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Raze (“Havoc”)

Sweetest Girl: Akon, Wyclef

T he night stretched on interminably, a creeping sense of dread enveloping me as I grasped the reality that my entire world was under fucking attack. Bullets rained down, but thankfully none penetrated the club's bulletproof glass. Outside, chaos reigned. My attention, however, remained fixed on Whitney; despite the escalating attack, I couldn't help but prioritize her safety. Along with the other dancers, Whitney retaliated fiercely, a fucking queen defending her kingdom, yet it was her family—us— that mattered most to her when it came down to retaliation.

We were fucking blindsided by this gun battle, especially considering we had never gone into anyone’s territory and we didn't have beef with anyone, at least nothing major enough for them to come at us the way they did. Confusion hung thick in the air, leaving us questioning not only who had targeted us but also why. Fortunately, the attackers failed with their violent intentions. A few members of Masked Mayhem who defended the outside were injured, but miraculously not fatally.

Tonight was meant to be devoted to plotting our next big heist, not for fighting for our lives amidst an unexpected gang war—that's what it felt like it was. Lux and Donovan offered no answers, a reality that only deepened our anxiety, knowing the leaders of MM were as lost and confused as we were.

Settling onto my bike, I swap my mask for my helmet and watch as Hawk approaches on his bike. The others took off, eager to distance themselves from the turmoil. I don’t blame them. In the shadows near the back door, Red and 13 stand unfazed with bullets having peppered the frame, their calm demeanor raising my suspicion once more. Hawk pulls up next to me, dragging his feet to stabilize his stillness, and lifts his visor, inquiring with a look.

"What's up, bud?" he calls over the low thrum of our engines.

"Not much. Where are you headed?" I ask, secretly hoping he’ll choose to do his own thing tonight.

"I'm heading to meet a few guys at a bar down the road, just to play it safe. You want to join?"

I shake my head, relief flooding me at his response. "Nah, I’m going to call it a night. I’ll see you back home."

He nods, lowers his visor, and speeds off, kicking up dust and debris with his back tire. Once he vanishes from sight, I glare back at Red, wanting nothing more than to wipe that cocky grin off his fucking face. But I have other plans, more important than dealing with his ass.

I rev my bike and feel the warm end-of-summer air envelop me, reminiscent of a safety net I could have used an hour ago. I let the music blare through my helmet, zoning out as I navigate through the city, leaving the vibrant nightlife behind as I head toward the familiar darkness where I truly feel at home. Despite my desire to see Whitney, I resist the urge, opting instead to ride aimlessly, grappling with the reality of how close we had come to our fucking deaths.

This was the life I had embraced—the family I had always yearned for, the brothers I never had, the love that felt ripped from the pages of a fairy tale. Nothing worth having comes free; all that you desire comes at a fucking cost. Being part of Masked Mayhem is no game—it’s a matter of life and death, demanding a readiness to sacrifice for your family. Tonight, that harsh reality had brushed ever so closely to us.

After an hour of riding, my legs numb from the relentless vibration, I park outside Whitney’s apartment, choosing a secluded spot at the back. Donning my mask, I approach the rear door, inhaling the crisp, refreshing air to steady myself. Once inside, my composure will likely shatter.

Whitney had an unparalleled impact on me, stirring emotions I couldn't articulate. There was a primal urge to protect her, mingled with an intense desire to possess her—all the while, history tethered our souls together. Our childhood had forged a bond, one forged in horrific trauma that no child should endure. We leaned on one another—Hawk, Whitney, and I. When she began dating and could no longer see us, it fucking devastated me in ways she could never comprehend. I spiraled, falling prey to vices that nearly consumed me entirely. I fled to Boston, realizing that staying in Cali would lead to my demise or incarceration. Back then, Hawk and I lacked the structure and guidance we have now; our lives, like now, were marked by instability.

Ascending the seldom-used back stairs to the third floor, I keep my head down and my hood up, evading the watchful gaze of the camera. With each step, my gun presses against my hip and my knife grazes my ankle inside its sheath—a constant reminder of the danger that accompanies my lifestyle, a thrill I fucking relish.

The real question remained: would Whitney accept me when she learned the depths of my darkness? When she finds out who I really am? The only way to know was to enter her world again.

Using the spare key she's unaware I have, I slip into her apartment and quietly lock the door behind me. Navigating past Boston’s unusually dark and eerily quiet room, I brush it aside, focusing on the reason I'm here. Whitney’s door is ajar, just wide enough for me to peek inside and witness her peacefully sleeping, music softly emanating from the speakers—a comforting echo from our childhood. It makes me smile, knowing some things never change.

