Page 74 of This Is Love

Then, at the beginning of college, I met you. And I met Logan.

I wanted him because he was the first guy who’d ever been nice to me. At the same time, I was jealous of the friendship the two of you had. In my head, I manufactured this elaborate story that he was mine. I didn’t care that you were close, even though it was clear to me that there was more to your relationship than either of you were willing to admit. You simply didn’t factor into the fantasy I was creating in my head.

There were times when I felt like shit about myself and tried to do the right thing, like offering to trade places with you at the frat party. But the funny thing with that is I knew Trip wouldn’t allow it. So, I knew I could safely make that offer without sacrificing what I really wanted, which was to keep Logan for myself.

Please understand that I was often confused and sometimes I did shit that made sense to me. Other times I struck out just because I could.

The trouble really began when I saw you dating Jaxon but getting closer and closer to Logan. You had them both.

I had nothing. I got confused. And I snapped.

I’m so sorry.

I understand now that Logan was never mine. He was always yours.

And I promise, I’m getting help.

You’re lucky to have both Logan and Jaxon, but more so, you deserve them. I understand why they’d both be in love with you. Because you’re really a good person. I wish you the best.

Hazel

When I’m done reading, for a moment all I can do is stand there, my body trembling.

“Damn. That’s… wow. I have no words.” Jaxon’s breath feathers over my ear as he speaks. “Rya? What do you think?”

Tears spring to my eyes, and a ragged exhale skitters from between my lips.

Logan takes my chin with his fingers, steering my face to his. “You okay? Did I make the wrong decision?”

I shake my head, meeting his worried gaze. “No,” I murmur. “I’m okay. I’m glad I read it, but I mostly just feel bad for her. But she’s right. Iamincredibly lucky. I’ll admit, for a while there, I didn’t think so, with everything that was happening.” I angle my head to one side and take in Jaxon’s dark gaze, then swivel back to find Logan’s pale blues on mine. “With the two of you, I have more than I dreamed was possible… I haveeverything.”