Page 23 of The Sweetmate (Check-In #2)

Lisa

I put Casey out there, so now I’m going to put myself out there.

It’s the only way I can to apologize to him.

I turn on my camera and sit there. No makeup.

No hair styled. Just me completely bare and vulnerable.

I’m wearing a shirt I designed that reads, “You’ve got this.

” It was our first saying together. Taking a deep breath, I hit record.

“Why am I not succeeding? I used to ask myself that so often. I was healthy. Getting out of bed every day. I didn’t realize it, but I was thriving a few weeks ago.

I was winning. I believe true success is finding that person that makes every day feel like a win.

Learning to count every blessing. I had the best guy.

He made me smile every day. Some days it was the days I didn’t murder him seemed like a success.

And he’d live another day to annoy me. But I broke his trust. I thought it’d make us both more successful but I was blinded.

I was wrong. Success is a matter of opinion.

It took me failing to learn that. I hope you count your successes today.

And your grateful for them. No matter what happens, I hope the person I hurt knows, they’ve got this.

I’m always going to be rooting for them.

Because seeing them happy and succeed, is still my version of success.

I’ll always find a reason to smile watching them soar. ”

I end the video. It’s a hot mess and me rambling but I go ahead and post before I lose courage.