I push the door open and step inside, closing it behind me. I turn the music up slightly, remove my boots, and toss my hoodie onto the window seat. The light thud stirs her from her dreams. I sit at the edge of her bed, beside her head, slowly twirling her hair with my knife while I watch her.

She's fucking perfect.

As if sensing my gaze, Whitney suddenly wakes up from her sleep, yanking her hand out from under her pillow, clutching a knife, and swinging her arm quickly—my bicep ignites in pain as her knife slices through flesh. She bolts upright, gripping the knife as if it were a lifeline, clearly poised to defend herself. Something must have happened to her recently if she feels the need to sleep with a knife under her pillow; that isn't like her.

Rubbing sleep from her eyes, she blinks a few times, attempting to grasp reality. The sight of my masked figure startles her, and instead of relaxing, she scoots towards the headboard, raising the knife defensively.

"Who are you, and how did you get in here?" she demands, her voice tinged with apprehension.

“Fucking relax, Little Mischief, it’s me, Havoc,” I growl, noticing the blood soaking through my sleeve from the cut she gave me.

“Havoc?” She repeats, blinking in disbelief, reaching for the lamp beside her bed.

“Yes, but please don’t fucking turn on the light,” I snap, my mood darkening quicker than I anticipated.

Though she still holds the knife tightly, she lowers it a fraction, her posture softening. A sigh slips from her lips, sending a rush of heat coursing through my veins, igniting a fire within me.

“What are you doing here?” she asks, her voice softening as she stifles a yawn, rubbing her eyes.

“Do I need a damn reason to see you?” I shoot back, frustration bubbling to the surface as all the blood in my body rushes to my cock and makes it instantly hard.

Her startled expression tells me she didn’t expect my tone. I refuse to apologize; after the chaotic night we had, she should know my fucking state of mind. Yet Whitney is unpredictable—a whirlwind of emotions, much like me.

“Are you okay?” she asks, sweet concern coloring her words.

“What kind of fucking question is that?” I sneer, pacing by her bedside. “No, I’m fucking not okay, Whitney. That’s why I’m here. I need you to make me feel better.”

Her brow furrows in confusion as worry etches her features. She sets the knife down, and in an impulsive moment, I lunge toward her, pressing my knife against her throat.

“Havoc, wh... what are you doing?” She breathes, panic washing over her.

“You fucking cut me and drew blood, Little Mischief; I think it’s only fair I get my turn,” I rasp.

“What…?” Her eyes widen—she's fully awake now.

I tease the blade across her neck, down to her collarbone, using just enough pressure to tantalize without breaking the skin. The vulnerability in her eyes spurs me on, pulling me deeper into the intoxicating chaos of my own making.

“Please don’t hurt me, Havoc,” she pleads, the words striking me like a slap across the fucking face as she knows deep down I would never harm her.

“You have a fucking choice to make, Little Mischief,” I say, ignoring her previous insult.

“And what would that be?” She responds, her voice trembling as I glide the knife down her shoulder, effortlessly slicing the strap of her top—watching it slip away, freeing her perfect tits.

"You can either suck my knife while I fuck you, or you can suck my dick while I use my knife to fuck your pussy," I clarify, only giving her two options, both involving my knife.

"Havoc, what?" She's stunned, her mouth wide open as I stare down at her, directly into her eyes, watching them swirl with panic.

“You can either submit to the chaos,” I whisper, leaning closer so our breaths mingle in the dim room, “or you can fight, and I promise it’ll be a battle you’ll never fucking forget.”

Her eyes flash with a mix of fear and something else—curiosity or maybe even desire, something intoxicating and thrilling that almost matches the adrenaline still pulsing in my veins. I can see her pulse quickening, the rhythm of her heart racing beneath the surface of her delicate skin. It's a dangerous dance we're engaged in, right on the edge of something exhilarating and disastrous all at once, just like the life I lead outside these four walls.

“I won’t fight you,” she breathes, her voice steadier than I expect, challenging me without words as she meets my gaze.

The defiance in her eyes gnaws at the part of me that wants to dominate, to assert control. But seeing her vulnerability, the raw fear tinted with an unyielding strength, siphons the brutality from my nature. Perhaps I don’t want to shred her innocence; maybe I just crave something deeper, something meaningful amidst the chaos my life has become.

“Then what the fuck do you want?” I ask, my voice lowering into a gravelly murmur, the knife now resting lightly against her skin, a mere feather’s touch. “Because you know that once you let me in again, there’s no fucking going back.”

