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I hope he’s focused enough to figure those things out for me because I don’t have a clue.

I’ve never been in a situation where I could think about myself like that.

It’s always been fight or flight, kill or be killed.

There wasn’t time to sit down and put thought into what I might want or what I might like, not when my future was pretty set in stone and my present was a daily battle.

“It’s about making sure you know how loved you are,” Korvin says as he slowly unzips my jumpsuit. “Making you feel good because of it.” The he looks me in the eyes and asks, “Can I show you how I feel, Calix? Can I try to help you feel it, too?”

“Please?”

”It means I’m going to be touching you in more places than I already have, and in different ways. I need to know you’re okay with that before I keep going, and that you will stop me if you don’t like something I do or don’t want to go any further.”

”I will,” I whisper as I nod, a real smile touching my lips as he searches my face. “You might be overthinking this, Vin. I’m not going to be hard to please, not if it’s you.”

He arches a brow. “Vin?”

I can feel all the color drain from my face as my eyes go wide. “I hear Des call you that sometimes, I guess I just, well I don’t have to do that if you don’t want me to. I can use your full name. Or alpha. Or?—“

Korvin silences me with a kiss, his smile something I feel before I see it. “I want you to, I like it.”

A hungry expression spreads across his face, his gray eyes becoming hooded as they darken.

I think that’s what drew me to Korvin. His eyes. I felt his presence, everyone on Ward C did that first day and every day since, but it was when I saw his eyes that it really started. They drew me in until I felt like I was falling, and that hasn’t changed in the entire time we’ve been here.

My breath stutters out of me as Korvin starts pulling my jumpsuit down, the stiff fabric coarse as it slides against my skin. His gaze follows, taking in every inch of my body he exposes, tracing the lines of my torso before trailing over my scars that litter my chest and arms.

”You are beautiful, Calix.” Korvin flattens his hand over my heart, lightly sliding his fingers between my pecs then down over my abs. “Beautiful, and mine.”

With my heart in my throat, I watch as this imposing and magnificent alpha sinks to his knees in front of me. Korvin is on his knees in front of me. He’s on his knees for me.

There’s a lot of power that comes with this position, the one I’m standing in. I won’t use it, I’d never do something like that, but I’m aware that I have it. The power, the control, it’s mine right now. Mine because Korvin is giving it to me.

“Doing okay so far, sweetheart?”

I nod, staring down at him in awe.

“Good if I go further?”

Another nod as I suck in a breath, then immediately blow it out in disbelief as he lets my jumpsuit fall to the floor and my cock springs free.

I’m hard.

This doesn’t happen to me very often, not like I’m sure it does for other males, and usually just when I’m alone.

It used to happen when I didn’t want it to, during times when someone would use me and I couldn’t help it.

People thought it meant I was happy with whatever was going on, that I liked it, but explaining things never stopped them, and sometimes they would get angry and hurt me far worse instead.

Arousal isn’t a feeling I’m used to, definitely not here, but I’m aroused right now.

Very aroused judging by how hard I am. My dick is pointing straight up and it’s leaking precum.

How I didn’t notice that before Korvin was eye level with it is surprising but considering how in my head I’ve been today, it probably shouldn’t be.

Now that I’m tuned into it, I can feel it. Buzzing in my veins, a warmth spreading through my entire body. My balls are tight and heavy at the same time, my lower belly is tingling, and my erection twitches with anticipation.

But I don’t have to wait long.

Korvin watches me as his fist closes around the base of my shaft, holding it against my belly as he dips his head and proceeds to drag his tongue between my balls and all the way up my cock until it circles the swollen head.

He growls as he licks my precum from the tip, a storm raging in his stare as he does it again before slowly closing his lips around the head.

Korvin’s tongue works the sensitive under side, the sensation so intense I ball my hands into fists so I don’t do something bad, like grab onto his hair or start pumping my hips.

I have no idea if that’s okay, and I don’t really want to ask right now.

