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Ethan’s often away. It isn’t great. But it doesn’t hurt the way I thought it would. Because I know that on the nights he is home, we’ll fall into his massive bed to cuddle under the covers and talk about anything and everything until a touch or a look triggers the need we have for each other and we come together like a conflagration, burning hot and bright. Only when we’re completely worn out will we fall asleep.
More importantly, I know I’m loved. And I love him. Having that security in my life is a joy I only now realize I’d been searching for all along.
I grow inordinately giddy at the sight of Ethan’s big shoes—which include a ridiculous amount of sneakers—lumped together with mine, of my body washes and hair products crowding out his lone shampoo and soap.
I get to talk to Ethan’s parents, an experience I’d feared would be awkward as fuck, given the circumstances. But they’re warm, nice, normal. Ethan’s dad thanks me for making his son happy. Ethan’s mom assures me her son has impeccable taste, so if he likes me, she will too. I’m left blushing and stammering that, yes, I’d love to meet them when they return to California.
Ethan’s little brother is a slightly tougher judge. He asks me if I like Minecraft. When I confess to having had an Enderman figurine on my desk in college, I’m deemed cool.
But I fall irrevocably head over heels for Ethan when he takes my hand one sunny morning and asks me to come out to his studio. I’ve been there before. It’s a bright, airy space. His older work hangs on the walls or sits stacked in the corner. A few pieces are half-done and on easels, waiting for completion.
Ethan specializes in photorealism. He uses lush colors and goes for close-up studies. Most of his subjects are football related, though he’s done a few people as well. He’s been working on one of Drew, dressed in his uniform, helmet on the ground, his hands low on his narrow hips as he looks off in the distance.
“Anna asked me to do that one,” Ethan told me. “It’s going to be a wedding present. Though I seriously think she’ll enjoy it more than Drew will.”
I think he’s right.
Today he walks me out to the studio, a secretive smile on his lips.
“Have you finished your portrait?” I ask, though I don’t know when he’d have found the time. We’ve been in each other’s pockets this past month.
He shakes his head. “Nope.”
“Why do you look so smug?”
His grin grows. “You’ll see.”
“Tell me.” I tug on his hand.
“No.”
“Tell me, tell me, tell me.” I tug again, wiggling his arm as I smile up at him.
He laughs and swings me up in his arms. “Little pest. So impatient.” He kisses my nose and carries me up the stairs. The sharp scents of paint and turpentine mix with the warmer scent of pine and fill my nose as he opens the door.
Ethan sets me down, and I turn around only to gasp, my hand flying to my lips.
The canvases and easels are gone. In their place is a woodworker’s fantasy: circular saws, band saws, table saws, routers and lathes, miters, drills, joiners… Everything I need to make furniture.
“I thought maybe you could get started sooner than later,” he says, mirroring my thoughts.
“Oh, yes,” I murmur, walking around, taking it all in.
Work tables, a dust vacuum, stacks of different types of lumber. Emotion grabs me by the throat as I turn back to Ethan, who leans against the doorway, hands in pockets, a curious, almost anxious expression on his handsome face.
“Where’s your painting stuff?” I croak out.
“Moved it to the guest house,” he says with a shrug. “I don’t need all this room, anyway.”
I swallow convulsively. “How—when?”
He pushes off from the doorway. “Found a guy who was retiring. Bought up the whole lot. Had some guys deliver it yesterday.” He looks around and then back at me. “You like it?”
“Like it?” A laugh gurgles in my throat. “I love it. I love you.”
Without another word, I launch myself at him, and he catches me, holding me secure as I wrap my legs around his waist and kiss his neck. “Thank you, Ethan. It’s the best surprise ever.”
He kisses the tip of my nose, before nipping it. “I love you too. Happy birthday, Cherry.”
His words bring me up short. “How did you know?”
Ethan gives me an exasperated look. “Ivy wouldn’t go to our last division championship game because it was your birthday. That was two years ago today.”
“You remember that from two years ago?”
“You think I’ve forgotten a single thing about you?” With a sigh, he leans his forehead against mine. “What I want to know is why you didn’t tell me it was your birthday.”
My gaze skitters away as I shrug. “I don’t know. I’m just not used to waving my own flag about stuff like that.”
With a firm but gentle grip, he turns my face back to meet his. I find it totally hot that he can hold me up with one arm. His expression is soft. “You don’t have to wave your own flag anymore, Fi. That’s my job now. My privilege.”
My lips wobble on a smile. “Okay.”
He kisses me, lips to lips, then pulls back. “My birthday is June second, by the way.”
I laugh and wrap my arms around his neck, bringing myself closer. “Duly noted. Expect furniture. Maybe a console for that monolith you call a TV.”
Ethan gives my ass a squeeze, looking smug once again. “Sounds perfect.”