Im fifty shades of screwed up. I love too hard and too much, and my love? Its destructive.

Joey found me at one of the lowest points of my life, right when I was ready to give it all up, and he saved me. He taught me how to breathe when I felt like my lungs no longer worked.

But the cause of my downfall, Tristan, is back, and hes tearing through my life like a tornado. I miss him, but I cant breathe when hes near. Im drowning all over again.

Tristan doesnt know who I am anymore. He still loves the...

Im fifty shades of screwed up. I love too hard and too much, and my love? Its destructive.

Joey found me at one of the lowest points of my life, right when I was ready to give it all up, and he saved me. He taught me how to breathe when I felt like my lungs no longer worked.

But the cause of my downfall, Tristan, is back, and hes tearing through my life like a tornado. I miss him, but I cant breathe when hes near. Im drowning all over again.

Tristan doesnt know who I am anymore. He still loves the innocent, naive girl I used to be.

But shes dead because Joey killed her when he gave me a purpose.

My life is imploding around me. My ground is shaky at best, and before long, an earthquake is splitting my world in half.

Im lost. Untethered. Broken.

Ruined.

When Im attacked and left for dead, theres only man I know I can call that wont make everything worse.

The only thing he requests when he comes to my aid is

Live for me, darlin.

No matter the hell I endure, Ill keep my word to him, even if it means hurting everyone around me in the process.

Previously published as Ruined. That book has been re-edited and republished as two separate books. The story remains the same, though important details have been fixed to fit the rest of the series, which will also be republished.

Please read the Note from the Author at the beginning of the book before deciding to read.