Page 41 of Mercenary

He glares at me. “I never run. Period.”

I reach out and run the pad of my pointer finger across his tight lips. “Why not tell me what’s going on? I’m loyal. I can keep quiet. And to be perfectly honest . . . I like you.”

His eyebrows arch. I’ve surprised him.

We stare at each other. Time seems frozen. Until he drops a verbal sledgehammer and forces us apart. “Get out. Grab you things. Go.”

“What?”

“Get the fuck out before I change my mind.”

“What’s wrong?” I manage.

“This entire goddamn situation. I’ll count to three. If you don’t listen to what I’m offering you, I’ll drag you out of this vehicle myself.”

“Offering me? You leaving me stranded on the side of the road.”

“One. Fucking two . . .”

“Don’t think for one second I don’t get what this is about. I like you, Declan. Get over it.”

“Goddamn it. Three.” He hits his door handle as if he’s actually going to spring from the driver’s seat and follow through with his threat.

I open my door and slide out.

“Take your duffle bag with you. It’s in the back.”

Swallowing hard, I muster my pride and retrieve my duffle bag, which is wedged between the passenger seat and the backseat. I hesitate, spying a bottle lying on the floor mat. A familiar bottle, the same one he pulled that little blue pill from. My thoughts flash back to our first ride together, and the roofie he admitted to giving me. I scoop it up and shove it inside my duffle bag, not really thinking too deeply about what I’d do with its contents once I’m away from him.

No. I’m not sticking around.

Declan doesn’t turn. “Take a bus from Dayton and get out of Oklahoma.” He doesn’t say another word. Unaffected. A one-man cure to global warming.

He’s letting me go.

“You led me to believe I could count on you,” I say.

Nothing.

It takes every ounce of self-control not to slam the door shut. With a sigh, I secure the handle of my duffle bag over my shoulder. The irony of this situation isn’t lost on me, how I was in a similar one this summer where I’d planned on walking to Dayton in the darkness of night and with three duffel bags to contend with. It’s like I’ve had a four-month reprieve from my walk only to find myself back on the same path. Closer to Dayton and further along on the roadway but at a standstill in understanding exactly how I got here.

I’ll find my sister without his help.

I pause to dig into my duffel bag, searching for the gun. Organizing myself for next step in this twisted, unpredictable journey.

It’s gone. Declan’s probably taken it to keep his knife company.

Hitchhiking is out of the question, especially given how he kept checking the mirror. I straighten and start walking. Looks like it’s just me and my tried-and-true instinct to survive that’s going to get me to Dayton. While there, I’ll subtly ask a few questions about my sister in case I am wrong and that for some inexplicable reason, she’s stuck around. Like I’ve said, it’s highly unlikely.

So why would Declan believe otherwise?

I straighten my back and begin walking.

The strongest will survive, I think. Declan’s a beast. He’s a prime example of physical prowess. But he’s damaged on the inside. He can’t even handle someone vocalizing how she likes him. He’s a powerful man with troubled soul and a disaster waiting to happen. I can’t fix him. I can’t fix someone who doesn’t understand how deeply he’s broken.

I pick up the pace, listening to the gravel kicking up from behind me as he pulls the pickup out onto the road. I catch a glimpse of him as he drives by. He’s on the phone. I’m forgotten.

Disappointment creeps in but I shake it off.