Page 10 of Strange Happenings at Longbourn (Darcy and Elizabeth Variations #11)
Chapter Ten
The morning began in stillness.
The fire in Darcy’s room had not yet been stirred by his valet, and the faint gray light of dawn had only just begun to seep through the frost-framed panes. Yet he was already awake, his thoughts restless, tangled—as they so often were lately—with the image of Miss Elizabeth Bennet.
She had haunted his mind with disquieting clarity ever since their walk the previous day.
The way her voice shook, trembling with both fear and frustration, as she recounted the strange happenings at Longbourn.
There was a steadiness with which she bore her own unease for the sake of her family.
The grace in her every motion, not of elegance learned in drawing rooms, but of genuine composure—earned, not taught.
She was unlike any woman he had ever known.
By society’s measure, she ought not to occupy a single thought of his.
She had no dowry to speak of. Her connections—an indolent father, an excitable mother, a household with little decorum—were wholly inadequate.
Her uncle was in trade, her younger sisters indiscreet.
It was all beneath him. Or so he had been raised to believe.
And yet…
He had danced with Lady Julia Parnham at Almack’s the previous spring.
Her father held a seat in the House of Lords, and her mother descended from one of the oldest baronetcies in Kent.
Lady Julia, with her smooth conversational polish and carefully modulated laugh, had not spoken a single sentence of substance.
She had nothing of interest to say; only opinions borrowed from others and simpering compliments he could hardly remember.
Lady Clare Montford had sat beside him at a supper party in Town.
Her brother served in the Foreign Office, and her father was a marquess.
Her greatest delight, however, had been to speak of fashion plates and paint colors for drawing rooms, never once venturing beyond the confines of her own comfort .
Even Caroline Bingley—clever in her own right—devoted all her wit to flattery and social maneuvering. She mistook sarcasm for intelligence and cruelty for charm. She calculated every word, weighed every glance, her self-worth staked entirely upon proximity to rank and wealth.
Elizabeth Bennet, by contrast, never sought to please. She never sought to be anyone but herself. And that, Darcy reflected, was a far rarer quality than all the refinement the ton could offer.
She spoke with passion, challenged foolishness when she heard it, and thought deeply—not only about books or ideas, but about people.
She had an uncommon understanding of the world, despite never having traveled beyond Hertfordshire and London.
She was principled. Brave. Honest. She did not flatter—she told him the truth, even when it wounded. Especially then.
When Richard had chided him—gently, but with piercing insight—Darcy had been forced to examine himself with painful clarity.
Yes, he had been proud. Yes, he had dismissed those he deemed beneath his station.
But Elizabeth Bennet, the woman he had once called merely tolerable, had shown him more courage, more grace, more natural intelligence than any other woman of his acquaintance .
She is my better, he thought grimly. In all the ways that matter.
He turned from the window and crossed to the hearth, tossing in a few logs before striking the tinder. The fire caught quickly, flames licking up with warmth he did not yet feel. She stirred him—humbled and changed him.
Darcy stared into the fire, jaw tight, as a slow and unwelcome truth settled over him: if he remained too long in Hertfordshire, he would no longer be able to pretend indifference. He was not indifferent. He had not been for some time.
He could still recall the look in her eyes the day before—fierce, afraid, and yet holding back nothing. She trusted him. Confided in him. She turned to him not as a man of wealth or consequence, but as someone who could help.
He would not let her down.
Darcy sat at the escritoire near the window, the morning light stretching in pale streaks across the frost-rimmed glass.
The hearth behind him hissed and cracked, though its warmth had yet to banish the chill from the room.
Two letters lay before him, freshly delivered and arranged with Brisby’s usual precision.
One bore the neat, slanted script of his sister,Georgiana.
The other was unmistakably Richard’s—bold, hurried, slightly smudged, as though penned between meetings or in defiance of them.
He reached for his cousin’s first. Georgiana’s letter, more delicate and weighty in meaning, deserved his full attention and a quieter heart. Tearing the seal, he unfolded the parchment and leaned back in his chair, already able to imagine Richard’s tone echoing off the walls.
