Page 62 of Lady of Milkweed Manor

She certainly had no intention of approaching Charles.

In fact her hands shook at the thought of it.

She did not want him to think she was “waiting in the wings” nor expecting anything from him.

She merely felt it was her duty, and yes, her right, to attend, if only for a few moments.

Knowing her cousin as she had, she knew Katherine would be affronted beyond words if Charlotte did not at least make an appearance.

So with trembling hands she handed the butler her wrap and umbrella but kept on her veiled hat and followed the man up the stairs.

Still holding her things, he said apologetically, “I’m afraid we’ve an overflow of coats, m’um.

I shall have to put your things there, behind that screen, with the others.

If you need help finding them again upon departure, I shall endeavor to aid you in your search. ”

“Thank you.”

The drawing room was already filled with people huddled in small groups, some talking soberly and others less so, clearly enjoying the promised glass of cheer.

Charlotte sat in a row of chairs near the door, content to observe the gathering.

She did not see Charles or Edmund. They were perhaps in the adjoining sitting room.

Nor did she see her father, which she found puzzling.

She wondered if he was ill—could not imagine another reason why he would not attend.

She recognized several people, but no one it seemed had recognized her. She breathed a sigh of relief.

Relaxing a bit, she allowed her head to swivel as she surveyed the remainder of the large room.

Her heart pounded. There was her sister, Bea, holding Charles’ arm as the two walked into the room.

And there, his head barely visible through the assembled throng, was Edmund.

Several mourners clustered around Charles as he entered, clearly offering condolences.

Even from this distance, Charlotte could see there was a terrible pall over his features.

Bea leaned close to Edmund, her arm resting across his shoulders as she whispered some confidence.

Her sister comforting her son? For some reason the idea of it—the reality of it—made her feel queasy.

Edmund ran off suddenly, disappearing through the crowd, and Bea returned her attentions to Charles.

Charlotte realized she could walk right up to Charles and say a few kind words.

If she could manage to ignore her sister’s inevitable icy glare, she might even accomplish the feat with her emotions under rein.

She sighed. Even if Bea were not standing guard at Charles’ side, Charlotte knew she would not have the courage.

She rose from her chair and turned to leave. As she stepped briskly into the passage, she nearly ran right into Edmund. He looked at her, head cocked to one side.

“You’re Cousin Charlotte.”

She lifted her veil off her face. “That’s right. What a wonderful memory you have.”

“My mother died,” he said somberly.

She nodded. “Yes, I know. I am very sorry.”

“That’s what everybody says.”

Charlotte lowered herself to his eye level, sitting on her heels. “But even though she is gone, you are not alone.”

“I know. I still have Father.”

“Yes, and there are others, too, who love you.”

“Do you mean Bea?”

Charlotte swallowed. “Bea?”

He shrugged and said matter-of-factly, “Mummy lives in heaven now.”

“That’s right. What a smart little boy you are.”

“I am not little.”

“All right, Edmund. You are very big. And far too wise.”

“Haven’t you any children?”

“I ... not at present, no.”

“You’re crying.”

“Am I?”

“Father cries sometimes. I do too.”

“Of course you do.”

She smiled at the boy through her tears and allowed herself to reach out and briefly touch his head. Then she retrieved her hand and stepped back.

She watched as Edmund walked through the doorway she had just exited—then realized he was heading directly toward his father and Bea. Charlotte quickly stepped behind the door. Out of sight but not out of earshot.

“Cousin Charlotte is here, Father,” she heard Edmund say.

“Charlotte? Where?”

“Oh ... I don’t see her anymore.”

“What did she say to you?” Charles asked.

She could not make out Edmund’s reply.

Charlotte risked a glance back into the room and saw Charles bent over Edmund, his hand lying on his son’s head, much as hers had done.

When she saw Charles look abruptly in her direction, she instinctively ducked from view.

Moving quickly to the temporary “coatroom” to retrieve her wrap, she stepped behind the oriental screen flanked by potted palms that served to conceal the untidy pile of coats from view. It concealed her as well.

