Page 31 of Mr. Darcy’s Honor (Darcy and Elizabeth Forever: Pride and Prejudice Variations #1)
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
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A few days after Lady Catherine departed, Darcy managed to dress and walk haltingly down the stairs. He was still weak, but he could not stay abed. Not when he needed to speak to Elizabeth Bennet. The only solution was to take a carriage to Longbourn.
“Are you certain this is wise?” Bingley asked from the seat across from him. “Mrs. Porter was quite clear that you should not exert yourself, especially in this weather.”
“Mrs. Porter permitted short carriage rides,” Darcy replied, his voice steadier than he felt. “Longbourn is hardly a significant journey.”
The carriage jolted on a rough patch of road, sending a shard of pain through his injured shoulder.
Bingley studied him with undisguised concern. “Your color suggests otherwise.”
Two weeks had passed since the duel, and while the fever had broken, Darcy’s strength remained frustratingly depleted.
That morning, the act of dressing had left him light-headed and trembling, requiring Georgiana’s assistance with his cravat and coat.
Yet he could not delay this journey, not when each passing day brought the possibility of being whisked away to Rosings for “proper convalescence” as his aunt had suggested before her departure.
“I am well enough for what must be done,” he had insisted.
Georgiana had counseled patience that morning, her gentle eyes troubled as she straightened his coat. “Miss Elizabeth promised to return when you were better,” she had reminded him. “Perhaps wait until you can at least stand without assistance?”
But Elizabeth had not responded to his note. No word had come from Longbourn. The silence gnawed at him, undermining the certainty he had felt when dictating those carefully chosen words.
My heart won’t ever leave you, she had promised before departing his sickroom. Rest, Mr. Darcy. I shall return when you are better.
Had those words been merely kindness to a fevered patient?
Had she spoken them only to soothe him, with no intention of fulfilling such a promise?
He could not believe it. Not after all they had shared during those long nights of illness—the reading of poetry, the quiet conversations, and the unmistakable tenderness in her touch as she tended his wound.
The carriage slowed as they approached Longbourn’s modest drive. Darcy saw a garden wilting in the summer heat—roses past their prime, lilies drooping in the afternoon sun.
“We have arrived,” Bingley announced. “Shall I accompany you inside?”
“That will not be necessary,” Darcy replied, though the prospect of walking unassisted suddenly seemed daunting. “Though I would appreciate your arm to the door.”
“Of course.” Bingley nodded, understanding both the spoken request and the unspoken desire for privacy.
As the carriage halted, Darcy took a deep, steadying breath. The footman opened the door, and Darcy descended slowly, leaning more heavily on Bingley’s arm than he would have wished.
The short walk to Longbourn’s entrance stretched like a country mile. Yet the thought of Elizabeth—her fine eyes, quick wit, and gentle hands during his fever—pulled him forward despite his body’s protest.
Mrs. Hill answered their knock. “Mr. Darcy! Mr. Bingley! We had not expected—” She broke off, recovering her composure. “The family is at home, but…”
“We apologize for calling without notice,” Bingley said. “Is Miss Bennet receiving visitors?”
“Yes, sir. The family is in the drawing room, except for Mr. Bennet, who is in his library as usual.”
“Please inform them that Mr. Bingley and Mr. Darcy have called.”
Darcy adjusted his sling, straightening his posture despite the pain it caused. He wiped his brow with his handkerchief, willing the weakness in his limbs to subside. He would not appear before Elizabeth as an invalid or have her decision influenced by pity.
The murmur of feminine voices drifted from the drawing room, followed by a sudden silence as Mrs. Hill announced their arrival.
Mrs. Bennet sat by the window with her youngest daughters, wielding a fan against the summer heat, while Jane and Elizabeth were engaged with needlework near the garden doors, where a slight breeze offered relief.
All eyes turned to them, but Darcy saw only Elizabeth.
She had paled slightly at their entrance, her hands stilling on her embroidery.
“Mr. Bingley! Mr. Darcy!” Mrs. Bennet exclaimed, rising with a flutter of handkerchief and lace. “This is most unexpected. We had heard you were still confined to your bed, Mr. Darcy.”
“I am much improved, madam,” Darcy replied with a formal bow that sent a wave of dizziness through him. He maintained his dignity through sheer force of will, though he suspected his pallor and the perspiration on his brow betrayed the effort.
“Please, gentlemen, do be seated,” Mrs. Bennet continued, gesturing to the available chairs. “Jane, ring for lemonade. Kitty, stop fidgeting. Lydia, sit up straight. We are honored by your visit, Mr. Darcy, especially given your condition.”
