Page 13 of About that Fling (The Can’t Have Hearts Club #2)

“You look beautiful,” she murmured, surprised at how deeply she meant it. “You and Mom always looked amazing in pink.”

Gertie smiled, fingering the flowers. “Your mother was always the head turner. Remember that pink dress she wore at your sweet sixteen?”

Jenna nodded, her eyes prickling with the memory. “She looked like an angel.”

An angel at the end stage of her cancer battle. It never got better after that.

“Everything’s under control,” she kept telling Jenna and Gert, even as they watched her wasting away.

Reminders of her mom sloshed sour in her gut as Jenna sat on the edge of Gert’s bed.

Squeezing her eyes shut, she let the emotions roll through her in waves.

Losing her mother—watching Gert lose her sister—never stopped hitting her, pounding her, slamming a fist in her chest that left Jenna gasping for breath.

Everything’s under control.

But it hadn’t been. Not even close.

Gert touched her hand, drawing her back to the present. As Jenna opened her eyes, she saw her aunt watching her.

“Your mother gave such a beautiful toast at that party.”

Swallowing hard, Jenna nodded. “I remember. She talked about chasing dreams and following my passion.” Her mom must have known, even then, that she wouldn’t live to see Jenna’s future play out.

“You’ve done it, Jenna,” Gert said softly. “She’d be so proud of the job you do now.”

“Thanks.” Swallowing hard, she tried to remember more details of that sweet sixteen party. It was one of the last joyful times they all had together. “You wore a red dress with those stiletto heels I would have killed for. And you slipped me that secret sip of champagne?—”

She stopped as her throat closed up tightly. Forcing herself to keep breathing, she gulped emotions that threatened to cut off her air. Grief for her mother. Pride in Aunt Gert.

Gert sat there blinking, her eyes carbon copies of her sister’s. Jenna’s mom’s eyes, the same eyes Jenna saw in the mirror beside Gert’s bed as she steadied herself with a calming breath.

“I miss her,” she murmured, squeezing Gert’s hand.

“Me, too.”

Jenna pulled in a deep, shaky breath. “And I know ginger ale would be better for your stomach, but there’s one of those mini-bottles of champagne in the back of the fridge. We could save it for later, or?—”

“No,” Gert said with a weak smile. “Let’s share it now.” She paused, fingers frail and bony in Jenna’s hand. “Celebrating the good things feels like what your mother would have wanted.”

“Good things. Yes.” Good things like Mia’s wedding. Like the baby on the way.

Like her aunt’s secret bestseller. “I’ll get the champagne.”

She started to stand, but instead she leaned forward to wrap her aunt in a hug. “I love you, Gert.”

“I love you, too, sweetheart.” Gert hesitated. “You’re sure you’re okay?”

In the back of her mind, Jenna heard the echo of her mother’s words.

Everything’s under control.

“Yes,” Jenna murmured, and stood to go get the champagne.

Two hours later, Jenna sat at the dining room table with her laptop and a glass of Pinot. Mia had insisted she take a whole bottle home —“I can’t drink it anyway, so it’s your job as my friend to polish it off” — so Jenna was doing her best to be a good friend.

Gertie had dozed off after half a glass of champagne and a full hour of hearing every detail of Mia’s wedding reception. She’d sat with rapt attention through the stories of canapés and Mia’s rude cousins, but she’d really perked up when Jenna got to the part about being stuck on the roof.

“It’s a good thing the young man was there with the know-how to tackle that wine stain,” Gert had said, her eyes fixed on Jenna’s.

Jenna had nodded, hoping Gert didn’t see the heat creeping into her cheeks. “Good thing.”

“Do you want me to take a look at the dress? Salt only goes so far, after all.”

“I already dropped it off at the cleaners. Why don’t you get some rest, okay?”

“I’m just too excited to rest.” Gert beamed, then seemed to remember something as she fingered the lei around her neck. “About Mia’s reception. I’m excited about Mia’s reception.”

“I know,” Jenna said, resting a hand on Gert’s arm. “I’m excited, too.”

It was the closest they’d come to talking about Gert’s literary achievement.

Now, as Jenna sat looking at her laptop screen, she wished she’d been able to properly congratulate her aunt.

She’d known the bestseller thing was a big deal, but until she started researching, she hadn’t realized how big.

Not only did it likely mean some bigger royalty checks for G.G.

Buckingham, it was a feather in Gert’s proverbial author cap.