“Let you in? You already have,” she challenges, her breath hitching as she closes the distance between us, testing me, as if she’s daring me to push further.

I can see the walls she’s built around her heart—the ones I smashed down years ago as kids. Yet, they’ve been rebuilt, reinforced by heartbreak and memories of pain.

In an unforeseen burst of determination, she twists the knife slightly against my wrist, pressing deeper—this time with a biting intensity.

“Let’s not fucking pretend,” she whispers fiercely, “that you don’t have your own demons to face.”

A pulse of heat rushes through me, igniting memories of the vulnerable boy I used to be before I was molded into Havoc, the monster I believed I needed to become to survive. Can I even acknowledge not just the darkness that lies within me, but the light I used to recognize when I looked in the mirror?

“Fuck it,” I hiss, and with one swift movement, I pull the knife away and push the handle between her lips, silencing her and turning myself on as her pouty lips seal around it.

Whitney's breath catches as the tension in the room shifts, an undercurrent of hope trying to rise amidst the turmoil. I reach for her, placing a hand on her knee, feeling her warmth seep through the fabric of her pajama pants, grounding me as reality settles back in.

“Life is out there, waiting for us,” I murmur, glancing out the window, taking in the world outside that was suddenly much scarier than the one inside.

She deserves a world filled with laughter and love, not the violence and restlessness that is my shadow. But right now I can't give her that. I can only give her the darkness, and for her, I'll fucking give her as much of it as I can.

Slowly, she reaches for me, the knife still in her mouth, her fingers finding their way to my cheek, brushing away the remnants of pain I wear as a badge. Her touch sends shockwaves through me, making me believe that perhaps I could be more than just Havoc—the destroyer.

“We’re on my fucking terms,” I warn, standing firm in my need to own her, to protect her, to shield her from the wreckage that seems intent on following me.

As the silence swells between us, the air thick with unspoken truths, I lean in close, planting a soft kiss on her forehead, a gentleness that lightens the chaos that looms outside. I want her to know that fighting is easy, but trust—trust is a different animal entirely.

“You're going to do as you're fucking told, Whitney, and you're going to put that mouth to work and suck my knife while I fuck you," I demand, leaving no room for objection. "Do you fucking trust me?"

Hesitantly, she nods, too afraid to talk in fear the blade might cut her tongue. But it's enough for me, and I'm about to show her the true meaning of trust in the most fucked-up way she's ever experienced.

And as I pull back, staring into her eyes as I begin to slowly thrust the knife into her mouth, I realize she holds the fucking mirror to my soul. This isn’t just about me anymore; it’s about us, our destined futures. This is the fucking moment I pull her into my chaotic world, hoping against everything that together we might find our way through the mayhem—all while praying that this time, our foundations are strong enough to withstand the fucking deadly storm ahead.

Keeping her eyes on mine, she spreads her legs as I forcefully rip her bottoms down, smelling how turned on she is with one whiff. Guiding my cock between her pussylips, I slide into her slowly, trying to match my strokes with the rhythm of my hand thrusting the knife in and out of her mouth. The second she feels the pressure from my dick stretching her out, she gasps, arching her back off the bed and making our chests collide in a moment of passion, whether she wants to admit it or not.

I can feel the tension crackling in the air like static, heightened by the clash of pleasure and danger swirling around us. Every thrust sends ripples of heat through me, an exquisite mix of dominance and vulnerability, as I both ravage and cherish her all at once. Whitney's eyes widen in surprise, a visceral reaction that makes my heart race. She’s grinding against me now, meeting my thrusts with fervor, instinctively knowing this moment is a union of more than just bodies—it's a combination of our chaotic, heartbreaking histories.

“Damn, Little Mischief,” I rasp, my voice barely a whisper, thick with passion. “You’re fucking beautiful like this, trapped between the blade and my will.”

My pulse thrums, alive with the thrill of what we’re creating together—an intoxicating dance of trust in a space so often marked by betrayal. The way her lips wrap around the knife, fierce yet inviting, fuels me further—reminding me of the raw and unfiltered connection we share. I can feel her warmth enveloping my cock, each stroke amplifying the urgency of our need, as if our souls are colliding, dashing against the barriers we’d so painstakingly built around ourselves. I can see the pooling intensity in her eyes, the challenge and surrender all wrapped into one.

I lean in closer, my breath teasing her ear, “You’re going to fucking remember this moment, Whitney. It’s not just about me claiming you—it’s about us discovering each other in ways we never thought possible.”

