Page 37 of Captive Bride

THE brIGHT, CLEAR day was blocked out by the heavy blue velvet curtains covering the windows in Christinaa??s room.

A door slammed shut somewhere in the house.

Her reddened eyes fluttered open momentarily, but she was much too sleepy to think of crawling out of the soft comfort of her bed.

She turned over and lost herself in peaceful sleep once again.

But a few moments later, the sound of angry voices brought Christinaa??s eyes wide open.

a??Where is she, damn it?a??

Christina raised herself slowly to her elbows.

a??Now you cana??t go in there, Master Tommy. I told you shea??s sleepina??.a??

Christina recognized Johnsya??s disapproving voice just outside her room.

a??Good Lord, womana??ita??s the middle of the day! Either you go in there and wake hera??or I will.a?? It was Tommy Huntington.

a??You will do no such thing. My baby is tired. She came a??ome very late last night, ana?? she needs a??er sleep.a??

a??And thata??s another matter. Why the hell wasna??t I informed that Christina was home? I had to hear it from my servants this morning.a??

a??Now calm yourself, Master Tommy. We didna??t know Miss Christina was comina?? a??ome until she arrived. I would a??ave sent word to you as soon as she woke up. Now you get yourself out of a??ere. Ia??ll send someone over after Miss Crissy wakes.a??

a??That wona??t be necessary. Ia??m not leaving. Ia??ll wait downstairs, but she damn well better wake up soon or Ia??m coming back up here.a??

After Tommy stormed downstairs, Christinaa??s door opened quietly and Johnsy poked her head around it. When she saw Christina sitting up, she came into the room.

a??Ah, babya??Ia??m sorry a??e woke you. Master Tommy can sure be a??eadstrong when a??e wants to.a??

a??Thata??s all right, Johnsy. I guess ita??s time I got up, anyway,a?? Christina replied. a??Ia??ll take a bath now, then go down and face him.a??

a??Aye, a??ea??s gonna be pretty upset when a??e sees your condition. Well, Ia??ll tell Master Tommy a??e can see you in the dining room shortly. You can tell a??im what you a??ave to over breakfasta??you ana?? that baby need your nourishment.a??

About an hour later, Christina slowly descended the curved staircase and went straight to the dining room. She stopped in the doorway when she saw Tommy seated at the long table with his back to her. She quietly walked into the room.

a??Ita??s good to see you again, Tommy.a??

a??Christina, why didna??t youa??a?? He stood up and faced her, but he stopped short when he saw her enlarged belly.

A small, choked sound escaped his throat. Christina turned away and sat down on the other side of the table. One of the kitchenmaids brought in a large platter of food, and Christina, as if nothing were wrong, filled her plate with bacon and eggs and two delicious cherry tarts.

a??Wona??t you join me, Tommy? I hate to eat alone, and this food smells too good to waste,a?? she said without looking at him, busying herself buttering a piece of toast.

a??Howa??how can you act as if nothing has happened?

Christina, how could you do this to me? You know I love you.

I wanted to marry you. Ia??ve been waiting patiently here for you and counting the days until your return.

From the looks of you, you married as soon as you got to that damn country!

How could you? How could you marry another man so soon? a??

a??Ia??m not married, Tommya??I never was,a?? she said calmly. a??Now do sit down. Youa??re making me lose my appetite.a??

a??But youa??re pregnant!a?? he exclaimed.

a??Yes,a?? she laughed. a??Very much so.a??

a??But I dona??t understand.a?? And then he gasped. a??Oh, Ia??m sorry, Christina! If John hasna??t killed the man, Ia??ll find him and see justice done!a??

a??Oh, stop it, Tommy! I was not married, and I was not raped.

I was abducted and held captive for four months.

I fell in love with the man who kidnapped me.

He doesna??t know I carry his child, and he will never know.

But understand this, Tommy. I will keep my child, and raise him and give him all my love.