Darcy , it began without preamble.
London is as tedious as ever. The Home Office is awash with paper and politicians, and my commander is convinced that proper military efficiency can be achieved through sheer will and duplication of forms. I daresay if I filled out one more report on troop provisioning I might have absconded to Scotland and enlisted in a regiment of Highlanders.
Darcy smirked. That was Richard—ever restless, ever irreverent.
On a more serious note, I received a letter from my mother yesterday.
She writes that Georgiana is…improving. Slowly.
The Countess says she has finally spoken plainly of the summer and admitted her culpability.There were tears, of course—what else could we expect?
But my mother assures me they were healing ones.
That she no longer avoids the pi anoforte or flinches at the sound of your name.
She even asked to see the clergyman on her own accord.That, if nothing else, gives me hope.
Darcy stilled. His fingers tightened slightly around the paper.
The words hit him with both relief and ache.
That Georgiana had spoken—that she had allowed herself to grieve and to reflect—meant more than he could say.
For months, he had worried that she would carry her shame in silence, buried beneath genteel smiles and practiced composure.
But she was stronger than he had known. Braver.
Richard's letter continued.
As for our mutual enemy, I have it on good authority that Mr. George Wickham is not enjoying the hospitality of his current lodgings.
Debtor’s prison suits him ill. The company there is not so indulgent as his former circles.
I understand he has attempted to borrow against the promise o f future inheritance. The man’s audacity is undiminished.
That brought no smile. Only a tight, grim sense of satisfaction. It was far from justice—but it was something. Wickham’s charm had finally worn thin, his debts come due. For once, there was no one left to shield him.
Thank you, cousin, Richard wrote, for finally allowing the necessary measures to be taken. I know it was difficult, but it was the right course. Georgiana will recover more fully now, knowing that justice—even if partial—was done.
The letter closed with typical Fitzwilliam levity.
Now then, to more immediate concerns: are you behaving yourself in Hertfordshire?
Or has some provincial beauty captured your melancholy heart?
Do not think I cannot picture you wandering country paths with brooding poetry on your lips and longing in your eyes.
Have a care,Fitzwilliam. You are not as inscrutable as you believe.
Yours, Richard
Darcy set the letter aside, his gaze drifting to the window,though he saw none of the grounds beyond. Richard’s teasing words lingered, as they were meant to.
Was he behaving himself? The answer, if measured by society’s standards, was increasingly clear—and increasingly irrelevant. His thoughts turned, as they so often did, to Elizabeth.
Elizabeth Bennet, whose hands had trembled in his yesterday,not from affection but from fear—fear for her family, fear for what she could not see, and yet she stood tall. She had not broken. She had confided in him,trusted him. And that simple act had undone him.
She was, by every expectation of the world they inhabited,beneath him.
Her family was unpolished, her connections humble.
She had no fortune, no title, no alliance to recommend her.
He had danced with Lady Julia Parnham, daughter of a peer, who could speak only of herself and gowns and court gossip.
Miss Clare Montford, the daughter of a Marquess, had once spent an entire supper describing the ideal shape of a drawing room.
Caroline Bingley, clever though she was, had never once asked him a question that was not crafted for her own advantage.
But Elizabeth? She challenged him and told him truths he would rather not hear. She looked at the world with clear eyes and a discerning heart. She cared deeply, argued boldly, and walked through life as though her spirit owed deference to no man—not even to him.
And worst of all, she made him want to be better, to deserve her esteem. She is my better , he thought with quiet, painful clarity. In every way that matters. And yet he had told no one. Not Bingley nor Richard. Not even Georgiana.
Not yet.
He wanted selfishly to keep her to himself. To hold the hope close and let it warm him before exposing it to the cold scrutiny of the world. There was still uncertainty, still too much he had not said. His feelings were real—but new, and delicate.
One day, perhaps soon, he would share the truth. But for now, she was his secret. His silent reverence. His unspoken promise.
He turned to the second letter and ran his thumb over Georgiana’s seal. He would read hers now. Carefully, he broke the seal, stamped with Georgie's personal crest. The wax, pale blue, was very much to his sister's taste.