My words spill between us like sweet nectar, and I feel her quiver beneath me, torn between hesitation and yearning. With each thrust, I can sense her apprehension edging into pleasure, teasing out the softness she’s kept tucked away. The knife remains a symbol—a choice, a bond. It’s as if we’re writing the language of our truth, one push at a time, until she no longer sees a reason to hide. Tonight, we are unbounded; we exist in a moment where tomorrow’s chaos can wait and our hectic lives are never promised.

“Don’t fight it,” I urge, cooing the encouragement she needs. “Let go. Let me fucking own you.”

And to my surprise, she complies, that fierce fire lighting within as she surrenders, her body arching in perfect harmony with mine. The knife haltingly draws out of her mouth, leaving behind glistening traces of her spit—an intimate mark I wish to paint across every fucking inch of her.

“Yes,” she breathes, every syllable infused with a raw, primal need that makes my chest tighten with emotion. “I trust you.”

The admission crackles in the air, igniting something deeper within me. Suddenly, I’m not just a product of chaos; I’m a man sharing midnight secrets with the girl who’s always understood my darkness. The knife feels less like a weapon and more like a tether, binding us together as I lose myself in the depths of her desire.

In that moment, we transform our pain into a symphony of lust and intimacy. My movement slows, feeling the way her pussy muscles contract around me; I bury myself deeper into her, kissing her burning skin and tracing a path down her body with my lips. A whimper escapes her lips as we dance on the edge of ecstasy and chaos, our breaths synchronizing in a rhythm as old as time itself, echoing the bond we forged in our youth.

“I want to feel you come inside me,” she whispers, and the plea reverberates through me, soft yet demanding. It’s more than a request; it’s a challenge.

"The thought of getting you pregnant with my baby is fucking hot," I growl, fucking her harder so her bed slams against the wall.

I grip her thighs, pushing them upwards, spreading her pussy open, exposing her vulnerability and strength all at once.

“Then let’s fucking feel everything.” With that, I abandon all restraint and begin to lose myself in the primal rhythm of our bodies colliding, the night unfolding like a dark, wild tapestry around us.

Whitney’s moans fill the room, a melody that shatters the silence; each cry punctuated with the harshness of my cock slamming into her cunt, mingling with the thrusts of turmoil outside. With every movement, we etch a new narrative—one we determine together, redefining trust in ways we never could have imagined.

As the world outside fades, I’m only aware of the beauty of her beneath me, the heat radiating from her, the exquisite pleasure drowning out the fear that swirls in my brain. We’ve dug our heels into this moment—unyielding, unrelenting, and absolutely unforgiving.

Again, I feel her tightening around me, a subtle sign that release is drawing near. My breath hitches, stuttering against the pleasure flooding my senses, as I fight for control, wanting to cherish the moment we’re creating.

“Soak my cock,” I growl, and with a primal force, I plunge deeper, pushing her to the edge, wanting to feel our bodies shake in a crescendo of raw pleasure. Our bodies collide, spiraling into a maelstrom that feels dizzying, liberating.

“Fine, but come inside me,” she echoes, her voice reaching a fever pitch as I push her over the edge, the two of us lost in a wave of ecstasy that drowns out the world—the world that has always tried to fucking tear us apart.

"You're such a dirty fucking slut. You just love being filled with my cum, don't you?" I ask, my body shaking through my orgasm as I do what she asks and cum so deep inside of her that shit will be dripping out for days.

And in that moment of euphoric bliss, spurred by raw memories and brutal truth, we emerge not as two broken souls but as warriors forged together in the fire of our fates. This time we could take our chaos on as a shared burden—a thread binding us together against the storm threatening to break around us.

I finally understand that we're not just enduring—we're fighting back, reclaiming our narrative amidst the ruins of our past, shaping our future one wild moment at a time.

Whitney's breath comes in sharp gasps as the aftershocks of our climax ripple through her body, each tremor echoing the chaos that once surrounded us. I pull back, carefully extracting myself from her pussy, desperate to savor the intimacy that lingers in the air—an unspoken agreement that we are more than our scars. The knife lies forgotten, a mere object on the nightstand, powerless compared to the depths we've explored together.

As I retreat, my gaze sweeps over her: a tempest of emotions reflected in her eyes, a wild mixture of passion and vulnerability that tugs at something deep within me.

“Are you alright?” I ask, my voice low, gentle even.

Uncharted territory had been traversed tonight, and I need to know if she can weather the storm we've conjured together. She meets my gaze, a flicker of uncertainty crossing her features.