If I start talking, Korvin might change his mind.

Not about giving me head, but me in general.

Which would start with him not giving me head but that’s not my focus.

I’ll just try to follow his lead the best I can until I absolutely can’t.

His free hand slides up my thigh as Korvin takes more of me into his mouth, his fingers flexing periodically as he reaches for my fist.

He loosens my grasp and guides it to his hair, proving once again that he might be a mind reader and with his encouragement, I bury my fingers into the thick, dirty blond waves and smile.

Then groan in a way I’ve never heard before as Korvin hollows out his cheeks and takes me all the way to the back of his throat.

My fist slams against the door as he picks up his pace, humming around my cock each time I’m fully seated in his mouth, my head thumping back against the wood as he cups my balls and squeezes.

”Fuck,” I hiss as I jerk forward, the muscles in my stomach spasming hard.

I think I’m going to orgasm.

I can’t remember the last time that happened, probably a wet dream or morning wood that wouldn’t go away, but it wasn’t because I was in a situation like this. Not that I’ve ever been in a situation like this. I haven’t, and I think the lightning racing down my spine means I’m going to come.

”Korvin,” I pant as my fingers tighten in his hair. “This feels too good. Too good, too fast. I’m?—“

I gasp then moan as he takes me down his throat, his nose pressed against my stomach as he growls deep and low, the sound going straight to my balls.

Yeah, I’m going to come.

This feels so good, so damn good to have Korvin, my alpha, suck my cock while never taking his eyes off of me. The heat and love in his stare, it’s radiating from him in waves and wrapping me in the safety that resides there.

My hips start moving on their own, desperately trying to pump my erection between his lips and when Korvin notices, he doesn’t stop me. No, he grabs my hip and pulls me to him, sending my dick down his throat again before my instincts take over.

I start thrusting into his mouth, moaning as the underside of my cock slides against his tongue, panting as he sucks harder and moves with me.

“Oh my god,” I groan as he starts massaging my balls, working them in the same rhythm while his other hand slides up my body until he’s twisting my nipple between his fingers. “Korvin, oh god.”

All the sensations, each part of my body he’s touching, no worshiping . That’s how it feels, like my alpha is worshiping me. Loving me. Korvin is truly showing me what it’s like to be with someone who loves you, and that’s what sends me over the edge.

My head thumps against the door as my hips thrust a few more times, the movements jerky and uneven before I’m digging both hands into Korvin’s hair, sliding him all the way onto my cock and holding him there as I fire rope after rope of cum down his throat.

After what feels like an eternity, my climax subsides, twitching the last few drops onto his tongue as I pull out and loosen my grip.

”Sorry,” I pant as I look down at him. “I didn’t know what to do, I wasn’t sure what you wanted me to do but it felt so good that I couldn’t stop myself.”

Korvin grins the best he can before he sits back on his feet, motioning down to his crotch where his own erection is straining against the orange fabric then nods so I look at his face.

He opens his mouth and shows me the embarrassing amount of cum on his tongue and just when I’m ready to start apologizing, his jaw snaps shut and he swallows.

”I love you, sweetheart, and I want you to do whatever you want to do to me, however you want to do it because of that.”

He gets to his feet and cups my cheeks, looking deep into my eyes as if he’s trying to read what he thinks I won't say.

But I say it because I mean it, because I want him to hear it, and I need to see what happens when I do. This still doesn’t feel real.

“I…” My voice shakes a little and I take a slow breath. “I love you, too, Korvin, and I’m really glad fate bonded us together.”

”Just wait until everything is set in stone.” He dips his chin and kisses me softly. “When I complete that bond, when I claim you as mine, you are never going to feel unloved or unworthy again.”

I smile as Korvin pulls me to him and holds me, wrapping my arms around his waist as I press my face against his chest.

I don’t have to be smart to know what he says is true. Korvin has been different from the start, and I know that’s how it’s always going to be.