I am happy, so dona??t feel sorry for me.

a??You asked me to marry you a long time ago, but I never said I would, Tommy. And now, of course, it is out of the question. Ia??m sorry if I have hurt you, but I would still like us to be friends ifa??if you can forgive me.a??

a??Forgive you! I loved you, and you gave yourself to another man. I wanted you for my wife, and youa??re going to bear another mana??s child. You ask my forgiveness? Oh, Lord!a?? He slammed his fist down on the table and stormed from the room.

a??Tommy, dona??t go like this!a?? she called after him, but he was already gone.

Johnsy came into the room, her brow wrinkled with concern. a??I waited until I a??eard a??im leave. Did a??e take it badly?a??

a??Yes, Ia??m afraid Ia??ve hurt him terribly,a?? Christina sighed. a??I didna??t ask for any of this to happen to me.a??

a??I know, love. Ita??s not your fault, so dona??t be blamina?? yourself. Ita??s that Philip Caxtona??s fault. But Master Tommy will get over it. You and a??e a??ave a??ad many a disagreement before, and you always made up afterward.a??

a??But that was when we were children. I dona??t think Tommy will ever forgive me for this.a??

a??Nonsense! a??E just needs time to get used to the situation. You mark my wordsa??a??ea??ll be back. But you finish your meal now. Would you like it warmed up a bit?a??

a??No. Ia??ve lost my taste for food right now,a?? Christina replied, and got up from her chair.

a??You sit yourself right back down there. Youa??ve no longer just yourself to think of. Your baby needs food whether you do or not. You want a??im a??ealthy ana?? strong, dona??t you?a??

a??All right, Johnsy, you win.a??

After Christina finished the cold meal, she went straight out to the stables. As soon as she walked through the open doors, Deke, the stable master, came running to greet her.

a??I knew youa??d be coming here before the day was out. Ita??s good to have you back, Miss Christina.a??

a??Ita??s good to be back, Deke. But where is he?a??

a??Now who might you be referring to?a??

a??Come on, Deke!a??

a??Might you be referring to that big black stallion in the last stall?a??

a??That I might.a?? Christina laughed gaily and rushed to the end stall.

When she saw the big black horse, she threw her arms around his neck and hugged him tightly, gaining a snort in response.

a??Oh, Daxa??Ia??ve missed you so!a??

a??Aye, and hea??s missed you, too. Hasna??t been ridden since you left, Miss Christina, although wea??ve kept him busy. Hea??s sired four fine colts, with another one on the way. But I can see hea??ll still have to wait for that ride,a?? Deke said bashfully.

a??Yes, but not for very long,a?? Christina replied. a??Bring him out, Deke, and put him in the corral. Ia??d like to see him move.a??

a??Aye, hea??ll do that, all right. Hea??ll strut and prance and put on a fine show.a??

After Christina left Dax, she walked through the woods in back of the stables until she came to the small pond where she and Tommy used to swim. It was a peaceful place, shaded by a tall oak whose limbs reached halfway over the water.

She sat down and leaned against the old tree recalling a similar pond in the mountains. Philip probably took Nura there now.

Christina returned to the house late. The sun had already disappeared, and the sky was a soft purple and steadily growing darker. Christina stepped into the lighted hallway. It had become a bit chilly, and she rubbed her bare arms briskly as she headed for the drawing room.

The room was in darkness when she entered.

Only the soft light from the hallway allowed her to see her way to the fireplace.

She took one of the long matches from the mantel and lit the fire, then stood back as it gained strength.

Gradually the warmth touched her, and she moved away to light the many lamps throughout the room.

She had taken only two steps when she saw a figure standing in the shadows by the open window.

