Page 38 of Into the Blue (Shades of Vengeance #1)

“Can you take more?” His question comes when my silence persists as I try to unfuck the chess board I was not paying attention to in my mind. He was always thinking of how to get what he wanted. I had missed everything.

All the signs.

I’m back in the game now.

I was no virgin. I had done anal before. But I had never done it with any one or anything nearly as big as Blue.

Rocky, you’re in for it now.

My agreement is swiftly punctuated with another finger, wedging next to the previous two.

Those fingers I had massaged only hours before. I had helped soothe his aches and he was utilizing the efforts of my labor to send me into a frenzy. The pleasure of his soft coaxing in my back channel is bliss and torment in the same breath. It's overwhelming and breathtaking.

Anyone could see us.

Anyone could hear me though I try to contain my volume. My whimpers were barely subdued. I'm still hoping that I won't cause a scene or attention of someone out here.

That wasn’t what Blue wanted though. He always wants to hear me—every sound.

“Nah. I want all those cute little noises you make when you’re at my mercy.

You’re already drippin’ down these thick thighs.

I wanna clean it up with my tongue but only if you’re good and make it to this next finger.

You know I hate lettin’ any of that sweet honey goin’ to waste.

What do you say? Are you gonna let me inside this ass so I can get to the honey slidin’ down your legs? ”

“Fuuuck,” is all I manage as I writhe over his fingers. The pinky is not much more of a stretch, but it is more than enough to show me how absolutely helpless I am right now. “Blue…”

I can’t think.

I’m all nerves and feeling.

The breeze blowing softly around us is a sentient thing crawling over my over heated skin. Lighting me up and stealing my concentration on anything else.

Maybe it's just his elevated energy pulsing around me like my throbbing clit and clenching center.

None of it could bring me to my body like the feeling of his stiff length rubbing through my folds. With his fingers still inside me, he uses his other hand to coat his dick in my wetness that’s flowing just for him.

Blue’s voice is infuriatingly calm. He’s got all his control in place while mine is crazed right next to my pride at his feet.

“Deep breaths. Gonna slide my fingers out. Last chance to tell me something real. Tell me this one thing. You know I’ve got you.

You know I’m keepin’ you safe. You’re cared for.

Have I given you any reason not to trust that? ”

Damn him .

Damn him for making me want to give in. For making me want to compromise my mission.

He. Is. A. Mark.

I’m just the distraction.

I’m keeping him distracted.

I believe in my plan.

If I say it enough times, maybe I’ll stop being weak for him.

Maybe I’ll stop falling. “But th-the gators–”

It's at this moment that he notches the fat head at my puckered hole. It’s startling, but not unwelcome from how he’s already started prepping me.

It’s gonna hurt.

It’s going to be too much.

I’m going to take it anyway.

Goddamnit. I want to take it.

“Deep breaths, Racquelle.” How is he so patient? Why do his words feel less like the foreboding they should be and more like the concern of a passionate partner?

I have to relax. I have to lean into the feelings that I’m fighting for him or this is going to be so much worse.

On my second inhale, he eases himself inside.

If I was whimpering before, then the sounds coming from me now are far more feral. They rip from me as his flared head gets past the ring of muscles that suck him in.

His grunt in my ear only heightens the intense surge of sensation from being filled this way.

“Racquelle,” he groans. “You’re gonna make me bust right here.

Right now. Are you gonna take this nut on the deck?

You’re loud enough to draw a crowd. Everyone can see how deep you take this dick in your ass from the windows.

Everyone can see how you belong to me and only me.

You think I want everyone to see how well you take this dick? ”

“N-no,” I manage, unable to lower my tone or the urgent keening starting from his slow strokes inside me .

“You tell me what I want and I won’t have to leave you leakin’ my cum at the table while we eat this last course.” Blue smacks my ass. It stings and the pain intensifies the bliss of his next stroke. Did he ask me something?

“But that’s what you want, isn’t it?” His teeth sink into my neck and he continues pumping into me at a pace that makes me meet him thrust for thrust.

It was too much.

Then it wasn’t.

Then it was heaven.

My heart clenches along with my ass as he takes me higher and higher.

Blue begins thrusting into me in earnest and I’m absolutely lost to it.

It feels so fucking good that I’m completely lost in his words. The ones that keep pouring from him like praise.

"I can't let you go. I won't ever let you leave me. That's what you mean to me, he growls with feeling in my ear. "If you think you can get away, just know that I'll cut down anyone who tries to take what's mine."

I want to respond or defend my actions but the heightened sensations are too much to speak, let alone form coherent thoughts. His fingers roll along my folds gathering more of my juices to use in easing his length inside me. Then two of them rest inside me, doing nothing but driving me insane.

“You love being stuffed by my big dick, don’t you? Look at you grippin’ my dick in your ass and my fingers in your pussy. You wanted it just like this, didn’t you?”

“I’m so close. So…” My breath catches at the closeness of the gators now. They have to be at least thirty feet away. “Blue, th-the–”

“Yes, bae. You’re takin’ me like a fuckin’ pro. Keep doin’ that.” His hips meet my ass. My stomach presses into the railing but I love how deep he’s able to get inside me.

There’s splashing as the gators finally reach their prize and I freeze in place. I can’t count how many. The adrenaline spikes something in my blood. Blue’s thrusts never slow as he’s reaching his climax too.

I hold onto the railing with all the strength I can muster as he throbs his release deep .

Panting into my ear, he covers me so that my dress can fall back into place.

After adjusting his pants to put his dick away, he says.

“They’ll never reach you. Never get to this deck.

” He licks the fingers that were just inside my pussy clean.

“But you will be finishin’ tonight’s meal drippin’ wet at the thought of them getting to you. Was it worth it?”

I smooth a hand over my hair, trying to gain my composure again. My little clutch didn’t get lost in whatever just happened on this deck because of the wrist strap. I’m careful to only remove the dummy phone up my call log.

There are no calls from the evening and I wait for him to recognize what I’m showing him.

His eyes narrow and he asks, “What’s this?”

“I was just taking a picture of this view,” I explain, a little breathless from what we've done. It’s not the complete truth but something in me couldn’t let go of the opportunity.

Swiping over to my photo app, I show him the pictures.

"I've never seen the bayou like this. I wanted pictures to remember this special night together.

" I swipe further back to the previous photos of us earlier and leave them there.

"I thought we looked good together here," I say, looking over my shoulder to him. "Do you think so?

Blue curses before walking over to the railing himself.

With his forearms on the edge, he watches his gators continue to splash around the green hued water.

“Everyone has their secrets. Some are worse than others. I know you aren’t trying to hurt me.

Trustin’ you is hard after findin’ you how I did in my office, Racquelle. ”

“I’m sorry,” I say, fidgeting with my purse strap. I am sorry , just not in the way I should be. I wish things were different.

His eyes meet mine and it takes my breath away. Here is the vulnerability that I never see from him outside of his home. Away from the bedroom in the mornings.

This is the eyes of the man who let me in.

The one who I'll burn with my deceit.

That one that will feel all the ways I hurt him as I continue to wedge lies between the two of us.

“Workin’ on it. I have to get better. You know that I want to give you more than this. I can. I will. Can you be patient with me while I do that?”

Guilt tumbles around my stomach but I hug him from behind, letting my face rest on his back when I say, “Of, course.”

He pull a blunt from behind his ear and lights it for the two of us to share. Probably why he was headed out here to begin with.

One day, I'll have to give him up to step into what I'm building. For now, I can enjoy this temporary bliss.