Something that meant she was more than just a little old lady tapping out flowery romance novels in her spare time.

Not that Gert’s novels were flowery. True, Jenna had never read one, but she suspected G.G. Buckingham’s Panty Dropper series ran closer to 50 Shades of Grey than Pride and Prejudice .

Well, maybe she’d send Gert some flowers. Anonymously, of course. She could spring for a gift certificate to Massage Envy and convince Gert it was a bonus she got from work that she wouldn’t have time to use. That was something, right?

Jenna clicked off the New York Times page and scrolled over to her Facebook icon, hungry for a little mindless browsing.

She took a sip of wine and clicked “Like” on a video about a kleptomaniac cat.

She moved her cursor down the page, rolling her eyes over a distant cousin’s latest political rant.

A few slots down, one of Mia’s sisters had posted shots from the reception, several of which made Mia look like a red-eyed walrus.

Intentional, no doubt, but at least Facebook-phobic Mia wasn’t likely to see them.

Jenna scrolled a little further, smiling at a puppy meme, then at a photo posted by an old college friend honeymooning in Belize.

Wasn’t that where Mia and Adam had honeymooned?

She thought she remembered a story Mia told about Adam getting belligerent with a street vendor who tried to overcharge them.

“Honestly, it was only five dollars,” Mia had told her with a sigh. “It probably meant more to the guy than it did to us. That should have been a warning sign right there, if my new husband wanted to bicker about pocket change instead of gaze at the sunset with me.”

Jenna frowned and kept scrolling, not wanting to go too far down that path. How weird was it that she knew details about her lover’s honeymoon with another woman? Details he probably never imagined she knew?

He’s not your lover, and it’s none of your business.

Right. How well did she even know him, anyway? She frowned, then clicked her mouse in the search window. She hesitated. Then typed his name.

Adam Thomas.

A shiver snaked up her arms, and Jenna wasn’t sure if it was guilt or intrigue. But really, what was the harm in a little Facebook stalking?

It took her a few tries to find the right one. Adam Thomas in Germany had an unfortunate overbite and a BMW he liked to pose beside while wearing a red leather jacket. Adam Thomas in Iowa appeared to be in the middle of gender reassignment surgery.

Finally, she found him. Adam Thomas from Chicago.

No mutual friends, of course. Though Mia had a Facebook account, she rarely checked it, and had obviously unfriended her ex years ago.

Or was it the other way around? What was the Facebook etiquette with divorce, anyway?

Did you unfriend each other instantly, or only if the split was contentious?

Did you divvy up friends the way you divvied up furniture and silverware, or did everyone try to keep up the pretense of staying chummy instead of picking sides?

Oddly enough, she hadn’t needed to deal with that when she and Shawn had split up. Though her ex-fiancé lived life with his smartphone glued to his palm, he’d avoided social media like the plague.

“Such is a waste of time,” he’d declared, barely glancing up from the stock trade he needed to complete during a romantic brunch.

God, she didn’t miss that.

Jenna studied Adam Thomas’s Facebook page, a rush of intrigue making her skin prickle.

She clicked the file for his photos, surprised his privacy settings allowed it.

Jenna kept hers locked down tight. No one could see anything unless she’d specifically friended them, not even her photos.

But Adam Thomas was practically an open book.

True, there were probably things she couldn’t see without being his Facebook friend, but she was surprised at how much was wide-open for perusal by a total stranger.

You slept with the man. You’re hardly a total stranger.

She took another sip of wine, feeling like a stalker as she scrolled through his photos.

There was a shot of him in a suit at a conference.

Not something he’d posted himself, so someone else must’ve tagged him.

Another more personal shot of him fly-fishing.

Another image from that series showed him shirtless on a riverbank, and Jenna shivered, remembering the feel of that chest beneath her fingertips, the smooth plane of his abdomen, and the springiness of his chest hair under her palms.

Stop it, she ordered herself . Get off this page and go click on some cat videos.

But she didn’t stop. She kept scrolling, hoarding tidbits of information the way a squirrel gathered nuts to stash in a tree.

Adam enjoyed cooking. Had Mia ever mentioned that?

She’d complained her ex hadn’t helped much around the house, but this Adam had an entire folder of photos featuring meals he’d learned to make in a cooking class the previous spring.

He’d also done a triathlon the summer before, and Jenna squirmed a little at the sight of that physique showcased in a neoprene wetsuit. Damn, the man looked fine.