Darcy took the offered seat, relief washing through him as the room steadied.
His gaze sought Elizabeth, who had risen alongside her sister.
The sight of her—composed in a simple muslin dress the color of summer sky, her cheeks flushed slightly in the July heat—stirred an intense longing in him.
But there was a wariness in her expression that had not been present during his illness, a guardedness that troubled him.
“We had not expected to see you in company so soon, sir,” said Jane. “Your recovery must be proceeding well.”
“Mrs. Porter has declared me fit for short journeys,” Darcy replied, his eyes still on Elizabeth, who had yet to speak. “Though not yet for the return to Pemberley.”
“And how is dear Miss Darcy?” Mrs. Bennet asked. “Such a sweet girl, to travel all this way for her brother’s care.”
“She is well, thank you,” Darcy said, forcing himself to engage in the social niceties when all he wished was to speak with Elizabeth alone. “She sends her regards to your family.”
“Most kind.” Mrs. Bennet nodded. “And when do you expect to leave Netherfield, Mr. Darcy? Surely Pemberley must require your attention after such a lengthy absence?”
The question, for all its apparent innocence, struck at the heart of Darcy’s urgency. “I hope to depart within the week, if my strength permits.”
Elizabeth’s eyes flickered to his at this news before she lowered her gaze to her embroidery. Had the information distressed her? Or was it merely confirmation of what she had expected?
“So soon?” Mrs. Bennet continued. “And after such a dreadful ordeal. Why, we have all been beside ourselves with worry, have we not, girls? Especially Lizzy, who has scarcely slept since returning from Netherfield. Dark circles under her eyes, though I tell her it does nothing for her complexion.”
“Mama,” Elizabeth interjected, a flush rising to her cheeks. “I’m certain Mr. Darcy and Mr. Bingley have no interest in my sleeping habits.”
“I merely comment that you have been most concerned, Lizzy. There is no shame in showing compassion for the ill.”
The arrival of lemonade provided a welcome interruption to this uncomfortable exchange.
As Jane poured, Darcy observed Elizabeth surreptitiously.
Was it true she had scarcely slept? Now that he looked more closely, the shadows beneath her eyes did suggest nights of restless thought.
What had occupied her mind during those dark hours?
Was it concern for his health, or something else entirely?
The lemonade provided momentary relief from the oppressive heat, though Darcy found his hands less steady than he would have liked as he raised the glass to his lips.
A drop of perspiration trickled down his temple, and he saw Elizabeth’s eyes follow its path, concern flickering across her features.
“Miss Elizabeth,” Darcy said when the lemonade had been distributed, his voice lowering slightly, “might I speak with you privately? Perhaps in the garden, if the weather permits?”
“Of course, Mr. Darcy.” Her voice was gentle, although strained. “Though perhaps the shade of the oak would be preferable to the full sun.”
Mrs. Bennet appeared ready to object to this arrangement, but a meaningful glance from Jane silenced her. Instead, she turned her attention to Bingley. “Mr. Bingley, you made quite a stir with that procession of ice wagons. So generous and a testament to your friendship with Mr. Darcy…”
As Elizabeth fetched a parasol, Darcy steadied himself against the mantlepiece, gathering strength for the conversation. The room wavered slightly at the edges of his vision—a warning that he was pushing beyond his body’s limitations.
When Elizabeth returned, he offered his arm—his left, as the right remained immobilized against his chest—and she took it with a light touch that suggested concern for his injury.
“You are pale, Mr. Darcy,” she observed as they entered the hallway. “And perspiring more than the heat warrants. Perhaps this walk is unwise.”
“Some things cannot wait for perfect health,” he replied, the warmth of her hand on his arm a singular comfort amid his discomfort.
“The path is uneven here,” she said as they stepped outside into the blinding sunlight. Her hand tightened slightly on his arm. “Please, lean on me if you need to.”
The offer, made without pity or condescension, touched him. This was Elizabeth’s gift—to offer assistance in a way that preserved dignity rather than diminishing it.
The garden welcomed them with the drowsy stillness of high summer. Bees droned lazily among the remaining blooms, and the air hung heavy with the scent of warm earth and flowering herbs. A slight breeze stirred the leaves of the old oak tree, promising relief from the heat.
“The bench beneath the oak might be best,” Elizabeth suggested, nodding toward a weathered wooden seat half-hidden in the dappled shade. “You should not be in this sun. Your color is alarming.”