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Rong Shaoze nodded solemnly, "You do have the right to blame me. I hate myself too. No matter the reason, I shouldn’t have hurt you at the time."

He clasped her hand tightly, his eyes reflecting his heartache, "Back then, you must have been in so much pain, right? And after having the child, you must have suffered even more. The child’s father is a bastard, and you didn’t even know who he was.

He hurt you and still, you bore his child, I truly am a bastard! "

Lin Xinlan’s heart quivered, and she fell silent.

"Xinlan, I’m sorry. From now on, I will treat you twice as well and will never hurt you again," he said, kissing her tenderly, each kiss filled with compassion.

Placing her hand on his chest, he looked at her earnestly and asked, "Tell me, when did you recognize me?"

She must have been so shocked and pained when she recognized him.

While he didn’t know anything, not even having the faintest impression of her face.

Lin Xinlan cast her eyes down and said quietly, "I recognized you at first sight."

A look of astonishment flashed across the man’s eyes.

"At first sight?"

"Mhm."

Back then, she had injured Du Ruoxin, and he rushed to the hospital in a hurry. There he met her, and he said many harsh words to her.

Afterward, he even planned to sell her off...

Rong Shaoze shuddered, a wave of fear washing over him.

His eyes pained, he grabbed her chin forcefully, and yelled at her angrily, "If you recognized me at first sight, why didn’t you say anything?

If you had told me you had my child, I wouldn’t have thought about selling you!

You damn woman, do you understand what would have happened if I really had sold you off? !"

Thinking about her becoming the forbidden prey of a group of sadistic men, being tortured to the point of begging for life and death, filled him with fear and dread.

He had nearly ruined her, hurt her! The more he thought about it, the greater his fear became, tightening his arms around her unconsciously.

Lin Xinlan was startled, finding herself struggling to breathe due to his hold.

Feeling his fear and trembling, she hurriedly comforted him, "I am alright, aren’t I?"

"What if I hadn’t let you go then?! And..." Rong Shaoze closed his eyes in pain, "so many times I nearly killed you, why didn’t you say anything? If you really had died because of me, what then? Tell me, what then, what should I do?"

Lin Xinlan was stunned. Was Rong Shaoze in pain?

This was the first time she felt his anguish.

He was such a powerful figure, yet he too had moments of sorrow...

"Xinlan," Rong Shaoze buried his head in her embrace, his voice muffled, carrying a tinge of pain and helplessness, "Why didn’t you ever say anything, why! I hate you so much, you almost made me kill you, you let me keep hurting you! Why didn’t you say anything, why, why didn’t you?"

He was like a heartbroken child, incessantly asking why, stubbornly waiting for her answer.

Lin Xinlan’s heart ached with a throb, and she tried hard to hold back the tears welling up in her eyes.

Why...

Because she didn’t love him, didn’t want to be with him, that was why she hadn’t said anything.

Because she had always blamed him, resented him, and didn’t want him to know the truth.

Also, for fear that he would despise Xiaocong.

His status was so noble, the threshold of the Rong Family so high, they surely would look down on the child she bore. And Xiaocong’s eyes were disabled.