“I don’t know, Havoc,” she breathes, her hand instinctively reaching for the remnants of her top, tugging it back over her delicate frame as if to shield herself from the rawness of our encounter. “This… this was intense.”

“Intense is a fucking understatement, Little Mischief,” I reply, my voice barely above a whisper.

Where is the line between pleasure and pain? The conflict of emotions tugs at the fibers of my being—should I fear that I pushed her too hard, or should I take pride in the connection we forged? My post-orgasmic clarity offers no answers, only swirling concerns about what tomorrow will bring.

“I just need to process…” she murmurs, her eyes darting toward the window, where the moonlight dances with the shadows of the room. “Everything feels… so different now.”

I nod, recognizing the weight of her words. “Different doesn’t have to be bad.” Taking a seat on the edge of her bed, I lean closer, trying to bridge the distance that still lingers, even after everything we just shared. “I didn’t come here to hurt you, Whitney. I came because I care—I want you in my fucking life, not just for one night, but for every fucking night that’s coming.”

Her lips curve slightly, a smile sprinkled with uncertainty, and it warms the dark recesses of my heart.

“You have no idea how much I’ve wanted you… wanted this,” she admits, gesturing between us, and there’s a vulnerability in her voice that stings. The thrill of our wild connection battles against the pain of our past—two ghosts wrestling in the shadows, and one of them has no idea who the other really is.

“I’d do fucking anything to protect you,” I declare, my tone firm, a promise that resonates in the quiet surroundings. “Even if it means fighting against everything that threatens to rip us apart. I’ll shield you from the darkness that’s always been part of me.”

Whitney shifts closer, her hand slipping into mine—a gesture so simple yet profound. “It’s not just darkness that scares me, Havoc,” she says softly, her eyes shining with sincerity. “It’s the fear that we might lose ourselves or each other if things go wrong, and I've already lost two people in my life who I cared so deeply about—I'm not sure I have it in me to get ripped away from anyone else that I feel so strongly about.”

It’s a raw confession that cuts deep. Our past isn’t simply a backdrop. It’s a complicated tapestry woven with suffering, love, and the repercussions of choices we made as children lost in a world far bigger than ourselves. But Whitney has no idea that I'm the Raze from her past that she used to be in love with, and I still stand by now isn't the right time to come clean.

“We’re not going to be ripped apart, I promise you that,” I insist, my thumb brushing against her knuckles, memorizing her warmth, this anchor amidst the chaos of our lives.

As I sit beside her, interlaced fingers anchoring us, I notice the quiet dawn breaking outside—faint light creeping in through the gaps in the curtains, a tangible representation of hope shimmering in the aftermath of our storm.

“You know we've both faced worse things than just this one night.”

“You mean the world we each grew up in?” She questions, her voice rising just above a whisper, laden with both fear and recognition.

“Exactly that.” I draw a breath, filling my lungs with the remnants of her scent—the perfume of innocence tinged with desire. “But we’re not children anymore. We’ve survived. Now we can recreate something beautiful.”

“Are we bold enough for that?” she asks, her eyes searching mine, a silent plea asking if we were ready to take that leap.

“Bold enough to take on whatever comes next,” I answer, the tension of the last few hours ebbing away as determination settles around us. “How about we take it day by day and find our own rhythm? Create our own fucking story?”

As the sun rises outside, casting a golden hue into the room, Whitney gives me a reluctant smile that could rival the fucking dawn.

“Yeah. I’d like that. I’m willing to try.”

The warmth of her acceptance ignites something inside me—an ember of hope flickering back to life. I lean closer, resting my mask-covered forehead against hers, feeling her breath mingle with mine.

“Then let’s do this shit.”

The beginnings of a new chapter surge forth, one where we become not just survivors, but warriors navigating our course through uncharted waters. No longer just shadows of our past, we'll step into the fucking chaos together, ready to create a future that—this time—will be brilliantly and unapologetically ours. The rush of urgency fuels my spirit, and I realize that rebuilding what was lost won’t be easy, especially since Whitney still doesn't know the truth, but the promise of something fierce and fucking beautiful is worth every goddamn wild risk.

“That’s the spirit,” I say, pulling back just enough to lift the bottom of my mask and bury my lips against her forehead, sealing our pact with a gentle kiss that carries years of unspoken affection—the kind that echoes through the chaos of our lives and lights a fierce flame in the depths of our tortured souls.

As the daylight brightens, so does our resolve to take on the world that once conspired against us, and though shadows lurk just beyond the darkness, we stand together—a united front against the mayhem, fueled by love and a willingness to fight for our fucking lives.