Page 10 of Dead Girl Running

“He has cameras in that house?”

“I’m so clumsy. He wants to make sure I don’t hurt myself.”

“Can you hear yourself? Hear the things you’re saying? You’re so terrified and battered you’re brainwashed.”

Cecilia stared at Kellen, mute with terror.

Kellen knew. Kellen saw. “Honey, I won’t let him get you.”

“He’ll be angry. He’s strong.”

“I know. But you’ll be safe. That’s what matters. You can live with me. Heal. Be yourself again. Come on.” Kellen helped Cecilia to her feet.

Kellen was so brave. Bossy, of course. She always had been. Cecilia had never been like Kellen, but she knew, too, her marriage had changed her from a hopeful girl on the edge of womanhood to a trembling leaf in the frigid wind, always waiting, fearing that shocking moment of violence.

Kellen towed Cecilia down the hill toward the road and in a bracing voice said, “It won’t take me more than a half hour, then we’ll be outta here. We’ll drive down the highway, windows down, and laugh at the world. Remember how we used to travel together?”

“Yes.” Nevada roads. Battered old barns. Long straight stretches of desert roads with no turns or kinks. “Those were…good memories.”

“We’ll have them again. Today.” Kellen dug money out of her jeans pocket, handed it over. “Here’s twelve dollars for the cab, then a few bucks for something to eat out of the gift shop. Here’s the key card for the room. Don’t let anyone in except me. Wait here for the cab.”

Cecilia sat in the grass on the side of the road and watched Kellen stride toward the honeymoon cottage. Honeymoon from hell. She wanted to laugh; she sobbed instead. It had been so long since she had been down to Greenleaf, over a year since her trip to the hospital. The town wasn’t three miles from the Lykke estate, yet she didn’t want to leave. Because she loved Gregory, even when…he hurt her.

She gripped the clumps of grass, her fingers aching. She did love him, didn’t she?

She had once, two years ago during that brief warm summer when he had seen her walking the rocky beach. He told her she delighted him with her laughter, that he wanted to spend his life making her happy. He bought her flowers, candy. He tried to buy her jewelry, and when she rejected it, he said he respected her. It was the courtship she had read about in books, the gentle wooing she had imagined. He begged, and she had married him. He had made love to her, a glorious experience of worship and respect.

She hadn’t wanted to live in the main house with his mother and sister; clearly, they weren’t enamored of her and she thought the concept of living in the family home was weird, a guy in his thirties living with his mommy and sister. She had put her foot down—or so she thought—and Gregory had been glad to move into the cottage at the edge of the cliff. He called it their honeymoon cottage and Cecilia was gloriously happy.

Slowly, gradually, the atmosphere had darkened. A cold dark winter such as Cecilia, desert girl that she was, had never imagined.

She talked about inviting her aunt and uncle and cousin; Gregory wanted to be alone with her.

He pointed out the things she did wrong; she argued.

He didn’t care for her tone of voice; he was older and knew better.

Eventually, she found it easier to concede…to everything.

He arbitrarily changed his mind. She pointed that out, and he brutally corrected her.

She got bored and asked for a job.

He laughed at her, asked her what she imagined she could do, her, a high school graduate without an exalted family background or a higher education.

She walked to the village, went to the bookstore, bought lofty tomes to improve her mind, a few paperbacks for fun reading, an e-reader so she could grab a magazine while the northers blew in off the Atlantic…

In a humiliating scene, he came and got her, dragged her out, took her home and spanked her. He hadn’t cared about sex, not since the first month, but when she cried, he consoled her. Then she was pregnant. When she realized—oh God, she had always wanted children—she rushed to the main house to tell him.

That was when he had pushed her down the stairs—broken bones and a baby’s life that faded before it began.

The doctor said there wouldn’t be any more children.

Gregory said,You and me, together forever. The two of us, alone.

Now, as she waited for the cab to take her to the village, she tried to think how Gregory would react when Kellen confronted him, what he would do when he discovered Cecilia intended to leave him.

I’ll kill you and I’ll kill myself.