Page 23 of Xarius (Shunned Mages #1)

Niam

I was all for helping out the environment, and it seemed Xarius was, too.

We both rushed out of our clothes and met under the warm water in the too-small-for-two-men shower.

I’d had this hunger under my skin ever since we kissed for the first time.

A hunger only he could help me with. I was totally fine with being addicted to my bonded, to his touch, his kisses, and, of course, to his cock.

I would have him multiple times a day if it were possible.

For now, I had to be happy with a few stolen moments here and there.

“Mmm, you taste so good,” he rasped, licking a line down my neck, nibbling at my shoulder and then returning to my neck. I bared my throat to him, surrendering my body as I leaned back against his front. He held me close, like he always did, reassuring my body and mind that I was no longer alone.

“I want you to fuck me,” I whispered, needing to experience it again. We hadn’t had sex since our first time together, and we had no idea when we would get the chance again.

He didn’t answer but reached his hand between my butt cheeks. “I’ll need to go grab the lube,” he whispered, but he still didn’t move away.

“Don’t need it. We can make an oil together.” I held my hands out like a bowl in front of me, filling it with water. “Add coconut oil or whatever oil you can make with your earth magic.

“I can make all of them,” he replied, holding his hands around mine.

Our magic worked together and we were left with a very liquid version of coconut oil.

He created a bowl out of stone and helped me transfer the concoction into it.

We placed it on a shelf and then he scooped out a healthy amount before reaching for my hole .

I arched my back further, spreading my legs as I bent over and opened myself up to him. He teased me open with his finger, slowly.

“Give me two,” I ordered, pushing back against him.

“Are you sure? I don’t want to-”

“Yes!” I interrupted. He inserted another finger and I removed the sting with my magic, confirming that I could take pain away, too. Perfect . “Three.”

“Three?! I just got started!”

“Trust me,” I begged. I needed to know for sure before telling him.

He inserted another finger and the sting came and went.

I moaned. This changed everything for us.

We could have all the sex, when clean enough to do so.

We didn’t have to worry about prep. I would need to use magic all the time to keep my pain down during and after, but it was worth it.

We lived a dangerous life now, and I wasn’t about to lose out on having my bonded’s cock inside of me every chance I got.

“Need your cock,” I begged. “Feel no pain. Can. Control it.” I stammered out the last part as he circled his fingers inside of me, hitting the spot perfectly .

“I can feel that,” he whispered, almost like he was in awe.

“It’s intoxicating feeling what you feel, baby.

I can feel just how much pleasure I’m giving you.

I can’t wait to feel how much you love taking my cock.

” Then he removed his fingers and breached me.

I had the pain under control, the feeling I got was all pleasure.

We groaned as he worked himself further into me, neither of us caring about how rough he was, knowing I could take it.

It sounded like his powers were evolving, too, being able to feel what I felt and not just sense emotions.

I placed both hands against the tiles while his hands held firmly onto my hips.

He thrust into me with abandon, slapping our skin together as we shared my pleasure, as he made my pleasure his own.

It was glorious. He felt everything I did, making me see stars behind my closed lids as he fucked me so perfectly my legs threatened to weaken under me.

If it wasn’t for the shower wall and his tight grip on me, I would’ve fallen down, too shaken up with pleasure to do anything else than just exist and take it.

He groaned into my neck, his hips shaking as he came inside of me.

I carefully removed one hand off the tiles and moved it to my dick, wanting to come so badly, too.

Before I’d made contact, I was turned around and then Xari was there, on his knees, swallowing my dick, groaning loudly as he took all of me down his throat.

I felt his cum leak out of my used hole as he held my hips firmly, all while sucking my orgasm out of me.

It peaked and I shouted his name, falling down, knowing he would catch me.

The only thing I was sure to hold on to was my magic.

I didn’t want this to end in pain, so I let Xari take care of me while I focused on that.

With my eyes closed, he washed my body and hair, holding me up while doing so. He stepped out with me in his arms and gently let me down to stand on the ground where we’d put a towel before getting in the shower.

He dried me off with a big fluffy towel, much nicer than the previous motel had, and while he did his thing, I thought about how much easier my life would’ve been, had I met him before we were shunned.

There was the five-year age gap between us, but maybe we could’ve been friends and when I was an adult it could’ve turned into more.

Just to have a friend would’ve been nice, but then I remembered that I was thirteen when he got shunned, and back then I still had friends.

In the time he’d been here on Sutiner waiting for me, I’d been a world away, no friends, and no loving family.

I hated the council of mages even more when I realized that they’d not only stolen him from me, they’d done it knowingly.

Yes, they likely didn’t know who our soulmatches were, but still.

They knowingly kept us away from one another, all because of power.

“We’ll get our revenge,” Xari said, his tone soothing my spiking anger. I loved that he could read my emotions. It meant I didn’t have to always explain them. He was getting better at it, too, already knowing I was angry at the council and wanting revenge.

“I just wished we’d known each other earlier,” I admitted and stepped away from him now that I was dry enough. “I feel like they robbed us of that.”

He shook his head and smiled softly. “Baby, we wouldn’t have known we were soulmatches until you turned eighteen, and we met shortly after that. This pull between us wouldn’t have been there then.”

“But you would still be the most amazing person ever, and I needed you, I just didn’t know it then.

” He hugged me close, letting me work through my emotions.

Everything had happened so quickly since I’d gotten shunned and I knew that even if our mission somehow failed, I would never regret choosing Xarius.

If I only got to live for a few days with him then I would gladly take it.

The fear of someone attacking at any moment was getting to me, and even though I logically knew I was one of the most powerful mages alive now, I still doubted myself.

How could I not? I’d been the weak one, the strange one , my entire life.

I’d only had magic for a few days, and I was nowhere good enough to protect Xari and myself forever.

We needed the other mages and we needed them now.

Too bad the rest wouldn’t be here for a few months (if we were lucky).

“I think we should head out and buy some shoes,” Xari said, holding out my clean boxers for me. I stepped into them and smiled when he stroked my cheek. “We got this,” he said, placing a soft kiss on my lips.

I nodded, not really able to speak, too raw and emotional. I knew our magic would take its toll on us, and I still felt it.

“We should wash our clothes and then stock the van before shoe shopping, though,” he said, drying himself with the same towel. “If we need to make a hasty escape, I want the van at the ready.”

I nodded again and went in to collect all our dirty clothes.

We should be able to clean and dry them in only a few minutes, and this time we could use the detergent.

I got the clothes out in the bathroom and together we cleaned everything and then returned to our van.

We had our familiars out, watching over us as we placed our stuff back where it belonged.

“Maybe we should buy some meat, too? And maybe a small portable grill instead of those one-use ones,” I said, speaking for the first time since we had sex.

I wasn’t giving him the silent treatment, I was just feeling everything hitting me suddenly.

It left me in a sort of depressive state.

I felt a warm rush of emotions inside of me, all hitting differently at once so I couldn’t place what they were, before a calm came over me. I felt happy again, hopeful, even.

I shot a look over my shoulder at Xari, raising a brow in question. “Yes, that was me,” he replied, hugging me from behind. “I can help with your emotions when they get out of control. But I’ll stop if you don’t like it.”

“Don’t like it? I didn’t like feeling so down before.

I appreciate you clearing my mind for me.

These emotions and feelings are natural, I know that, but I need to be ready to protect us, and I can’t do that if I’m too lost in my own head.

I couldn’t get out myself, so thank you for bringing me back. ”

He hugged me tighter. “Now, let’s go buy you some shoes.”