“I can barely remember a time when I didn’t want both Seb and Chase. The two of them pursued me so enthusiastically, I never questioned being with them both. That’s not to say I didn’t have my concerns, though. I was worried about what other people were going to think. Is that what you’re worried about?”

“I suppose that’s part of it but, more than that, I don’t know if I can share. I mean, would we always play together or would we mix it up and play one on one? Could I be Dommed by two? Could I be a second sub?”

“Okay, slow down, Kenley. You’re getting yourself in a panic. No one can answer your first question but you. What are your concerns about sharing?”

“What if I get jealous? What if it’s too hard submitting to them both?”

“You aren’t going to know unless you try it but it sounds like you need to be having a long conversation with both of them before you come to any conclusions. You don’t even know what role Shelby would want to play or if they even want to share.”

“I know she wants to share. She told me last night. I don’t know about Thomas. I’d wanted to play again until she said she wanted us both.”

“Well, that explains her shitty mood. Maybe she thought you knew already?”

“Maybe. I don’t know what to do, Raven.

“Give me your phone.”

“Umm, okay?” I said, passing it to her.

She messed around with it for a minute and then passed it back.

“I started a group chat with Shelby and Thomas,” she grinned. “Someone is answering you right now.”

“Raven!!”

“Seriously, girl. You need to talk to them. It’s the only way you’re even going to know if you need to be worrying about this.”

I narrowed my eyes at her, stopping only when my phone pinged with a couple of messages.

Thomas: Hey, Kenley!

Shelby: Is everything okay?

Kenley: Raven totally hijacked my phone

Shelby: That totally sounds like a Raven thing LOL. Say hi for me.

Thomas: Yup, she’s a shit disturber like that. So, what’s up?

Kenley: I was wondering if maybe you guys would like to meet me for a drink.

Shelby: Sure, I’ll be at the club tonight.

Thomas: Me too.

Kenley: Can we maybe just go somewhere private? I don’t feel like shouting over a bunch of people.

Shelby: Sure. Would you guys like to come to my place this afternoon?

Thomas: I’m free. Kenley?

Kenley: That soon?

Thomas: You have Raven there and she started this chat. It must be something important. Why wait?

Shelby: Why don’t you guys come for about 2?

Kenley: Okay. Thanks, guys.

Thomas: I’ll see you both then.

Shelby: I’m at 16942 Bayview. See you in a couple of hours.

I dropped my phone and looked back toward Raven.

“Great. Now I have to talk to them,” I grumbled.

“That was kind of the point,” Raven laughed. “When are you going?”

“We’re meeting at Shelby’s at 2.”

“Well, I’ll get out of your hair, then. Just be honest with them. They’re both amazing people. If they’re open to it, the three of you would be great together in my opinion.”

“Thanks, Raven,” I said, leading her to the front door.

She gave me a tight hug and took her leave. I slumped onto the couch, wondering what the hell I’d just done.

I walked up to Shelby’s door just before 2 and knocked. I jumped about ten feet when Thomas walked up beside me.

“Jesus, you need a bell around your neck!” I gasped.

“Sorry,” he chuckled. “I didn’t mean to startle you.”

The door opened and she stood with a grin on her face.

“Well, will you look at that? A two-for-one sale,” she laughed. “Come on in.”

“Hi, Shelby. Thomas got here just after me. Scared the shit out of me too!”

Thomas walked in behind me and we followed Shelby into the living room. She sat in an overstuffed chair while Thomas and I sat on opposite sides of the matching couch.

“How are you?” Shelby asked. “You left rather suddenly last night.”

“I’m okay. Sorry about that, I got a little overwhelmed.”

“How come?”

“I… umm…”

“What did you want to talk about, Kenley?” Thomas urged gently.

“I’m not even sure where to start to be honest. I don’t feel exactly prepared for this conversation but, apparently, Raven thought I shouldn’t put it off.”

“Is this about us playing last night?”

“Sort of,” I answered. “I guess I’m struggling a little because you both seem interested in me and I don’t know how to unpack that. Am—am I right about that?”

“Yes,” they answered in unison.

“I’ve wanted you since I first saw you dancing with Shelby,” Thomas explained. “Shelby caught my attention when she came to the club the first time with Raven.”

“Really?” she asked. “I’d been lying if I said I didn’t find you hot.”

“Well, I’m grateful for that,” he laughed. “This would be awkward otherwise.”

“Guys,” I interjected. “What is this ?”

“I’m guessing that’s the reason we’re here,” Shelby answered. “Let me lay it out for you from my perspective. I want you and I want Thomas. I want to play… I want to fuck you both.”

“Wow. That’s?—”

“Bold,” Thomas said. “It makes it easier for me. I feel the same way. Kenley, have you ever been with two people?”

“No,” I answered quietly. “I’m not even sure how that would work. Do we take turns with each other?”

“Sometimes,” Shelby answered. “Other times it would be all three of us, right Thomas?”

“Exactly. There’s no right or wrong answer to that, Kenley. It’s something the three of us would work out together. Before we get to that point, though, you need to decide whether this is something you want. There’s no point going into detail if you don’t want this.”

“He’s right. Kenley, you know where we both stand. What are your concerns?”

“Aren’t you afraid to share? What if someone feels jealous? How would play even work? Would I be a sub to both of you? Would we both be subs, Shelby, because I know Thomas is a Dom. Would this be a full-time relationship?”

“Whoa, take a breath,” Thomas chuckled. “One thing at a time, yeah? Jealousy is a risk in any ménage relationship. It can take some getting used to. Growing pains, so to speak. If someone is feeling jealous, a conversation has to take place. I think it’s normal for it to happen from time to time but if it’s constant, it’s a sign that things aren’t meant to be.”

“He’s right. It’s something we probably won’t know until we try. As for how play works, I doubt it will always be the same. We may play one on one. Two of us may play while the other watches. All three of us could play. We decide how it works as time goes on.”

“I guess I’m not sure how it would work if all three of us played,” I said, still unsure.

“Kenley, I’m a switch,” Shelby explained. “Sometimes I would be a Domme and sometimes I would be a sub along with you. It would really just depend on our moods.”

“I guess I’m just not sure how I would handle that.”

“The only way to know is to try it,” Thomas said. “It would be new for me as well. I’ve had two subs but I haven’t played with a switch before.”

“Aw, you’re a switch virgin,” Shelby teased. “Do I get to pop your cherry?”

“Very funny,” he deadpanned. “What do you think, Kenley?”

“I—I think I’d like to try it. But I’m not sleeping with you,” I rushed out.

“That’s something else you need to know. The BDSM and intimate sides of things are equally important. If either are incompatible, the relationship isn’t going to work,” Shelby offered. “It’s fine to just try play and take it from there. There is absolutely no pressure from me. Thomas?”

“Exactly. No pressure. We can set up a time to meet in my room at the club and just take it from there.”

“Okay. Let’s do this,” I said with false confidence.

I can’t believe I’m going to do this. My life is about to change completely.