Page 23 of Skully’s Property (Savage Knights MC: NW Chapter #2)

Madison

“ W here are you going to go?”

“I don’t know, Shay.” I wipe my eyes and blow my nose. It’s raw at this point, and I’m sure I look like Rudolph. “All I know is I can’t go back there. It hurts too much.”

I’ve been fighting and fighting for him, and for us, but it’s a losing battle.

He doesn’t want me. He made that very clear.

I saw it in his eyes and felt it cut through my soul.

There was no love there. And no matter what I do or say, I don’t think there ever will be.

I lost him. The man I love died the night of the raid.

He didn’t just lose his legs, he lost his heart. And I think it’s gone forever.

“But what about the job?” She sits down next to me, taking my hands in hers. She’s always been such a good friend. I’m going to miss her. “Don’t let him take that away from you too. You’re making such good money, and you love it.”

I did. But I loved Skully more. Money doesn’t make me happy. And being in that clubhouse will destroy me. The only way for me to heal is to move away.

“It’ll hurt too much, Shay. I can’t go back there.”

I know my limits, and I know the sadness will eat me alive if I go back.

“Men are such assholes. They never realize what they have until it’s gone.

And then they come running.” She’s speaking from her own experience.

Link almost lost her forever from what she told me.

But if Skully was going to come after me, he would’ve shown up at this motel and been banging down my door by now.

But he hasn’t shown. He hasn’t even called.

“I’m sorry, Maddy.” She squeezes me tighter. “He’s an idiot. And he’s going to realize it.”

The words feel like a lie, but I know she’s trying to make me feel better.

“You know.” Her cheeks lift into a weak smile. “You could always move to Alaska. I hear the ratio of men to women is like twenty to one out there. That would make your odds of finding someone really good.”

I don’t want to find someone else. I just want to figure out how to survive without my heart. Time may heal, distance may help me forget, but my heart is never going to beat for anyone else. But… Alaska is far enough away that I’ll never have to worry about running into anyone again.