Page 42 of Mr. Irrelevant (Rock City Renegades #1)

THIRTY-TWO

MADDOX

Godfuckingdammit.

I’ve been holding those words back for weeks, never knowing if it was the right time to say them.

I lost count of the number of times I almost word vomited everything but managed to reel myself in before I did.

It just felt so natural—finally telling Livvy how I feel—but the very last thing I wanted was to blurt it out while buried balls deep inside her.

“Shit,” I choke out, taking in her shocked expression.

Quickly pulling from her body, I free her wrists, ankles, and thighs from the cuffs.

I follow by undoing the belt and throwing everything to the floor beside the bed.

I royally fucked this up, diminishing one of the most important things I’ll ever say to her by doing it while she was bound and covered in my cum.

Her legs drop, and she lies there wordlessly as I attempt to come up with a way to apologize for choosing this moment to utter such a life-altering phrase.

My heart beats wildly, and my mouth feels like it’s filled with cotton balls, anxiety gripping my throat and telling me that I just ruined everything.

There’s no way she’ll believe that I meant what I said when it just fell out of my mouth like it was no big deal.

I’d barely even finished coming, but as soon as I felt her warmth wrapped around me, I was home.

There’s no other way to explain it. These emotions have been building with each minute we’ve spent together, and I guess it all just overflowed.

My brows pull in, remorse passing over my expression as I take in her wide eyes and parted lips.

My instinct is to play it off—to take the words back so I can say them again when we aren’t in the middle of having sex—but I just can’t .

She needs to know what she means to me, even if I didn’t plan to do it right now.

I swallow, prepared to repeat myself because I refuse to tell her anything other than the truth, but before I can, she knocks me completely on my ass, turning my entire world upside down.

“I love you too,” she says on a rushed breath, the words bursting from her lungs as though she’s been holding them in as long as I have.

A gorgeous, relieved smile blooms across her face, tears filling her big blue eyes as she stares up at me.

My head rears back, caught completely off guard not only by the fact that she heard and believes my words, but reciprocates them. She fucking loves me back.

Holy shit.

Without a word, I crash my lips to hers, earning an adorable little laugh that I swallow immediately.

Her arms wrap around my neck, and she holds me close as I revel in the kiss, a million pounds lifting off my shoulders now that I’ve finally told her how I feel.

All the anxiety I was feeling seconds ago about fucking up the moment falls away, and I realize that this is exactly how it should’ve happened.

Although my connection with Livvy didn’t start in the bedroom, it’s where I began to fall in love with her.

By showing me her list and trusting me to be what she needed after being dismissed for so long, she gave me a gift I can never truly thank her for.

And the fact that she’s been such a driving force in my life—believing in me when I struggled to believe in myself—how could I not give her every single piece of my heart?

I grind my erection over her center, her legs wrapping around my hips, heels digging into my ass and urging me forward.

Knowing that I’m about to truly make love to her, whispering all the things I’ve been holding back for far too long, makes my chest squeeze with emotion as I line up at her entrance.

“Say it again, baby,” I beg. “Say it while I push inside.”

She takes a shaky inhale, slowly letting it out before repeating the words.

“I love you, Maddox.” I don’t waste another second, thrusting forward and burying myself right where I belong.

I’ve fucked this woman so many times, but I can already feel the shift.

With just a single sentence, our lives have changed forever.

In this moment, connected to one another—mind, body, and soul—I’m surer than ever that Olivia Grant is mine.

“I love you so much, Dimes,” I echo, pulling back and plunging forward, setting a slow, gentle pace as I seal my mouth over hers again.

Our tongues lick and tangle, gliding against each other like we just can’t get enough.

She tastes like everything I’ve ever wanted, and nothing—not even football—could ever make me feel this complete.

We’re a symphony of grunts and moans, the air around us thick with emotion as her inner walls begin to flutter around me.

I sneak a careful hand between our bodies, rubbing soft circles over her clit just like she likes.

Her muscles tense deliciously, gripping onto me even tighter as I coax her toward the summit.

“There she is,” I praise. “Does that feel good, baby? Are you going to come? I can feel that tiny little pussy getting ready to explode.”

“Mhmm,” she whimpers, nodding her head as her eyes begin to flutter closed. “Please, don’t stop.”

“I’ll never stop, Liv,” I promise. “Just give in for me. Show me what a sweet girl you are.” I pull my hand away, gliding along the back of her thigh before lifting it over my hip.

Reaching between her ass cheeks, I slowly and carefully sink the tip of my middle finger inside.

The puckered hole is completely coated in her arousal, providing plenty of lubrication for me to go even further.

That does the trick, because it only takes a few more thrusts before she sucks me in, her cunt closing around me so tight that I think I might actually pass out.

Her back bows off the mattress, her body shaking violently as pleasure rolls through her like an electric current.

Unable to hold off my release, I surrender to the sensation.

White light dances around the edges of my vision, igniting into blinding sparks that prick at my skin.

My balls contract, and as soon as my name cuts through the space between us in a choked whisper, I erupt, pumping everything I have to give into her.

It goes on forever, both of us lost in an unimaginable reality as we yield to the high of our orgasms.

We lie there, clinging to one another while we return to awareness, our chests pressed together so tightly, I swear I feel our hearts sync to the same rhythm.

My entire existence just got turned on its head, and if it weren’t for her soft breaths tickling my ear as she attempts to recover, I’d swear I was dreaming.

It all feels too good to be true—me finally telling Livvy that I’m in love with her, and her actually saying it back.

