Page 44 of Havoc

Epilogue

Chrissy

“When you're searching the horizon When your eyes look back

When you're standing in the moment Every life has a soundtrack” - Brett Eldredge

Two months later

We’re having a barbecue at the club today and it will be the first time I’ve been around everyone since it happened. No one has really asked me about it because I think they might be scared to. I was in a dark place for the first month. I shut myself out from everyone and everything. The last month I’ve spent working through that day. Trying to understand what happened.

And trying to forgive myself.

The last week had been the best. I had headstones made for the kids and I went to visit them. Being able to talk to them and let out everything I felt was therapeutic. I needed it.

Now I feel like I’m finally starting to breathe again. Rock and I have been better too. He’s been amazing through all of this and has never left my side. I don’t know where I would be without him.

A set of arms wraps around me as he presses his lips to my neck. “You ready for all this?”

“Not like I have a choice.” I laugh. The kids are running around. Carter and Shaina are already about to rip each other’s heads off as usual.

The lockdown was lifted but all of the guys still seem tense. I can tell that whatever was going on isn’t over yet. It’s still brewing and simmering under the surface. Whenever I mention it to Rock he just brushes me off, which is honestly what I would expect. I know that he can’t talk to me about it.

We walk outside hand in hand to join everyone else. The sun shines bright and I take a deep breath. Looking up at the clouds I say a silent prayer for Amy, Johnny, and Karen.

Rock’s arm wraps around me and I relax into him. “I love you.”

“Love you too, babe.” He places a kiss on my head as we watch the family that we both recently acquired. Neither of us really had any family base to start with, now we have more than we could have ever imagined.

Little does Rock know our family might just be growing by one.