She gasped in sheer fright when the figure moved toward her, but her fear turned to anger when she saw who it was.

a??You scared the wits out of me, Tommy Huntington! What the devil are you doing in here in the dark?a?? she said angrily.

a??I was waiting for you, but I didna??t mean to scare you,a?? he replied meekly. He usually backed down when confronted by Christinaa??s anger.

a??Why didna??t you speak out when I entered the room?a??

a??I wanted to watch you without being observed.a??

a??What on earth for?a??

a??Even in your present condition youa??youa??re still the most beautiful girl in England.a??

a??Why, thank you, Tommy. But you know I dona??t like being spied upon, and I didna??t expect to see you again today. Are you here for some special reason? If not, Ia??m tired and I plan just to have my dinner and then go to bed.a??

a??Then why come in here and light the fire?a??

a??You can be very exasperating! Ia??m going to eat in here, if you must know. I dona??t like having my meals in that big dining room all by myself.a??

Just then, one of the downstairs maids came into the room, but stopped when she saw Christina.

a??I was just going to light the lamps, miss.a??

a??Well, go ahead. Then have Mrs. Ryan prepare my dinner, please.a??

a??Mind if I join you?a?? Tommy said.

Christina arched an eyebrow, surprised at his request. Perhaps he was willing to remain friends.

a??Molly, have two dinners prepared, and you may serve them in here. And let Johnsy know Ia??m back, please, so she doesna??t fret.a??

After the maid left, Christina moved to the couch, and Tommy sat down beside her.

a??Christina, I have something to say, and I want you to hear me out before you answer.a??

She took a better look at him and noticed that he had matured during the past year. He had grown taller, and his face was less boyish. Hea??d even grown a moustache, and his voice sounded deeper.

a??All right, Tommy. Go aheada??Ia??m listening.a??

a??Ia??ve spent the whole afternoon overcoming the shock of your loving another man.

Ia??I have come to the conclusion that I still love you.

It doesna??t matter that you will bear someone elsea??s child.

I still want to marry you. I will accept your child and raise him as if he were my own.

Soon you will forget this other man. You will learn to love mea??I know you will!

And I wona??t ask you for an answer now.

I want you to think about it for a while.a?? He paused, and took her hand.

a??I can make you happy, Christina. Youa??d never regret becoming my wife.a??

a??Ia??m sorry that you still feel this way about me,a?? said Christina. a??I hoped we could still be friends. But I cana??t marry you, Tommy. And Ia??ll never change my mind. The love I have for the father of my child is too great. Although I will never see him again, I cana??t forget him.a??

a??Damn it! Christinaa??you cana??t live with a memory. Hea??s far away, but I am here. Cana??t you find room in your heart for another love?a??

a??Not that kind of love.a??

a??What about your child? Ia??d give him a name. He wouldna??t have to go through life a bastard.a??

a??The news of my pregnancy has probably traveled all through Halstead already. My child would be called a bastard even if I did marry you. Only his true father can right that wrong.a??

a??But still, Crissya??the child will need a father. Ia??d love hima??if only because hea??s yours. You must think of the child.a??

Christina moved away from him and stood by the fire. She hated to hurt Tommy.

a??Tommy, Ia??ve already told youa??a??

a??Dona??t, Christinaa??dona??t say it.a?? He stood behind her and clutched her shoulders. a??For Goda??s sakea??think about it! Youa??re all Ia??ve ever dreamed about, ever wanted. You cana??t destroy my hopes so easily. I love you, Crissya??I cana??t help it!a??

He turned and left the room without giving her a chance to answer him. A few minutes later, Molly brought in two meals, but had to take one back.

Christina ate at the gold-and-white marble-topped table before the couch, facing three empty chairs.

She felt stuffy and fat, lonely and miserable. Damn, why did Tommy have to make her feel so guilty? She didna??t want to marry him, because she just couldna??t bear living with another man after Philip. Why did Tommy have to love her? She was not going to marry him, or anyone else.

Pushing herself from the couch, Christina left the room and started up the stairs. Shea??d thought she could have her baby in peace at home, but she might as well have stayed in Cairo.