But I know it was real. We’re real . We always have been…

even when we were trying so hard not to be.

“Wow,” she says on a soft, warm giggle. “I wasn’t expecting any of that.

” I groan, burying my face in her neck, the residual embarrassment from how everything played out making me want to crawl under a rock and stay there for the foreseeable future.

Just because it ended the way it did doesn’t mean she wouldn’t rather have had it happen a different way.

“I’m sorry. It slipped out.” I lift my head, hoping she can see the sincerity in my eyes.

“I didn’t want you to find out how I felt like that.

You deserved better than some hormone-driven admission while your arms and legs were cuffed to each other.

But I couldn’t hold it in any longer, Liv. I love you so fucking much.”

She shakes her head, the sweetest expression etched across her flawless features.

“It was everything. To be honest, it’s a miracle I wasn’t the first to blurt it out—I’ve been struggling not to tell you the same thing for weeks.

So what if I have dried cum on my forehead?

” she jokes, reaching up and running her fingers over what’s left of my first release.

“We are who we are, and that was perfect. I wouldn’t change a thing. ”

I huff a laugh, all the tension in my body releasing at her words.

This girl is the other half of me, and I’m so grateful that out of all the empty parking lots in this great big world, we were in the same one that night.

I know she basically chased me down because I was sucking ass on the field, but none of that matters now because it brought us together, and now I get to call this smart, talented, beautiful girl mine forever.

“Well, good,” I say, kissing the tip of her nose as I crawl off her body and reach for her phone that’s still recording on the tripod.

Plucking it from the mount, I hit the red button to cut the camera, handing it over.

“Because it’s all on video for you to relive whenever you want.

A sweet memory of our first love declaration that can also be filed away in your diddle drawer. ”

She scoffs playfully, swiping the device from where it hangs between my fingers. “You’re gross.”

“Whatever you say, Dimes.” I dip my chin dubiously, not believing for one second that she won’t be rubbing her pretty little clit to the image of me fucking her face when I’m on the road. I know I would. “Now, give me my checkmarks. Both of them.”

“Actually,” she replies, her teeth sinking into her plump bottom lip. My dick twitches and I zero in on the motion, ready to fuck her into the mattress again, but she catches me off guard with her next words. “You get three.”

Confusion washes over me as I try to recall the things I read when she flashed me her list that night.

I know there were things I wasn’t able to catch in the short time she gave me, but aside from Sex in public and Ride a pierced dick , we’ve done everything that I’m aware of.

“What was the third one?” I ask. “And what else haven’t I seen? ”

She swallows, her cheeks turning an adorable shade of pink as a shy smile lifts the corners of her mouth.

“There was just one thing that you’d have had to scroll down to see, and I probably would’ve throat-punched you if you tried.

” Intrigued, I raise a brow, daring her to show me what I missed.

She taps her pink fingernail against the screen several times, then turns the phone to where I sit beside her.

“ Make him fall in love with me ,” I say, reading the words as my heart flips behind my rib cage.

My gaze lifts to hers, her bright blue eyes shining with emotion.

My expression softens, and I take her face in my palm, ghosting my thumb along the warm skin.

“Best checkmark I’ll ever earn, baby. But you didn’t have to make me do anything.

I love you because I was born to do it, and I’ll spend every day showing you how grateful I am to be the one you gave your heart to. ”

A tear falls down her cheek, but I wipe it away quickly, pressing my forehead against hers.

“Whatever happens next—no matter what anyone thinks or says about us being together—we’re going to be okay.

I’ll always protect you, alright?” I know we may face a bumpy road when we decide it’s time to let everyone in on our secret, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned over the months that I’ve known Livvy, it’s that I’m stronger with her by my side.

Without the help and support she’s given, I’d still be trying to prove myself to all the wrong people, never feeling like I was worthy of the position I’m in.

And I’d like to think that I’ve made a difference in her life too, showing her that she’s perfect the way she is, and that she deserves someone who isn’t threatened by her brilliance.

She nods her head, sniffling as her chin lifts confidently. My chest swells with pride, and I press my lips to hers gently, grinning into the kiss because I’m just so goddamn happy. I can’t wait to show her what else I have planned for the weekend, but first, we need to get cleaned up.

I reluctantly pull away, finding the floor with my feet and lifting her into my arms as an adorable squeal bursts from her throat. “Hey!” she argues, kicking her feet in a halfhearted attempt to get away. “Put me down!”

I chuckle, hoisting her over my shoulder like a rag doll and landing a firm but playful slap to her ass.

The quietest little moan rumbles against my back, and it takes everything in me not to turn back around and spend the rest of the night in bed worshiping her.

But we have plans, and I don’t want to be late.

Swiping the Twizzlers and a bottle of water from the dresser, I head toward the bathroom.

“I’m going to put you down,” I say, “in the shower. I can’t take you out for the next part of your birthday celebration with crusty jizz in your hair.

” She mutters something about me being disgusting, but I know she loves being marked by me just as much as I love doing it.

I step into the shower, waiting for the water to heat to the temperature of hell degrees , just like she likes it, before lowering her feet onto the luxurious stone floor.

Knowing that her body is probably in need of sugar after what we just did, I open the package in my hand, offering her a piece of candy.

I’m grateful when she takes it without arguing, doing a cute little dance as she happily chews.

She lets me wash her as she eats and drinks, all the while telling me about the interesting parts of her trip, like being here with me is the most normal thing in the world.

I soak it all in, thankful for every moment I get with her, and excited for what’s to come.