Hearing footsteps nearby, she peeked from between the slats in the screen. From her hiding place, she watched Charles stride quickly into the passage and look in both directions. How foolish she felt behind the screen. Should she step out and offer her condolences?

But then Beatrice appeared beside him and took his arm.

“Do not trouble yourself, Charles. I suppose she had the right to come and pay her respects, but I do wish she might have stayed away and not sullied the day for you. At least she had the decency to be unobtrusive. Though I wonder what she was thinking, speaking to Edmund?”

Charles stood still, alert without moving, as though trying to hear her ... to sense her presence. Was he angry she had come? Threatened that she would speak to his son? Afraid or furious she would dare make herself known to Edmund, and at such a vulnerable time?

I told him nothing, she thought defensively.

“Come, Charles. Come back in. There is no harm done. Forget about her.”

He turned and gave Bea a brief smile, patting her hand, which was placed on his arm. “I am sure you are right. How good you are to us.”

Yes, Charlotte thought. Mr. Harris seems to have no problem following Bea’s advice. No doubt I am long forgotten.

She wondered if her sister would finally have what she’d always wanted.

The thought depressed her. I would not have chosen you to mother my son, but I have lost my say in the matter.

You will do your best by him, I know—for Charles’ sake, if nothing else.

What would you say if you knew? Will Charles tell you, if he marries you?

If he never told Katherine, I doubt he will.

Probably best that way. You were never especially fond of me.

Waiting a moment more, Charlotte stepped away from the screen and toward the stairs—just as William Bentley reached the landing.

“Miss Lamb!”

“Mr. Bentley,” she answered, heart pounding dully. She wished she had remembered to reposition her veil.

“I am surprised to see you,” he said with a knowing smile.

“Why should you be? Katherine was my cousin, as you must recall.”

“Yes. And my uncle’s wife.” He cleared his throat. “You are here alone?”

“I am.”

“Beatrice did not come?”

“She is inside. With your uncle.”

“Ah, offering comfort. How good of her. I would have thought you—”

“I came only to pay my respects, Mr. Bentley. And now if you will excuse me.” She quickly began to descend the stairs.

“Miss Lamb, forgive me. I did not mean ...”

She turned back to face him. “Oh yes, Mr. Bentley. You most certainly did.” With that, she smiled as knowingly as he had, she hoped, and walked sprightly away.

Charles watched his nephew stride toward him, eyes bright with some new trouble.

“I was surprised to see Charlotte Lamb here.”

“You saw her?”

“Yes, she was leaving as I came in. First in line to offer comfort, I suppose?”

“William. I am tired of your innuendo and disrespect. Miss Lamb—Charlotte—did not even speak to me. I did not even know she had been here until Edmund mentioned it.”

“Edmund knows her?”

“Apparently Katherine and Charlotte kept in contact over the last few years.”

“I did not realize. And certainly I meant no disrespect to anyone. Especially at such a time. But do be warned, Uncle. The spinsters and widows are already lining up, ready to offer the grieving widower solace and care for his poor orphaned son.”

“Edmund isn’t an orphan.”

“Motherless, then.”

“You are a fool, William.”

“Mr. Bentley.” Beatrice came and stood at Charles’ side, making her familiarity evident by her proximity and proprietary air. “How kind of you to come.”

He bowed stiffly. “Beatrice ... Miss Lamb. How pleasant to see you again.”

“And what are you two gentlemen discussing?”

“Your sister, actually,” his nephew said, clearly relishing her disapproval.

“Really.”

“Yes, I have just seen her, and I must confess, I have never seen her looking lovelier. A bit tired perhaps—black doesn’t really suit her. But still, as handsome as ever.”

“Yes, well,” Bea said briskly. “I must check on Edmund. Poor dear is exhausted with grief and attention.”

She dipped her chin. “Mr. Bentley. Charles.”

Both men bowed briefly as she walked away.

“My, my. That did not take long.”

“William, please. Bea is like family.”

“Or very much wished to be.”

“Do shut up, William.”