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Two years ago, we weren’t ready for each other. Even though we weren’t in love, I still needed to mourn the loss of my wife. What I had with Cara wasn’t a fairytale love affair, but we were still close. Losing her shook my faith in who I was as a man and a protector. I needed time to reconcile those things. And Sasha was young. Although she was self-assured and independent, she still needed time to figure out who she was as an adult on her own. We both needed that time away for one another to realize what we needed. We needed to grow and learn, and although I am still going to kill the motherfucker who made her leave, I can admit that the two years away from her was beneficial. But now I know that Sasha is who I need, I will never let her go again.

Never!

Chapter 17

SASHA

Ican’t say when I woke up this morning that I expected my day to be so eventful. But that’s exactly what it was. From me securing Yohan for the biggest show in the gallery’s short history, angry make-up office sex with Sawyer, Raven’s water breaking at dinner, and now the official “I love you” had been exchanged for the first time; it’s been an adventurous day, to say the least. However, I can honestly say that I feel much better that my best friend finally knows my secret. It was hell avoiding her so that I wouldn’t spill the beans. I’ve never been good at keeping a secret except when I spent two lustful months with Sawyer two years ago. But that was an easy one to keep since I thought telling anyone would cause multiple people to be hurt.

However, now that more people know that Sawyer and I aren’t just dating but actually married, I have to figure out a way to explain to my parent’s why their only child eloped, with a man they have never met, while they were on their summer vacation without telling them. My mother is going to kill me.

I sucked in a deep breath, trying to forget about my parents, but the feeling of anxiousness was still there. Raven had been in the delivery room for almost an hour. When we arrived at BHM, Dr. Delgado was already here waiting. He confirmed that Raven was fully dilated, and she was quickly whisked away to the delivery room. I hope and pray that everything was okay with her and the baby.

“You okay, Céile?” Sawyer’s deep rumbling voice came from above me. I was still curled in his lap. I can definitely confirm that Sawyer’s arms are my favorite place to be.

“Just a little worried about Rae,” I responded, leaning back to look into his gorgeous face. For the first time this week, I really looked at him. I don’t know how I hadn’t noticed how tired his green eyes looked.

I have been so self-absorbed; I hadn’t even considered how all of this had affected Sawyer. He came in with his cape and saved a hoe, and my ass didn’t even have the decency to ask him how his business was going.

Just because he hadn’t brought up Patrick Abbott again and I hadn’t heard from the man since he left the gallery after threatening me, didn’t mean he wasn’t somewhere lurking. Men like him didn’t go quietly into the night. They waited patiently for their vengeance.

I took for granted that Sawyer would handle my situation, and I went on living my life. I felt like shit and an ungrateful wife.I have to be better.

“Babe?” I rub my hand down his face, and he gives me a tired smile, “Are you okay? Like your business, and you know… other stuff?” I whisper the last part because I know we can’t talk about his “other stuff” in public. Even if we are in the Bishops’ hospital’s secret wing, I don’t want to violate some unwritten mob rule.

“Yes, Céile. My business and ‘other stuff’ are just fine. There’s no need for you to worry about any of that.” Sawyer chuckles and kisses my forehead. I nod, but I frown because I know he’s lying. His eyes didn’t twinkle, and the chuckle was flat. Something was definitely off with my husband.

“I know we can’t get into a deep conversation about it right now, but I can tell that something is bothering you. I’m your wife, and I love you. I want to make sure that you’re okay. If you can’t go into detail, I understand.” I say with all sincerity. I want Sawyer to know he can confide in me. This relationship is different from any other one I’ve had in the past. I want him to know that he can trust me. We don’t have to make the same mistakes we did before, and communication is the key to that.

Sawyer searches my face for what I’m not sure, but whatever he sees makes him smile. He nods and lifts my chin up. His soft pink lip feathers across mine, and my eyes briefly close involuntarily. Before I can enjoy the feel of his lips, they’re gone.

“SweetSasha. I love you too. We’ll talk later.” He kisses me once more. This time he deepens the kiss. His eager tongue invaded my mouth with strong, passionate strokes. I moan, and I try desperately to reciprocate the kiss by giving him all of me.

When I feel his length hardening beneath me, I release a groan. It was much louder than I intended because I hear a deep chuckle come from behind me.

“Son. You might want to take that to somewhere more private.”

If my skin allowed for my embarrassment to show, I would be bright red. My father-in-law is standing behind me while I grind on his son, like a nympho, in public. I feel like a teenager being caught making out. I don’t know what the hell I was thinking. Although theWardis private, there are still plenty of people here right now.

Sawyer and I are sitting off to ourselves, so it was easy to forget we aren’t actually alone. When we first got here, I quickly went to the elaborately decorated restroom and cleaned myself up. I hadn’t gotten the chance after having car sex then having to quickly leave the restaurant.

Once I emerged from taking care of business, Sawyer had secured us a semi-private spot away from the Bishops’ family and their men. Brennan had made himself scarce, and I hadn’t seen Flynn since I got off work.

And because I’ve been surrounded by men who intentionally make themselves invisible, I forgot that we aren’t alone.

“It was private enough until you got here, interrupting us.” Sawyer grumbled, and his father laughed louder. I went to move from Sawyer’s lap, but he held me still and frowned down at me.

I widened my eyes in a “let me up” expression, but he just held me tighter. I swear his ass is so bossy.

“I waited for ten minutes for you all to come up for breath. Didn’t seem like that would be happening anytime soon, so…” Mr. Nash shrugged without regret.

I cleared my throat and pasted a smile on my face before turning to address Sawyer’s father, “Mr. Nash, it’s nice to see you again.”

“Sasha, nice to see you too. Welcome to the family.” His smile was broad as he pulled me from Sawyer’s lap and engulfed me in a warm hug.

I was surprised by the action. I had only met the man a couple of times, and that was before Sawyer and I were official. It’s not like we were able to date before we got married, and Raven also mentioned that she wasn’t particularly fond of the man. But he’d always been nice enough to me, so I wasn’t sure what to make of him.

Before I could delve into Conrad Nash’s behavior, Lennox rushed in the room with a humongous smile on his face and tears in his bright blue eyes. Raven and Lennox decided to wait until delivery to find out the sex of the baby, so I was anxious and super excited.