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“And I can tell you that being part of the Schultz family is worth it. They are wonderful people. And Adelia is one of them. She might not have the Schultz name, but they love her like a daughter. And they love you for all you’ve done for the family.”
“I appreciate what you’re saying, Merritt, but there is so much more to it than just our different lifestyles.”
“Is it the age difference thing?”
He shook his head.
“So it’s the no kids thing.”
“I know she wants a family someday, and I can’t give her that.”
“Because the world is so messed up?”
He was quiet.
“I’m sorry. If I’m overstepping here, just tell me to shut up.”
“No, it’s fine. I know you’re asking because you love Adelia.”
“I do. And I know you do too.”
His heart stuttered in his chest. He hadn’t even entertained the idea that he could be in love with her, but there was a good chance that Merritt was right.
“So, this isn’t something you’re ever going to change your mind about?”
“I don’t think so.”
“When Gus and I first talked about having a family someday, I was a little skittish at the thought.”
“Really? You seem so excited about it.”
“I am. But my biological mom actually left me at a hospital when I was born, so I have some issues surrounding all of that.”
“I’m sorry.”
“It’s okay. I feel like she was probably alone and scared and wanted better for me, and I understand that now, and I’m thankful for the family I have. I’m really excited about having kids with Gus, and they will always know how much they are loved and wanted.”
“You’re going to be great parents.”
“I think you would be a great dad, Oliver. And I know you’d keep a child safe from all the madness in this world.”
And there it was. His biggest struggle was having no control over what could happen to his potential child. Just like he’d had no control over what happened to his younger brother when they were kids. His throat felt tight, and he fought to keep from crying in front of her. “There’s so much more to it, Merritt.” He swallowed hard. “Something I don’t really talk about. Something I haven’t told Adelia.”
“Is it something you could work through?”
“I don’t know.”
She reached out and gripped his hand. “If it is, and if you care about Adelia like I think you do, isn’t it worth a try?”
He didn’t know what to say to that.
Merritt shivered then. “I should get back inside. I’m sorry if I came off as pushy. I just care about both of you, and I want you to be happy.”
“Thanks, Merritt.”
“And don’t be upset with Adelia for telling me things about your relationship. She just needed someone to confide in.”
“I understand.”
“Thanks for letting me talk. And think about what I said, Oliver.”
“I will.”
He climbed into his car and sat there for a moment while it warmed up. Dredging up the pain from his childhood wasn’t something he ever wanted to do. But the thought of not having Adelia in his life felt so much worse.