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Endeavour to serve with such good will

and attention to the interest of your employers,

that they know they are blessed in having gotten

such a good servant, one who serves, not with

eye-service as a man-pleaser, but in

simplicity of heart as a Christian.

—Samuel and Sarah Adams, The Complete Servant

Chapter 32

D r. Drummond took his leave, quite satisfied with Lewis’s recovery, and Nathaniel walked him out.

On his way back through the hall, Hudson called him into his office to discuss the latest repair estimates and the progress of the new tenant cottages.

Before Nathaniel knew it, it was time to dress for dinner.

When he entered the dining room at seven, he noticed that Helen wore a pretty blue evening gown he didn’t recall seeing before.

“You look lovely,” he said.

She lifted her chin. “Yes, I do.” She gave a saucy grin. “Thank you for noticing.”

As they began the first course, Helen asked, “How did it go with Mr. Tompkins?”

“Fine.”

“You explained the situation?”

She referred to Lewis and the “duel,” he knew. Aware of the listening ears of Arnold and the footmen, he decided to wait and tell her the real reason for the man’s visit another time.

“He went away satisfied, yes.”

“Good.” Helen expelled a relieved breath, and their conversation moved on to other pleasantries in no danger of being repeated in the servants’ hall.

It wasn’t until later that night, when Nathaniel returned to his room, that he recalled the newspaper in the pocket of the coat he’d worn earlier that day.

Expecting nothing more than an article about Mr. Tompkins’s success with the Poet Pirate, or some piece of gossip about Sterling Benton, he pulled it out and unfolded it by the light of a candle lamp.

As he read the words, surprise, relief, and concern washed over him in waves. But at the thought of telling Margaret, his stomach soured. He was tempted to put it off until the next day, or the next. Instead, he forced his feet along the corridor and up the back stairs.

Nathaniel felt self-conscious, as he always did, standing in the attic passageway. Thankfully, his dog had kindly shown him which room was hers weeks before. He would not like to have to go knocking on every maid’s room to find her.

Had she really been a maid, he would have summoned her downstairs, but he was not overly concerned with preserving the good name of “Nora Garret.” Glancing around and seeing no one, he quietly knocked on Margaret’s door.

“Who’s there?” came Margaret’s wary whisper.

“It’s Nathaniel. I am sorry to disturb you, but I have news....”

The latch clicked, and the door opened several inches, revealing the figure and face of Margaret Macy in her nightclothes.

His heart banged, his lips parted. Of course he knew it was her, but somehow speaking with her as Nora had been easier.

Now here she stood, in nightdress and wrapper, golden blond hair uncovered, coiling down one shoulder in a long plait, highlights of white gold flickering by the light of the bedside candle.

No frumpy cap, no dark wig and drawn-on brows, no apron. Just her. He relished the sight.

She looked down at herself, self-conscious. “I’m sorry, but I was just going to bed.”

“That’s all right. It’s only a surprise to see you like this.”

She ducked her head, nervously twirling the end of her plait.

He could not help himself. He reached forward and caught her hand, gently capturing the blond plait inches from her collarbone.

“I had almost forgotten how fair your hair is.”

Liar , he silently admonished. He wished he might untie the ribbon, unwind the plait, and run his fingers through the silky weight of it. He swallowed.

Down the passage a door slammed, and both of them jumped.

“Perhaps you ought to step inside a moment,” she whispered.

He hesitated, but being so near to her, common sense and propriety fled. He stepped inside, closed the door behind him, and stood there staring at her like an idiot.

“You have news?” she prompted.

Had he? It had flown from his mind. It was all he could do not to lean close, pull her into his arms, and kiss her. He saw a tremor pass over her body and became aware of his own gooseflesh.

“It is chilly up here,” he said. Forcing his gaze from her, he looked instead around the small, plain chamber. “How strange to find Miss Macy living in such humble surroundings.”

“I don’t mind.”

“I almost believe you.” His eyes returned to her face, savoring her features. “How you have changed.”

She shivered again.

“You’re cold.” He slid his hands over her shoulders, slowly sliding his palms down her arms, over the sleeves of her wrapper. He took one of her hands, then the other, rubbing each between his larger, warmer hands. “That should warm you.”

