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Poor Kierran, I await the day for you to be reborn, and together, we’ll rid this world of all the badness and evil that exists.

The question remains if I should also kill my kind.

No, not now. For their goals align with mine. They keep the level of vampires down for me and so I think that I must reward them. At the moment, I am undecided about their fate. Perhaps I’ll let the Vam’pirs die and gain some rest. Vam’pirs crave peace. Nobody can deny how hard they’ve worked over the years. Vam’pirs helped sculpt this world, and yet their efforts are not appreciated.

Ah, Kierran, I long to hold you in my arms and to make love under stars. Perhaps I should speed up your rebirth and help your return.

Kierran, I am your mistress, you’ll worship me. That I shall allow, and you will become God’s consort and love me. Everyone will look at you with envy, even others of our kind.

Listen now, Kierran. There is a reason we remained separate for twelve millennia. That is for you to return as a mortal man and impregnate me. Only you possess this capability.

God can only become pregnant by the man that she loves.

The child will inherit our abilities. Kierran, too, will be worshipped and adored, and we three shall rule the world and mould it into what we want. Without you, my womb is empty, and my plans for this world cannot be fulfilled.

Together, we’ll ensure this is a safe place in which to raise children. Kaltos was damned. Kaltons lived a life of sin, and my punishment all these years was to be deprived of you. The moment for our union is here.

You must give me a child, and then everything will be right. You’ll not be giving anyone else a child, or I shall punish you again. But I do not doubt that you shall recognise me this time. For we are destined, and I deem that so.

I love you.

November 4th.

Damn, Jacques! The fool has interfered once too often. I spotted another whore, dressed as a wealthy woman.

Following her, I hit the man she was about to service on the head. As I went to punish her, Jacques got involved. Jaq must be managed. No longer can Jacques interfere with God. This is a lesson he must learn.

I never judged Jacques over that little fiasco with that rich whore, Lady Caroline. I understand his intentions were pure. I know that the Vam’pirs are meant to be the superior race and populate this planet. We possess a higher intelligence thanothers, stronger and wiser, having lived all these years. Vam’pirs are also, on a whole, more beautiful than the human weaklings that exist.

The others must change the most beautiful of those alive today and use the remainder as cattle. Vam’pirs should no longer exist in shadows. Vam’pirs must come forth and take our place as the master race. However, I’m unsure if I wish Jacques to come into the light with us.

Truthfully, I am very angry and feel Jacques should be neutralised. The bumbling fool cannot interfere with my cause. The others will understand, especially Ami, Li’zel, and Nathan.

Their thinking aligns with mine.

But my poor Jacques, how I love him. But he can’t be allowed to go around rescuing these whores. Those women are the Devil’s creations and were sent to test me. I am the all-mighty, all-superior God, and I’ll brush aside these tests as if they were nothing.

Could Jacques be the devil? Jaq has proclaimed often that he is naughty enough to be the devil.

Of course, he is!

I need to either vanquish Jacques or save his soul. I am obligated to help Jacques into the light and must start with that whore he saved. That bitch has blinded him to her real self, and I must show Jacques the truth. I’ll hide for a few days and shut myself off so he cannot find me.

Meanwhile, he’ll get acquainted with the bitch and realise what she truly is. Women like her should be burnt at the stake. Cheap little whore.

There is also the fact she has pots of money earned by her ungodly ways. How she dressed was rich and fashionable. It was possible to mistake her for a noble woman, but I noticed the stain on her soul. It looked out at me. The soul is an innocentchild trying to free itself from the cruel master that holds it prisoner.

Yes, when Jacques has got to know her, I’ll kill her and set the soul loose. That will punish Jacques and hopefully lead him into the light. I would like to save Jacques, as he has been my steady companion all through the years.

Jacques has been there when I needed him, and now he needs me. Indeed, I cannot desert him. The devil has got a grip on him, and Jaq wishes me to save him from damnation. This challenge I take willingly.

If I cannot save Jaq, then I’ll grant him a painless death and give him mercy. Jacques’s ashes will scatter to the winds, so he’ll float free and happy. Jaq will need to be strong as we achieve freedom together. His beautiful face will look at me with such thanks and love that I’m certain we will succeed.

I discovered a sweet little Irish girl, and I will show her the light and error of her ways. Sadly, she is not a good person, for she has already told lies. Her name is Mary, and she claims she hails from Ireland, but she is Welsh. Mary says that she has no children, and yet I sense she had one.

Another lying bitch. Why won’t they learn? Why can’t they tell the truth? Mary lives a fairly enjoyable life in Miller’s Court. This girl surpasses all others in her capacity to anger me. Mary is a pretty-looking thing and could have done so much more with her life.

Mary proclaims she intends to try and get some money to go back home.