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"Aside from Maverick through the transmitter, I never spoke or interacted with other Alphas," I add with clinical precision that acknowledges limited social engagement despite external freedom and expanded opportunity for relationship development.

The isolation proved self-imposed rather than circumstantial.

Biological recognition creating systematic rejection of alternatives despite rational attempts to find satisfaction through conventional channels and normal designation dynamics.

"It felt wrong," I admit with vulnerability that transcends tactical consideration to encompass genuine emotional acknowledgment. "Disgusting even."

The strength of negative response surprised me during external existence.

Physical revulsion rather than simple disinterest or polite rejection.

Designation biology operating beyond conscious control to maintain connection despite systematic separation and institutional interference.

"Even when I tried to fulfill my needs, it just didn't feel right," I continue with honesty that acknowledges attempted self-satisfaction alongside systematic failure and biological rejection.

Understanding that pack imprinting creates exclusive compatibility rather than a general designation response.

Chemical recognition that transcends logical consideration or practical necessity to encompass authentic biological harmony and emotional connection.

The truth proves simultaneously liberating and terrifying.

Acknowledgment that freedom meant nothing without pack completion and territorial establishment.

That biological compatibility operates beyond conscious choice or rational consideration.

That love represents recognition rather than decision.

"Maybe that's why I was fine with each of you knotting me," I observe with clinical assessment that reduces intimate claiming to biological compatibility and designation harmony. "Because this was my calling, and you are the ones I truly want."

The declaration encompasses both physical satisfaction and emotional truth.

Understanding that territorial claiming felt natural rather than forced, connection rather than systematic manipulation.

Pack formation serving authentic desire despite strategic assembly and calculated manipulation that initiated original contact and relationship development.

Corvus's analytical mind focuses with predatory precision on information that transcends emotional confession to encompass tactical intelligence and operational security.

"This Maverick individual," he questions with characteristic directness that prioritizes practical consideration over emotional acknowledgment or romantic significance.

Protective instinct asserting dominance over sentimental appreciation.

Alpha territorial response to external male influence despite technological mediation and physical separation.

Pack hierarchy demanding comprehensive understanding of all relationships and emotional investments that might affect loyalty or operational effectiveness.

"He's an Alpha who speaks to me through an embedded transmitter," I explain with patience that acknowledges legitimate concern while providing necessary clarification and tactical transparency. "He's saved my life time and time again."

The admission carries gratitude that transcends simple appreciation to encompass genuine emotional debt and recognition of systematic protection.

Understanding that survival often depended on external guidance and tactical assistance beyond individual capability or strategic planning.

Technological connection serving authentic relationship despite physical separation and limited interaction.

"I can't speak to him right now since we're probably too far underground," I continue with the practical assessment that acknowledges current communication limitations while expressing continued connection and operational dependency.

The loss of contact creates vulnerability rather than liberation.

Technological assistance is becoming an emotional anchor rather than a simple tactical advantage.