Page 65 of Keeping It
He tightens his arms. “Everything is going so smoothly. I told you Malena wasn’t the only one who could pull something like this off. Your Dad is hitting the cranberry drink hard,” he says. Malena had a trip to the city planned forever, and couldn’t help as much as she wanted to. I freaked at first, but I’m glad it turned out as well as it has. Stick a feather in my hat, I can plan a party. His hands slide a little lower to rest on the bottom my stomach. He leans his head down to whisper in my ear. “When do you want to tell them? Still after dinner? Or now? Or now?” The second or now asked with even more excitement than the first. He is so excited. Granted it’s been weeks of keeping my pregnancy a secret, so the relief of everyone finally knowing will be great, but I wanted to wait until their milestone anniversary to let the cat out of the bag. I don’t think my mama will want for another thing as long as she lives when she finds out she’s going to be a Grandma.
“Are you saying we need to announce it before my daddy gets tanked on your juice concoction? Or are you just so stoked,” I say, using his west coast friend’s word, “that you literally won’t be able to keep your mouth shut a minute longer?”
He laughs, and kisses the side of my head. It gives me butterflies. Not baby’s fluttering kicks, either. The love tinged madness of him affecting me so fully that I have no control over my own body. “A little of both. What do you say?” Tahoe bounces from one foot to the other.
“Oh, goodness, go get the present already!”
“Yes!” he shouts. When people glance his way, he tries to hide his excitement. “Be right back,” he says, clearing his throat.
Hands on my hips, I watch him go, and skip a little as he tries not to sprint into the Inn for their gift. I walk toward where my parents are sitting at a table when I see Tahoe exit the house with the medium sized box.
It’s as good a time as any. Friends are mulling around the bar, and some couples are already dancing, or sitting down and eating. Tahoe’s parents weren’t able to make it tonight, but they will be here early next week to stay for an entire month. They haven’t been here since the wedding. We visited them last summer for a couple weeks and it was easy for me to see why Tahoe is so amazing. They are loving parents. His dad has blue eyes and a dimpled smile, and his mother has blonde hair and an understanding way. We’re going to wait to tell them until they arrive, but tonight is the night for everyone else. The Bronze Bay gossip column is about to be flooded with predictions.
Tahoe wraps an arm around me and pulls me close. “We got you a gift,” he exclaims, extending the box to my mama.
She takes it, wearing a warm thankful smile. “Go on. Open it now,” I urge, when she goes to set it aside. Manners dictate one should wait until guests leave to open gifts so no one gets their feelings hurt if one present is obviously nicer than another. It was the same when I was a child. I remember having a big birthday party with a dozen friends and staring at the present table with longing. She’d say, “When everyone leaves you can open them all. I’ll make notes of who got what and we can write our thank you notes. Be polite. Use patience, Caroline May.”
“You’re sure?” Mama asks, tilting her head in confusion.
Tahoe clears his throat, and nods. “We’re sure. Open it now.”
My daddy looks at the box as my mom tears into it and starts unwrapping the layers and layers of white tissue paper. She finally gets to the little notecard. It explains what it is. Tahoe helped, but it was mostly my idea. It’s a metal starfish I made from scraps of an airplane. The airplane that almost killed me, if I’m being perfectly honest. On the starfish is an engraving. “A kiss the sky, blue hue, dream come true.”
Her eyes water and I know she’s connecting the dots. It’s our saying. The one they coined when I was born. “You’re going to be grandparents,” I say softly. Dad hugs mama, a one-armed lopsided hug. “It’s a boy. He’s due on daddy’s birthday.”
“Well that’s something, isn’t it?” Daddy says, “This is some anniversary gift! Anyone top this? I’m going to be a Grandpa!” he roars, standing to hug Tahoe and then he envelops me in a bear hug. “Oh, Caroline. Way to make your old man cry.” Those around us are clapping, and shouting. Tahoe’s friends are roaring with shouts and cheers, Shirley screams, and looks horrified I hadn’t told her. Britt, off in a corner, fakes a smile and nods in my direction.
Daddy sniffles a bit, and Mama looks on with loving, tear filled eyes. “Thank you,” she mouths, holding up the starfish. One of the arm points is blackened. I didn’t want to use a charred piece, but it happened to work out best with the design I planned, so I went with it. Symbolism be damned.
“Happy Anniversary, Grandpa and Grandma!” I say. Tahoe places his hand on my lower back.
My Mama finally pulls herself together enough to hug me. “I had a feeling, baby. I’m so happy for you and Tahoe. This is best gift you could have given us. Thank you so much.” She tightens her arms around my neck, and releases me to hug my husband. When she leaves to accept congratulations from their friends, I link hands with Tahoe and meet his loving, searing gaze. My eyes leak.
Not because I’m sad.
Not because I’m happy.
Just because I am here.
Being where you are is a gift others will never have. Bloom where you’re planted. Love when it’s offered. And keep it at all costs.