She inhaled. “Indeed.”

His hands stilled but continued to hold hers.

She made no move to step back or pull her hands away.

He hoped it meant she felt as he did. Or did she feel she was in his debt, afraid of losing her hiding place should she refuse?

That thought dampened his ardor, and he suddenly remembered why he’d sought her out at this hour in the first place.

He cleared his throat and released her. “I’ve just read a startling piece of news.”

“Oh?” She became instantly alert, eyes widening and body stiffening in anticipation. He still dreaded telling her, though he knew he must. He was afraid of what she might do.

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Margaret steeled herself for the news.

He pulled something from his pocket and began, “It’s an engagement announcement.”

Margaret inwardly quailed. Oh no. Had Sterling puffed off the news of an engagement between her and Marcus, hoping to force her hand?

Nathaniel continued, “The engagement of Marcus Benton and Miss Caroline Macy.”

Shock rippled through Margaret. Her heart banged painfully against her ribs. “ Caroline Macy? Are you certain?”

“Yes.” He handed her the paper and waited while she read it by the light of the bedside candle. He said, “I don’t suppose this is good news.”

“How could it be?”

“Well, a man you did not wish to marry is now engaged to someone else.”

“That someone else is my sister! Who is barely seventeen. Far too young and far too innocent for a lecher like Marcus Benton.”

He expelled a breath. “That is what I feared.”

Margaret’s head began to pound, and her stomach roiled.

Did Marcus really intend to marry Caroline, or was Sterling hoping to flush Margaret out with the news?

Margaret remembered how happy Caroline had looked in Marcus’s arms at the ball.

Yes, a girl not yet out of the schoolroom could have her head turned by Marcus Benton quite easily.

And by the time Caroline realized the character of the man she had married, it would be too late.

Margaret turned and paced the small room.

Nathaniel said, “Allow me to help.”

She kept pacing. “What can you do?”

“I can marry you.”

She whirled, incredulous. “Marry me?”

He flinched as though she’d slapped him. “I know it was Lewis you wanted. If that is still the case, I will do everything in my power to convince him. In fact, he may be more amenable, now he knows of your inheritance.”

She frowned. “I don’t want to marry Lewis. How would marrying anybody help my sister?”

“If Marcus has proposed to your sister to force you from hiding... and still hopes to marry you for your inheritance...”

“My birthday is only two weeks away. If I can remain unwed until I receive my inheritance I will grant Caroline a generous dowry and she can marry someone worthy of her. And I can marry, or not, as I wish.”

He shook his head. “You have been living under our roof for months now, Margaret. A gentleman in such a situation, unusual as this one is, has a certain duty, a certain obligation.”

A chill ran through her. She lifted her chin. “I assure you there is no obligation, Mr. Upchurch. You and your brother did not know I was here, though I suspect your sister knew all along. You need not worry. You are under no compunction to uphold my honor, such as it is after all this.”

“It would be no burden, Miss Macy, I promise you.” He took a step nearer, a grin touching his mouth. “In fact, I can think of no other woman I would rather be shackled to.”

She stiffened, anger flaring. “I don’t want you to be shackled to me. I don’t want anyone to have to marry me. Not Marcus Benton, not Lewis, and not you.”

“Margaret, I was only joking. Don’t—”

She whipped opened the door and whispered harshly, “Now I must ask you to leave, sir, this very moment.”

Nathaniel hesitated. Then, with a look of pained regret, he complied.

She closed the door behind him, then lay on her bed and wept, sorrow and confusion muddling her thoughts.

Surely a marriage of convenience to a good man was not the only alternative to marrying a despicable man.

Had Nathaniel offered only out of duty as she’d accused him?

Or did he really wish to marry her? He had never said he loved her.

She remembered his kiss. He certainly wanted her physically.

But did he love her? Was he, like Lewis, only willing to overlook her faults and give her a second chance now that she came with the added attraction of an inheritance?

She detested the thought of giving in to the Bentons, especially now that her birthday was a mere fortnight away. She was so close to reaching her independence. But if she waited to save her money—her self—might her sister be lost?

But Margaret also knew the Upchurches needed money. If she gave up her inheritance to buy Caroline’s freedom, would she be giving up her chance with Nathaniel Upchurch all over again?

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