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“Which is yours, sweetie?” I asked.
She pointed to the only package covered in Santa paper. “We wrapped it special so it’d be easy to spot,” she said proudly.
I tousled her curls as she handed it to me, smiling as she perched on tiptoes, watching me wide-eyed. “Can I open it for you?”
I laughed. “Of course.”
She ripped the paper and threw it on the floor, then pulled the lid off the box and gave it back to me.
It was a painting—a family portrait. It was quite good. I hadn’t realized what a sharp eye she had.
“Bella! It’s amazing. When did you do this?”
“In school. My teacher said I have talent. Mine was the best one. You couldn’t even tell what most of the others were. She’s going to talk to you about art classes for me.”
The picture was twelve by twelve, and it was painted in watercolors. We were all standing on the beach, the ocean behind us, Jackson in the middle with me on one side and Tallulah on the other. Bella stood across from the three of us, noticeably larger than we were. Jackson, Tallulah, and I were dressed in drab grays and whites, Bella in bright oranges, pinks, and reds. Jackson and Tallulah were both turned, looking at me, Tallulah looking glum, Jackson smug, and I was staring at Bella with a wide smile. The picture unsettled me. It didn’t take a psychologist to figure out that the family dynamics were off-kilter. I shook off the troubling thoughts and pulled her to me for a hug.
“It’s beautiful, and I love it. I’m going to hang it in my office so I can look at it all day.”
Tallulah looked over. “Why are you so much bigger than the rest of us?”
Bella stuck her tongue out at her sister. “It’s called pesperective,” she said, stumbling on the word.
Jackson laughed. “I think you mean perspective, my dear.”
Tallulah rolled her eyes and brought me her present. “Open mine now.”
It was a clay sculpture that she’d made of two hearts united with a ribbon, on which she’d painted the wordlove.
“It’s you and Aunt Julie,” she said.
My eyes filled with tears. “I love this, darling. It’s perfect.”
She smiled and embraced me. “I know sometimes you get sad. But your hearts will always be together.”
I was so grateful for this thoughtful child.
“Open one of mine,” Jackson said as he handed me a small box wrapped in red foil.
“Thank you.” I took the package from him and began tearing the paper to reveal a plain white box, then lifted the lid to find a gold chain with a gold circle charm attached. I pulled it from the box and gasped.
Tallulah took the necklace from my hand and looked at it and then at me. “Who’s YMB, Mommy?”
Before I could find my voice, Jackson spoke, the lie coming smoothly off his lips. “They’re the initials of your mom’s grandmother, who she loved very much. Let me put it on for you.” He fastened it around my neck. “I hope you’ll wear it all the time.”
I gave him a big smile that he would know was fake. “Just another reminder of how you feel about me.”
He pressed his lips to mine.
“Eeew!” Tallulah said, and both girls giggled.
Bella had gone back to her pile of presents and was tearing through the rest of the packages when the doorbell rang.
Jackson had agreed to let Amber come over and have dinner with us, since she was going to be alone for Christmas. It hadn’t been easy, but I staged the conversation in front of some of our friends, and he wanted to look like the Good Samaritan by including her.
He greeted her like she was family, got her a drink, and we all sat around very agreeably for the next few hours, while the children played with their things and we made small talk.
Amber gave us all lovely gifts—a book for Jackson that he actually seemed to appreciate; books for the girls plus some shiny jewelry for Bella, which she loved. When she handed me my gift, I was a little nervous, hoping she hadn’t spent too much. Nothing could have prepared me for the thin silver bangle, with two round charms engraved with the names Julie and Charlene.