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(warning : theme touching miscarriage)

Sara's POV

How can you grieve yet at the same time control your emotions because someone will be gravely affected?

Tonight, Bowen and I will be saying our final goodbye to our son.

I lost one of the twins. The pain and devastation were unimaginable.

When I woke up in the hospital, I felt it. That something bad has happened. I felt incomplete!

I remembered asking Bowen what has happened and he could not respond. My fears were testing my sanity.

"Tell me!" I screamed.

"We lost one of the twins, Sara. I am so sorry." He said, finally. He held me tightly as I rack myself. My fears came true. Moon Goddess, why? I cried rivers of sorrow for the pup I will not see grow in love and happiness. Our prince.

Bowen and I stayed locked in each other's arms for a long time.

"And the other one?" I nervously asked.

Bowen held my face in his hands, "he lives.

He did not leave us. Our survivor! The doctor said you have to be very careful.

You cannot be stressed out. My brave one, I know you can do this.

A few more weeks and you'll be kissing his tiny hands.

I am here for you, my love." Bowen smiled, trying to cheer me up a bit.

It was indeed good news. We still have one. Thank Moon Goddess!

"I want to hold him. Where is my pup?" I asked.

Bowen pressed the button and asked the nurse to bring our son.

The nurse held my pup to me. He was wrapped in a light blue cotton blanket.

His hands and feet were so tiny. He already has few baby hair, the same color as his father.

His nose and lips were like mine. A tear fell when I realized we will never know who's eyes he got.

I kissed him so often and racked him to sleep. When Bowen said I have to give him back now, I crashed. Bowen was so worried because I was so emotional and that was not good for the other pup.

Bowen and I choose to lay our son at the farthest side where the lenkacea flowers were at.

The hush bellowing of snow was like it was weeping with us.

I requested an angel statue with the face of my sister Abby to be our son's companion.

We named him Axel, meaning peaceful. For that is truly what we wish for him. To peacefully sleep for eternity.

"We love you, our prince, our dear Axel. Papa is very sorry for not being able to protect you. I miss you already. Till we meet again, baby." Bowen said in tears.

"My baby Axel. How I wish things have ended differently. I love you so much. I am so broken right now to lay you in your final rest. Your aunt Abby is there with you. Your brother, Soren, misses you. Watch over us, our precious prince. Goodnight, my little one."

With that I broke down. I asked Soren in my mind to give me just this moment to let all out my grief. I supported my belly as I wail in agony. I cried out loud, pouring all the pain, disbelief, anger, and loss until there's no more tear left.

Bowen and the people who came to mourn with us shifted to their wolves. They howled to the moon their sadness. It was chilling to hear so many wolves crying.

Three days has passed since we buried Axel, when Trin finally arrived.

"Oh my Luna Queen! I grieve with you. So many deaths. But, how are you doing?" Trin asked. Her face wet with tears.

"Thank you for coming, Trin. I lost a precious pup and I fear for this one here." I pointed at Soren. "There are times I could not sleep, worrying if Soren is still okay. I miss my Axel so much." I cried.

We embraced and Isolde arrived.

She was crying already. "My queen, forgive me. I could not protect you from the curse."

"Don't say that. For all we know, Soren is alive because of you. I could have lost both and that is utterly unbearable. Your counter curse derailed Morvath's plan to assassinate the princes. An heir lives. He will be strong." I smiled for the first time since the burial.

Isolde looked at Trin, "and you, how are you doing?"

"I am miserable. I miss Edu. I decided to relinquish my position as luna and let the beta and his mate become alpha and beta. I honestly do not feel like leading, not without my mate. With that, Queen Sara, I need a favor." Trin did looked forlorn.

"Anything for a dear friend." I said.

"I would like to live at your Pappy's pack. I want to be here in Northern Lucille with you guys. Do you think that's possible?" She asked bashfully.

"Of course it can be done. They will be fortunate to have you as a pack member." I said confidently.

"Why not in Stone Pack?" Isolde was curious as always.

Trin smiled. "They seem so intense in Stone Pack, you know, being ruled by King Bowen for so long. They may have certain expectations that I could not meet."

"Nonsense!" I scolded Trin.

Like on cue, Bowen, Beta Adar, and Alpha Davos has arrived from another meeting.

Bowen lifted me from my chair and gave me a hug and a peck on the lips. His presence gives Soren and I peace.

Beta Adar greeted Trin and Isolde. Trin was totally lost. What has happened, I wonder.

When Beta Adar moved to the left and Alpha Davos was now in full view, that's when things cleared up. He was as confused and in disbelief as Trin!

"Mate." Davos revealed.

"What? No! I cannot believe this!" Trin was freaked.

Davos moved in on Trin but Trin moved back.

"But we are mates!" Davos insisted.

"It's too soon! I just lost my mate. I do not believe in second chance mates." Trin tried to express her apprehensions.

"Believe it, moonbeam, you are mine and mine alone." Davos boldly claimed.

Isolde's shoulders were bouncing up and down from holding her amusement. Seeing Isolde, I lost it too, and started snickering as well. Bowen and Beta Adar were still in shock.

I cut in and said, "I think we need to leave Alpah Davos and his moonbeam on their own."

The others followed me to the door. Bowen and his uncle were murmuring while Isolde and I were giggling in the wonderment.

"You are happy your ship afloat!' I teased Isolde.

"Yeah! Duh! Those two had chemistry since day one. I thought Moon Goddess got it wrong, but now I see. In the end, it's them." Isolde said happily.

"Good luck to Alpha Davos. Looks like Trin is out to play hard to get." I commented.

"And she ends up at Stone pack! And their luna, at that!" Isolde realized with excitement.

I sighed. Just when you thought you will never be happy again. Life is indeed like a roller coaster.