Page 58 of Clean Hack

I nodded, the tears leaking out of my eyes and down my cheeks. I got what she was saying. She was good at reading people in the blink of an eye, and so I took her words to heart. I believed them and had faith in them. And I think I’d even seen it for myself that Axe would never do anything to bring her down, to harm her. He may of had demons lingering in the darkness but he was a man that would spend his life trying to make Allison happy and safe.

“So, does this mean I’ll be seeing you soon?” she asked.

I hesitated.

But I couldn’t begin to figure out why.

“Yeah,” I answered not sounding not at all convincing.

I couldn’t believe how weird I was being. And maybe I wasn’t ready to dig inside of myself and find the reasons for that. It felt wrong that I wasn’t ready to face Allison. That I didn’t want to see Nadya being all in love in person.

“It’s a lot to process,” she said like she was inside my head. “Don’t feel guilty if you need time. I’ll talk to you soon.”

With that, she disconnected. She was right. It was a lot to process. My world had been changed overnight. Hell, my world had been blown up, some of those pieces so small that I couldn’t even find them to start the process of putting it back together. I didn’t like this feeling and more so, I didn’t like that I had no clue how to move on.