Page 46 of The Fire Between High & Lo (Elements 2)

Message #14

Two weeks. You’ve been there two weeks, and Kellan said you’re doing okay. He said you’re struggling a bit with withdrawal, but I know you’re stronger than your biggest demons.

I lay in bed last night, listening to the record on the vinyl player skip every few seconds, and it reminded me of you. Remember the first time we…

Never mind.

I just miss you, that’s all. Some days are harder than others.

I’ll see you soon, Lo.

Message #45

You’re halfway through the program. How are you? Are you eating enough? Is your mind staying clear? I hope they have documentary DVDs there for you to watch. If you want, maybe I can come out there and bring you some DVDs. I saw a new documentary on the Beatles that I thought you might like.

Do you want me to bring it?

Because I will.

Just say the word.

I’ve been leaving you voicemails every day for the past forty-five days, and I’ll keep leaving the messages. I just wish I could hear your voice. I wish you’d answer the phone.

Lo…

Please.

Gosh. I miss you.

I’ll see you soon, Lo.

Message #93

Hey, it’s Alyssa.

You finished the program, and I can’t help but want to cry. I’m so, so proud of you. This is good. This is the best…

Kellan said you’re doing okay. That you’re healthy and in good spirits.

He also said he took you some DVDs. Why didn’t you ask me? Why will you answer his calls but not mine? What did I do wrong?

I would’ve brought them to you, Logan—the DVDs. I would’ve brought them to you.

That doesn’t matter though.

I’ll see you soon, Lo.

Message #112

He said you’re not coming back to True Falls. He said you’re staying in Iowa. I didn’t believe you when you told me. I didn’t want to believe you.

He said you found a small studio apartment and a job…

This is good. If you need anything, furniture, food…company.

I just miss you, that’s all.

I can’t believe you’re not coming back.