Page 9 of The Magic of Ordinary Days
While the laundry dried outside, I wrote letters to Abby and Bea and then drove the truck to town to post them right away. I kept up with news of the war by way of La Junta’s station KOKO on Ray’s battery-run Philco radio and by reading the newspaper that came in the mail.
As the Allies slowly reclaimed Europe, more reports of Nazi atrocities against the Jews were beginning to come to light.
Soviet soldiers had overrun the Polish death camp Majdanek in late July.
They hadn’t found many prisoners but had found eight hundred thousand pairs of shoes.
Throughout the war, occasionally I’d read articles, usually ones buried in the depths of the newspaper, relaying unbelievable reports of mass murder.
Now the news came in of more discovered killing centers, and as I allowed myself to accept that some of the earlier reports might have been true after all, I felt the pages of this new history curl and recoil.
I remember the moment I let myself at least partially believe.
I remember the smell of bacon lingering in the kitchen after breakfast, the way the light came in softly through the curtains from the window, how it fell on the yellow cotton of my shirtdress.
Everything around me stilled and quieted.
The apple butter jar sitting open, breadcrumbs scattered about, and Ray’s hat off to one side on the table.
As I loitered with little to do, perhaps some of the most dreadful events of human history were daily coming to light, each new report more gruesome than the ones before it.
The Allies and the Red Army slowly progressed.
Unthinkable tales of mass graves and gas chambers and other evils still too horrendous to fathom for those of us living comfortably in our own country were slowly emerging.
The press coverage was brief, however, and given the exaggeration of atrocities during World War I, an air of disbelief still prevailed.
One evening I read a small article I’d found in the back of the news section of the Denver paper.
It said that ten thousand Polish Jews had been killed daily; a million Hungarian Jews had been massacred.
I remembered a vision that had stuck with me, the eight hundred thousand pairs of shoes.
I had to let the paper drop to my lap.
Ray looked up at me quizzically, so I relayed to him what I’d just read. And I told him about the shoes at Majdanek. “What do you suppose happened to the people who had been wearing all those pairs of shoes?” The numbers were staggering. “Could they all have been killed?”
But Ray looked unfazed. He only shrugged and went back to studying his folder of papers, obviously too concerned with pressing matters here on this farm to let the outside world bother him.
Or was the thought of so much death simply too painful for him, especially because of Daniel’s death?
Maybe he couldn’t let it sink in just yet.
I continued reading alone. I found out that thousands of Axis soldiers were being taken prisoner, many of them starved and sick, and some of them ending up in American POW camps, one of them in nearby Trinidad.
The news reports were full of ruin in Europe, including hunger that most of us couldn’t imagine.
In another article, I learned that the Dutch had been forced to eat their tulip bulbs just to survive.
But with no servicemen around Wilson and surrounded by lush pastures and full fields, the only signs of warfare were the news reports on the radio, what I read in the newspapers, and occasional low-flying practice runs made by pilots from the base at La Junta.
It often felt like the war wasn’t real, the way we had felt during the first months of the war, when the entire city of Denver seemed to deny the whole thing.
Back in December 1941, everyone in our posh neighborhood had still lit their houses with Christmas lights.
But within a year, we were attending war bond rallies, learning what to do during air raids, sewing blackout curtains, even rationing gasoline and holding on to old tires.
We saved our toothpaste tubes, tin cans, and fat.
We were told that one pound of fat could be turned into a pound of black powder, and that the iron in one old tool could be converted into four hand grenades.
Father had to turn over his spare tires and drive around on bald ones.
He supported the war, but secretly he sometimes purchased black market gasoline so he could travel around the city as he wished.
He wasn’t about to ride the streetcar, although many of the rest of us had begun to do so.
By the time the onion and bean harvest began on the farm two days later, I was aching for the city life again, even with its wartime restrictions.
The first day of harvest, Ray tried to inform me about what to expect from the busiest season of the year.
“Onions and beans got to be pulled by hand. The high school kids are back in school, and all the older boys are in the service,” he said.
“We need help, and the government needs our food so bad, now they send in the workers.”
He sat longer and shuffled his hat about on the table.
He kept glancing up at me as if waiting for a response or praise or something else, I didn’t know.
He reminded me of those men classified as 4-F, those disappointed boys who couldn’t enlist because of bad vision or holes in their eardrums or some other problem.
Treated a bit like freaks, they often went into civilian defense to play their part, anything to gain acceptance.
Many of the male students left in college had told me they were asked regularly why they weren’t in the service.
Ray was so like them, the way he boasted about the importance of farmers.
I groped for something to say. “The harvest must go on.”
Ray reached for his hat and started to rise from the table. “Things are sure going to get busy around here.”
Thank goodness, I thought.
During the day, the farm was different. The fields filled with Japanese workers from Camp Amache in nearby Granada.
In the morning Ray took the sides down on the beet box so he could pick them up.
They debarked from the truck in front of the house and made their way to the fields, where they worked until sundown.
I tried not to stare, but they were such a study in contrasts.
As they arrived in the mornings or as they left at sundown, I found it difficult not to follow them from my kitchen window.
Ranging in age from teenage to elderly, some of the younger ones dressed just as the students at the university had been dressing, with rolled-up denims the latest in fashion, and their hair styled in the most recent ‘dos.
Many of the older women, however, dressed in long skirts and long-sleeved robes tied with a wide cloth belt, and they pinned their hair in a simple bun at the nape of the neck.
I tried to remember the Japanese Americans I’d seen in person before.
Colorado was home to a small contingent of farmers of Japanese descent and even some city dwellers northeast of downtown.
I remembered their dark coloring and short, compact statures, but my most vivid memory came from a photo I’d once seen, a photo of picture brides.
Among the Issei, immigrant men in the U.S.
, it had been a common practice to send back to Japan for their wives.
Young women who didn’t speak a word of English would arrive from the old country, and their future husbands would pick them out from the crowd using the photographs sent by members of their family.
As I watched the older women, I wondered how many had come to the U.S.
for an arranged marriage. And wasn‘tIabit like them?
But Ray had decided to marry me knowing I was pregnant and without ever seeing a picture.
What surprised me most were not the interns’ differences in dress and appearance.
What surprised me was their impeccable demeanor.
Despite their imprisonment, despite the fact that we were at war with the country of their ancestors, every one of the workers demonstrated the finest of manners.
Every day they pulled the dry bean pods and shelled the beans.
They pulled up fat onions out of the ground by hand and cropped the tops with sheep shears, grueling work to say the least. But as they boarded the trucks in the evening, even the oldest and most stooped workers still wore smiles on their faces, smiles that to my amazement seemed true.
After the first few days of harvest, I told Ray over breakfast, “Today I’d like to come and watch.”
He looked confused.
“To watch what you’re doing, to see what it is to harvest.”
Ray stopped eating. “I don’t understand. Everything’s going just fine.”
Now I stopped eating, too. “I won’t interfere. I just want to learn.”
He looked into his plate. “But it’s not needed.”
Obviously I had hurt him instead of flattered him by my interest. In the past, I had found most people more than willing to show off their skills and knowledge.
I thought others enjoyed demonstrating what they knew, but not Ray.
He didn’t want me to learn anything about farming firsthand, only through his infrequent and bland descriptions.
“Never mind,” I said and picked up my fork again. “I’m sorry I mentioned it.”