She kept scrolling, smiling at the Vivienne Brandt quote he’d posted several weeks ago about the importance of not living your life for someone else. Jenna took the last sip of wine and set down her empty glass, eyes still glued to the screen.

“Jenna?”

She jumped, feeling like a schoolgirl caught reading a dirty book under the covers. Then she remembered Aunt Gert wrote dirtier books than anything she’d ever smuggled beneath the bedsheets.

“You need something, Gertie?” she called, scrambling up from the table with a hasty glance back at a photo of Adam cradling a cousin’s toddler.

“If it’s not too much trouble, sweetheart, could you bring me my crochet basket from the living room? I left it right next to the davenport.”

“Sure thing. Sit tight.”

She reached over to put the laptop in sleep mode, but knocked her empty wineglass onto the keyboard instead. She righted the glass and hurried to the living room where she snatched up Gert’s basket of yarn and crochet needles. She hustled down the hall and rounded the corner into Gert’s room.

“Here you go, Gertie. Can I get you anything else? Chamomile tea? Another pillow?”

“I’m fine, dear, really. A little weak, but I’m feeling much better.”

“Want to watch another Sex and the City marathon?”

“Maybe later, dear.” Gert burrowed her spindly fingers into a sea of blue and green yarn. “Right now I’d love to work on those baby hats for the hospital birthing center. I promised them two more next week.”

Jenna brushed a shock of white hair off Aunt Gertie’s forehead, checking the old woman’s temperature just to be safe. No fever, but she did look a little flushed. “I’m sure they’d understand if you fell a little behind, Gert. You need your rest.”

“I’ve been resting all day. It’s just food poisoning, sweetheart, I’m fine. I promise I’ll stop if I feel too tired.”

“Okay,” Jenna said, dropping a kiss on the old woman’s head. “Yell if you need anything.”

She turned and headed back down the hall, reminding herself to check on her aunt again in a few minutes. It wouldn’t do to have Gert nod off with a crochet needle in her hand and poke herself in the eye.

Dropping into her seat at the kitchen table, Jenna stroked a fingertip over the trackpad on her laptop. The screen flickered to life, revealing a pop-up message.

Friend request sent.

“What?!”

She fumbled for the keyboard, panic making a rocky lump in her throat. She stroked the trackpad again, frantic now. She was still on Adam Thomas’s Facebook page.

“Holy hell!”

“What’s that, dear?” Gert called.

“Nothing!” Holy crap, how did this happen? “Everything’s fine.”

Shit, shit, shit. Would he receive an instant notification of the friend request, or could she make it go away before he noticed?

What if Mia checked Facebook to see if anyone posted wedding photos and saw Jenna had friended her ex?

Was that how Facebook worked? What the hell determined the things that showed up in newsfeeds?

Jenna tried to recall details from a social media workshop she’d done at that marketing summit last year, but she honestly couldn’t remember.

She mouse-clicked frantically around the page until she found what she was looking for.

Cancel friend request.

She clicked the words, then clicked to confirm. There, that should work. Jenna bit her lip. Wait, would Adam get a notification that she’d rescinded her friend request? Would other people see that in their timeline?

Dammit. Dammit, dammit, dammit.

If she’d already friended him in the first place, maybe the damage was done. Unfriending him might make things worse. Besides, she could see his full profile if she friended him, right?

She clicked the button again.

Friend request sent.

Shit, no. That was stupid. He had to accept the friend request first, didn’t he? Why hadn’t Jenna paid more attention to how Facebook worked?

She hovered her cursor over the Cancel friend request command, casting a furious glance at her damn empty wineglass.

That was the problem, really. An empty wineglass was at the root of most of her mistakes so far with Adam.

Or maybe a full wineglass. Hell, maybe she should swear off wine altogether.

Cancel friend request .

Dammit, she hadn’t meant to hit the button. Or hell, maybe she had. Adam would probably know, what with all his Freudian training and knowledge of the inner-workings of the subconscious.

She thought about what Aunt Gertie would do in this situation. Or what about a woman determined to embrace her inner sex goddess? Jenna bit her lip.

Friend request sent.

Dammit. She should just cancel the request, wash out her wineglass, and go to bed. Or maybe she should fill up the kitchen sink and drown herself in it.

An alert dinged on her laptop, and a little dialogue bubble popped up on the bottom right side of her screen.

Adam Thomas: Made up your mind yet?